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Why I Comick So Damn Much
Sat Aug 22, 2009, 3:46 PM
* Mood: Tearful
* Listening to: "Soaring"-Sydney Forest
* Reading: over the comic
* Drinking: Tang
Monique, you can't even come over during the week to work on the comic. My mom wants me to focus on school and doesn't give a damn that we already payed for the table and etc. Let's see if we can do it at school, ok? Like in the library, or the band room when there isn't any practice. I'll see if you can come over tomorrow after church, but again--I have no fucking clue.
I hate living at my house. I have overprotective parents that don't give a damn about my hobby or what I think. My dad never liked me drawing manga and calls anime "La La Land". My mom just looked at my work and called it cute, nothing else. I never was allowed to hang out with my friends, especially if they were also into anime and manga and video games. I also wasn't as outgoing as I am now, so I spent most of my time reading fiction to get away from it. Even in elementary school, I stayed after school with the library assistant to read and help out. All that reading is probably why English continues to be my best subject. But I really liked art. I tried out every form I encountered. The only time I regretted trying out a style was the only time my dad thought it was absolutely spectacular--I find squeezing paint out of those pen-like tubes fun, even back then. I was doing that and had paint all over one of my folders and left it on the table. I was gonna throw it away later, but I wanted it to dry so my mom didn't get mad at me if I got paint somewhere. Well, I went back and found it gone, so I figured somebody threw it out for me. Then at the kitchen table, my dad said I made something great and I thought he was talking about a drawing I did earlier that day. Then he took out the folder and I got really mad, saying I didn't mean to make it. Then that night I ripped it up and threw it away. That probably seems really stupid and childish, but...I was around 8 or 9--what do you expect?
I started dabbling in manga, I got really into it--loved it obviously, since I'm still doing it. So I experimented a lot over the years and finally got my "style" down. I'm still experimenting with other styles, but so far this is pretty stable. When I think manga, I think fantasy, and video games. Something that isn't my life. My life at home is boring and lonely and depressing--not like "I wanna kill myself" but more of "When I'm 18, I'm so out of here". I hate going home. At home, I have to act like someone completely different. I can't joke around like I do at school or with my friends. My teachers probably have a better understanding of what I'm like than my parents do. I can't openly express my love for anime and manga because I get criticized if I play any foreign music, draw, or watch anime. I have to shut myself up in my room to do it, and then they get mad if I do that. My parents want me to be this big scholar person that makes a gazillion dollars when I just kind of want to live a peaceful life in an apartment somewhere working on G33|<!! or in a cottage in the woods painting my life away and living off what I have. If it wasn't for the fact that I need money, I wouldn't even give a damn about college.
In short, I comick because I need to get away without really getting away. I want to do something right. I'm not that good at school, or sports, or anything else for that matter. I'm not musical, I'm not an actor/actress, I'm not as sweet as honey, and I'm not studious. I'm a girl that tatoos bleached leaves with graphite dreams and acid thoughts because the rabbit hole to my wonderland is barred shut until further notice.
-KF
Line Art
Thu Aug 6, 2009, 1:48 PM
* Mood: Dazed
* Listening to: "Torn"-Natalie Imbruglia
* Eating: Vanilla yogurt with chocolate syrup
Been doing line art since last night, I'm on page 4's now. I'm killing myself because I left parts blank during the draft, so while I'm darkening the lines so I can see them easier on the light table, I'm also filling in the blank and incomplete panels. On the bright side, it's going faster than I expected.
I just wish I wasn't such a night person sometimes. Night, like 9pm and onward, are my working hours--so I never get sufficient sleep during school if I want to do well in my classes. Unless I'm in a classroom, I can't concentrate at all(but even in a classroom my mind tends to wander).
How do you guys get yourselves to work? I mean, it's kind of ridiculous if I can't bring myself to work on something I LIKE to do...
-KF
Comic Full Speed Ahead!!
Thu Jul 30, 2009, 2:42 PM
* Mood: Not Impressed
* Listening to: "LIFE"-Kimaguren
* Eating: Celery with peanut butter and raisins
* Drinking: Orange Juice
Full speed ahead, since I only have about two weeks left to finish the line art for the pages. Started working on the new cover last night, but Minto and I still think it could be better...I don't have any other good ideas =< I'm aiming for finishing three pages today, to bring me up to page 13; then another 3 pages tomorrow.
When I'm done with the line art for the new cover and a line art of an alternative cover, I'll upload both and will beg you guys to say which you would be more likely to pick up. Please cooperate =D Because, I have a feeling Minto wants to get this done more than I do <3 Good thing she's my editor, or else I would've done absolutely nothing regarding this promo. Thanks, Mo!
-KF
Help Wanted!!
Mon Jul 20, 2009, 5:14 PM
* Mood: Embarrassed
* Listening to: "Australia"-The Shins
I want to start doing commissions, small ones like rough/clean sketches and the occasional line art, but I don't know how to go about it. Is there someone out there that's willing to help me and walk me through the steps on how to do a commission? I won't charge for it, and the person that helps me gets to keep whatever I worked on for the mock commission.
My reason for doing this? I'm not allowed to get a regular job, such as working at a store and such--and even if I could I wouldn't be able to make it to work since I've yet to get my permit(I'm actually supposed to have my license by now) and since my parents never really let me explore where I live, I don't know my way around my neighborhood. Ride a bike you say? Never learned =D Rollerblade? Sure, but the roads are too bumby for me to get around safely. Walk? Not allowed. I also feel bad when my parents give me money, and we're not exactly in the situation where I can get spare change around here. So, my best option was to do commissions since they don't interfere much with my schoolwork(dammit IB Programme).
If you know anyone that can help, or if you can help, please do =( But please note...I'd rather not do any nude scenes...DX
-KF
Does this count as studying?
Tue Jun 16, 2009, 3:48 PM
* Mood: Panic
* Listening to: "I Walk Alone"-Oleander
I've been reading up on the rule of thirds and colour theory and what attracts people and the like. I feel like one of those people that are paid to find out what's "hip and cool" in the "teen scene"; I've been looking up what colours attract teens and patterns and whatever else I could link together--all to find out how to make a good cover for the comic that can attract those silly people at Chibi-Pa this September.
Here's the thing: I only like researching and studying when it interests me. Who doesn't? That's why I want to majour in art and psychology; they're related anyway. Plus, it's great for comicking-you learn what your audience likes and doesn't like. I'm proud of my notes =D
Almost everyone knows about my fear of vacuum cleaners. Well, it was thundering big this afternoon(just ended a couple minutes ago) and I looked up thunder on Wikipedia to know more about 'em. Well, now I know why I don't like thunder either--vacuum related =(
Ok, I'm off for more research!! Mo, I need to lineart the main part of the cover and send it to V-I'm still working on the background. Cal, nothing for you to correct yet.
-KF
