Hush, Love, Don't cry,
It'll be alright,
Hold me close,
As I administer the dose,
Listen to my lullaby of lies.
- Created By Mercury Dragon
So Far Away...
Mood: depression...
Music: Toy Box "Superstar" (doesn't really fit my mood, huh?)
Okay, so I figured I'd update you all on my life at the moment. I've got 3 more days of Maymester work, and then Friday we're taking a field trip...I'm glad it's almost over...It's killing me...Although it IS keeping my mind busy and off of a certain subject that I'll be discussing shortly...Then Saturday, my friend Kells is coming to help me move from this apartment building to another apartment building...After we're done moving, we're gonna hang out. I haven't seen her in quite a while, so it'll be fun to do that. Next Monday, I start my community service work...3 weeks, 15 hours each week...That means about 45 hours total...Then on July 1st I start my work-study at the special day care...I'm ready for that...I love those little kids. They're absolutely adorable! I'll work there 20 hours a week (at least, hopefully more) until the Fall '09 semester starts, which will be sometime in late August. After the semester starts, I might continue working at the day care, but my hours will have to be reduced...
Okay, so the reason I'm depressed...Daku left yesterday morning for Nebraska. I made it from his house to campus without crying, but the second I crossed the threshold into my room, I broke down...I cried for a good 40 minutes...He's so far away, and I can't call him just anytime I want because he's working on research, and I can't text him anymore because his parents shut the text function off on his phone plan, and I can't see him whenever I want like I'm used to because he's 8 FUCKING HOURS AWAY!!!!! Long-distance sucks...We did it last summer, but I got to visit him once a month, at least...He'll be in Nebraska for 10 weeks, and the most I'll get to see him is MAYBE one weekend...I really, really, REALLY fucking hate this!! I need to just get somewhere alone and have a breakdown right now, but I can't, because I'm supposed to be working on what's left of my Maymester assignments...
And to make matters worse, our professors chewed us out this morning, saying we were "acting immature, not showing a servant's attitude, had bad attitudes, and letting the estrogen levels get out of control". Well, what the FUCK do they expect?! They're putting so much damn pressure on us, we're bound to be grumpy, grouchy, and be immature. And we can't control the estrogen levels because all 6 of us are GIRLS!! Humans have no control over their fucking chemical balances!! Especially since one of the other girls started her monthly this morning...She REALLY can't help it...I feel bad for her...I really want my professors to just go fuck off right now...I really, really do...
Well, thanks for reading through my little rant, if you did...I congratulate those who read this line...
Stay classy, Otakuites.
Excel~
~~...Attempting to give a damn...Attempt failed...Try again later...~~
I feel your pain, buddy...I feel your pain...
If The World Stops Spinning, Read That Writing On the Wall...
Mood: Sleepy...
Music: None...
So, things are starting to get pretty hectic. I had a stressful weekend this past weekend. Something happened that was beyond my control, and it really pissed me off and made me worried sick at the same time. It's a horrible feeling to have...If I could've prevented the event from happening, believe me, I would have! Unfortunately, I couldn't. Of course, everything has been worked out, and things are much better now.
The end of the semester is drawing near, which means that I'm going to have to write several papers and do some projects. Then of course, Finals Week...You know what? Let's just not go there...Anyways, I've got Sophomore Review to deal with on April 17th. It's something all the art majors have to go through here at the good ol' U of O...
My Education advisor has thrown out another option to me to help broaden my career choices: Preschool-8th grade certification. Right now, I'm working on an Art major and a Secondary Education major, and with the Secondary Ed major, she told me it would be VERY easy to get P-8 certification. Basically, I think I'll only have to take one more class than I would have...Unfortunately, that class is a State History class...I'm going to talk to that advisor on Wednesday at noon about this option. Both Daku and I believe it would be a very good idea. I probably need to run it by my parents, too.
Then after this semester is over, I'll get to jump right in to Maymester! That's pretty much just a bunch of Education classes rolled into one 3-week-long journey of learning...So I won't really get a break until June 5th. Of course, then I'll be starting a summer Work-Study job. Hopefully, I'll be working at the local special-needs preschool. I'm going to talk to the director Thursday...I really hope I get that position! I'm currently observing there, and I absolutely adore the 4-5 year olds! It's a dream job...See, back in 6th grade, I began working with the 3-6 year olds' Children's Church class at my church, and since then, I've gained a ton of experience working with children. I consider myself an amateur babysitter, as I've babysat many children during that period. So, yeah, that would be a dream job for me.
And May 30th or 31st, Daku will be leaving for Lincoln, Nebraska. He's doing a summer internship at UNL for 2 months...That's part of the reason I want to stay here over the summer. I couldn't stand living back at home with my parents during that time...I'd go absolutely nuts!! Not that I'm not already a bit insane anyways...But yeah, the summer Work-Study will help me make it through. I'm also considering doing an online course at a local Tech college. That'll help me be able to graduate in the next 4 semesters...
Well, I guess that's it...Stay classy, Otakuites!
Excel~
~~One ring to rule them all, one ring to find them; one ring to bring them all, and in the darkness TAKE THEIR COOKIES!!!~~
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