Welcome to my endless enigma of pointless verbal ironies and useless information revolving around the existence of me, Itsu. Yes, I welcome you to Infinity. If you're scared, you needn't worry, I won't bite unless provoked otherwise...usually. Now enjoy your slow downward spiral toward the very core of my innermost being, well the psychotic section anyway.
Have fun.
if you'd like, my darlings, check me out at one of my other existences:
[Happy endings don't exist because the world keeps turning--
but you don't have to have an ending--
to be happy.]
[~We are all a little weird and
Life’s a little weird,
And when we find someone whose
Weirdness is compatible with ours,
We join up with them and fall in
Mutual weirdness and call it Love~
~Dr. Seuss~]
you can completely ignore those minecraft vid links, that series is over...it was terrible and didn't go over well to begin with XP
my merokins got a new, better, bigger computer and we are getting a new server from a different host *nod* one that is widely known among the minecraft community and from the looks of it is the only one which has mods/plugins available... and we terribly need the teleport mod T_T mero keeps running off and getting lost and/or dying and respawning in the middle of nowhere and we spend most of our time trying to find eachother rather than being able to record, and by the time we do something happens with her computer and i have to leave as the server is hers, and upon returning all we had done is partially not saved..... -___- so.freakin.annoying.
SO, we shall be having a new series soon, with much better quality--we hope--
it shall have a fun and eccentric texture pack, and a few mods i should think yes *nodnod*
therefore, my minions, if you are minecraft obsessed as i, your leader and master, then you should check it out...whenever it occurs..AND when it does, i shall of course inform you as i have nothing else better to do o 3o
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in other, not as shiny news, i still have not yet scanned anything in AND have not been drawing much as it is...instead i have been minecrafting like the dork i am X3
i know i need to scan and lick the paper with my pencil, but i am such a moron, you know that things will continue to be generally slow...
BUT, i have been writing more than usual, nothing of the stories which i posted here and those shan't be restarted and rewritten and worked until much later yes, but fanfic related things will hopefully begin shaping and similarly, whenever those are begun online i shall tell all of ye faithful ones *pats affectionately*
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and now i frollic off, to continue with my ritualistic site checking, and hopefully after that mero will have gotten the server made, uncertainties, it is more difficult to do than the one we already made *strokes chin sagacously--I CAN MAKE UP WORDS, DO NOT QUESTION ME*
perhaps shall draw some tonight...may likely write, as i must awaken earlier than usual..hmm hmmmm *wanders off*
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okay, i give in, here is something awesome, cat, and window related...how i spoiler you T 3T
Soooooooooooooooooooooooo...the other night, in one part of the many dreams i had, there was a moment when i dreamt that i got onto this account and over half of my subscribers had left me! D: now i am not the egotistical type, in fact i am rather self depricating, but still! what on earth could have happened that so many peoples would leave me at the same time!! D:
twas a strangeness indeed, one i didn't actually recall until after i was going through my sites and came on here and seeing i had the same subscriber amount it reminded me of teh dreamy thing.
other things and stuff have been buzzing around my life, my sister recently graduated from high school...it merely reminds me of how it is over two years(getting closer to three) since i graduated and still i have not managed to get my footing into normal life. -___-
but good things are about, i have managed to weave myself into my writing again, which pleases me...i have gotten maybe half of my written notes from the laptop chaos into documents either new or already existing. *nodnod* and with this i have written a bit for a few of my fanfic stories. i re-read the few pieces i had written for an old SebCiel story i had in mind, i actually kind of liked it regardless of the editing necessary. i initially decided that i would never continue what i had in mind for it, but upon reading it again..i think i may try to figure something out with it. granted, since i had just started writing and did not take down notes on the story line, i don't remember it so much..kinda like a spotty memory of some life experience, images and flashes but nothing definitive. don't know when i would get to that though! XD i did write some on another two SessKag fanfics of mine, nothing big, but a little since the inspiration was there from the note inputs.
i really have got to hook up my scanner...i have so many arts that need to be scanned in, lest i drown in the growing numbers DX ..stupid self.....T 3T
whelps...just thought i would update whoever..or whatever seems to keep coming here...(i have gotten not quite 300 views since my last post or two o-o...what is up with that?)
eventhough i am pretty sure non of the pageviews here are of ACTUAL readers, but instead random bystanders caught in my entopy vortex, i thought i would go ahead and give a shot at asking this...this way i can tell my friends there that i at least TRIED *nod*
so, i am apart of this little writing community, very tiny, and we are trying to revitalize the site some and inorder to do such we are in desperate need of active noobs! and by active noobs i mean people who don't just come in and make an account and vanish entirely, but people who actually post works, comment and give constructive criticism on other people's pieces, and participate in some of the random ranting posts and commentery of silliness, and often cats for some reason, we do *nodnod*:3
we are a small, tight knit community who are friendly, active for the most part--life happens to everyone--, and enjoy writing of all kinds! we, the ones currently active there, have been in a sort of writing slump and again trying to bring some life back by noob hunting, which is always hard to do *nod* with the hopes of other writing pieces being up will bring back some of the initial spirit of the site, for writers to be among writers and enjoy having their pieces read by others and advice given C:
also, we recently being a fortnightly(at least for now) prompt event! something to get the writing juices flowing, to make you just write and not worry about it
so if there are any of you who REALLY read this and would like to become a real part of this little community of ours, then please head over, make and account, and post in our newly made newbie thread to introduce yourself! :D
i look forward to hearing from..someone..as you WILL be abiding by my subliminal wishes, yes?? >:[ good.
*pets fat lap cat with sinister grin of mischievousness*
P.S. my username is itsufer, so there shall be an aquintated perhaps maybe something or other person face thing there should you chose to come. and you will, won't you >:{3 yes, obey the mustachioed one. you shall indeed.
*cackles a bit, scares cat, legs bleeding now...passing..out...falls over*
i have actually not been able to do much of anything on the internet or my laptop for several weeks now, and with these issues i had always believed i couldn't post here--pretty much anywhere else really T 3T--because of the wayward nature of links and what will or won't load, etc...some things work other don't..it's a mess of ire inducing uncertainties and i wish i knew why the hell it was happening...but it looks like tomorrow i will be finally taking it in! :D EDIT: Well, i took it in to the geek squad, he looked through things, changed one thing or two and put on something meant to help analyze my computer content, not the hardware, to be clear. Aaaaaaaand after doing that and deleting a few unnecessary and possibly hindering things, then running the analyzer and it found nothing. Not a freakin, damn thing. There is one item i have not been able to delete and i think may be causing at least some of the issues and that is McAfee. I don't know if it is corrupted or the actual macfee site or whatever is screwed up or what, but it won't load or uninstall because it freezes the program. Just another stupid problem that has come to join the haunting of the technological existence of me. Sigh..sigh. I personally still maintain the theory that my harddrive is the issue, somehow, someway..yes. It needs to be taken in again where perhaps they can remove the unresponsive McAfee, see if that does ANYTHING to assist, and if not i want them to check out the hardware...cause this is pissing me off more. I already missed the jack hunting zOMG event on gaia and it looks like i will miss the opening of the new area, DMS, also in zOMG, plus i have missed SO MANY DAYS of gold earning possibilities!!! I NEED TO REGAIN GOLD FROM PURCHASED CURRENT DREAM AVIE ITEMS D:< Yes, i enjoy this virtual world. If you have a life then go be apart of it, cause i don't and this is what sustains my restless pointlessness of not having one. Yeah, i don't have a life and never have. Really makes the reason i get the amount of view i do here seem rather strange. All i do is ramble about crap, and if not that then it is general updates of things i finally get around to posting here. ...i am going to shut up now, just wanted to update, you people weird enough to come here. Probably only lost souls catching a tag thinking it will lead to something of meaning when in fact it is asinine babble. *pop* ..yup.
Living without internet or my computer abilities at all(since i backed up my things, i couldn't go saving or starting new documents to in my folders) sooo..quite sadness indeed. i have been necessarily forced into get my large reading pile out of the way, though. Not that i dislike reading--i quite enjoy it--, i just take forever to around to it--or anything--, but when i do i get through things fast. Two books complete, some writing, and some art...knocking down a few of those pillars which needed and still need to be brutally attacked. However i must say going back to long hand writing, for extended periods of time, is painful XP it has been close to three years since i have done such...i am a bit better now but still *cracks wrists and fingers*
i really don't think this going is to go through, but if it does, then this all is why i haven't been posting or faving or thumbs uping, though i have been able to view things, so points still to people there *nod* and you had best enjoy those points people....you.had.best. T 3T
i wrote a much longer and more explanitory post on this for my deviantART, which then, of course, didn't go through. But i had spent so much time on it that i did the annoying process of transfering it a word doc, saving it, moving it to a flashdrive, going to the desktop downstairs, logging in there, and getting it all set and posting through that. ...as you may have noticed, using the desktop i prefer not--if you haven't, then watch this mysterious red light that is moving swiftly on the wall *moves around laser pointer*--. It is rather dark in that room due burnt out bulbs--forever out it seems-- and while i like darkness, it isn't good for the eyes. Especially since our desktop is a fairly big screen, as it is a media type computer...so bright, large screen you sit close to in a relatively darkened room for hours on end...yeah... Though due to all this laptop chaos, i do occasionally pop on there to check certain things on certain sites, but only briefly.
soooooooooooo, if this doesn't go through, then....you'll all live. probably.
EDIT:hey! it actually went through...who would have thought..sigh...the strangeness of this issue is frustrating indeed. >:/
Something for your eye gouging pleasure...a long and annoying update on my life and what is going to happen in the near and distant future *nod*
SIGH, well took me a while to get around to writing this(and then to get it up here XP)…been very busy, or at least for me it is…I mean I have moved more than I would in two months in the last three weeks! It’s been very hard on me I think T –T i mean yesterday i slept through the entire day from 4 am to 5 am the next day! i slept through two very annoying alarms! it was my body taking matters into it's own hands i think T 3T sometimes it does that...my body and mind are definately two entities...
Anyways, the simple of it is, I have been trying to come back to life lately. I sort of imagine myself as having been dead my entire life and now I have started digging my way to the surface, to live among the humans, masquerading as one in order to have a “normal” existence.
I really took my dog’s death as a (I apologize how cliché this may sound to some people) sign from God. It was something I always knew would happen and anticipated in the last few weeks of her life, but I suppose the suddenness of it all and then learning it was the same cancer that had taken my grandma when she was still so young (only just turned 69!)…it was a wake-up call that I knew I needed but had never truly felt. That life is unexpected, no matter how fully I live by ‘expect the unexpected’, I can’t avoid that things happen whether you want them or not, and even if you were knowing that it was on its way the full force of it knocks some of your brain loose again. I loved my dog greatly, and I adored my grandmother. Even though I have always had problems, and I know I always will, and while I can empathize with wished to simply end it all, there is this small biting fire inside me that wants to live. I want to go to college, I want to find something I love to do, I want to find my someone, I want to have children and make my parents grandparents—they would be great ones too!—, I want pets of my own, a home of my own, I want to grow old hand in hand with my love, and I want to live a long life with purpose, then slip soundly into heaven, and meet everyone I loved and lost and the reason for my being ‘face’ to ‘face’. I have hopes in life, and I never once believed I couldn’t one day have those. Having this loss really reminded me, as much as I can take my time to be ready, I also need to keep myself moving, or else all these experiences will fall into the abyss I can’t seem to climb out of.
All this kicking got me to know I need to be thinking about college, sure it won’t be where I’m going tomorrow or this school year but it should be soon and I am going to need to work hard to be ready. I have things I need to accomplish before I can do that, and I want to be able to get to that first day…with a dorm and strange roommate and everything—eventhough I’m sure I won’t be too fond of having a roommate -___- —and know that I made it and be proud of myself for once. With this going on now, I don’t know how much I will be able to be around…and it truly saddens me, but until I can find my footing in this new life of mine, I just can’t be wasting and procrastinating (as I am quite skilled in). I will always try to make time for my friends and I will always be lurking every now and then even if I don’t make myself present :’)
Onto some fun stuff! I think I finally tacked down a major after all the depressing uncertainty I had when wishing for a career in Vet Tech areas, I will still try and study some Pre-Vet though even if I don’t major because I love it still and who knows what will come along in life ^_^ I have chosen something I always knew I liked and thought about but simply wasn’t sure of, and that is Majoring in Psychology. Seems appropriate, right? It’s kind of been my whole life really XP Then I would like to Minor in Writing. Not because I intend to have a writing career but I would love to one day publish some of my original fiction ideas and stories. It’s all writer’s dreams to have their own work in a nice, brand new book smelling, hard back novel. To do this, I need to know the ACTUAL rules of writing which I now do not really abide by so learning would be a great help regardless! As I said I will surely try and look into some pre-vet education but I won’t do anything career wise with it
I already have a college picked out too! One I loved from the first time I toured, and the other day I got back from an overnight tour thing which only made me seal the deal permanently! Especially my talk with a very kind and understand admissions counselor who helped me figure out what to do in order to be ready to apply ^-^ it’s wonderful to have a plan now and a real goal to be heading for *nodnod*
So hopefully, I will be a student of the class year 2013 along with my sister and second best friend! Sure, it will be the year that my graduating class will be starting their junior years but I wasn’t ready then plus it’s not like I’m advancing with them all and staying behind...it will be a new world full of new people and I will have my sibling and friend there with me too :3 so I’m not worried, I’m hopeful.
My life checklist currently:
-Finally get my 2nd semester of geometry finished
-Subsequently, getting my high school diploma (yes, I did graduate but I have this one semester I failed and while I can just not do it and get my GED, I am not letting a little bit of math keep me from a college prep diploma when I had more credits than necessary for the honors…I will not. T 3T)
-Get my driver’s ed. Permit
-Get my license
-Get a job(maaaaaaaaybe)
-Study and prepare for the SAT/ACT
-Take and kick the butts of SAT/ACT
-(if SAT/ACT required then will do after if not then during) take around 24 hours of community college to get a new GPA to rule out my horrid high school one and show the college I CAN work despite my issues before weighing me down
-Apply to college!
-GET IN! (would be AWESOME bonus to be eligible for an academic scholarship!..but that is unlikely T-T)
-Start my 6 year work towards my future!
So that is going to be my life until that school year of 2013! Pray for me those that pray and wish well those that don’t…it’s going to be a long road and I’m still just starting
All that aside, I have a few drawings that I scanned in a couple days ago that I shall start slipping in! none of it is anything big, all sketchy, and then gaia avie art for people..on gaia, obviously
