Welcome to my endless enigma of pointless verbal ironies and useless information revolving around the existence of me, Itsu. Yes, I welcome you to Infinity. If you're scared, you needn't worry, I won't bite unless provoked otherwise...usually. Now enjoy your slow downward spiral toward the very core of my innermost being, well the psychotic section anyway.
Have fun.
if you'd like, my darlings, check me out at one of my other existences:
[Happy endings don't exist because the world keeps turning--
but you don't have to have an ending--
to be happy.]
[~We are all a little weird and
Life’s a little weird,
And when we find someone whose
Weirdness is compatible with ours,
We join up with them and fall in
Mutual weirdness and call it Love~
~Dr. Seuss~]
sup mah minion home bros *gang sign* *suddenly attacked by a roving band of interracial gangs bent on destroying my self esteem with hurtful comments...also with large blunt objects*
sooooooooooooooo...i have started getting up my very backed up pile of doodles, right now most are old and meh ones, but soon there will be newer pieces for ye all to rub your eyes on in glorious reverence to me *flails gaily*
NOW BE GONE AND STUFF
YEAH o 3o
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oh, and so my merokins doesn't murder me, we have started doing minecraft vids that don't suck as much as the first ones...so then, here is the link to our youtube channel --> MissGamingGal
go there...love it...have inappropriate dreams about it..tell your friends..tell your enemies...throw sticks at your loved ones...yes...yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss * 3*
Since i said i was back, i figured i should go ahead and be saying why i won't have anything up for a while still…despite the previously ranted documents thing. *blahblahblah*
That reason being, i am 99.999999999…% sure i am getting a new, personal scanner for Christmas as it was the only thing i actually wanted--plus i spent hours searching for one that wasn't over a thousand dollars and specifically told my dad *cough*-- …i don't really ever WANT things, i usually just say things i still need for this or that, or just money and gift cards for whenever i am needing to get something. i'm weird like that i guess *shrug*
Yeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaahhh, a scanner just for me *dances obnxiously* easier, quick access, and the secret reason…so i can post any naughty stuff XD when you scan in things they are automatically always there every time you scan in a new thing…like a, history listing but you can't delete them. i have a great relationship with my mom, and we are both perverts, but even still there are things you just don't thrust in your parent's face. Like yaoi drawings, or sexy, naked men drawings..which are often one and the same.. or something. >:3
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaanyways…just be sure to expect an onslaught when i do scan things in, as well as several..several outdated seasonally themed ones, and then some others too... yesyes. *nods*
Thursday morning: i am eating ginger snaps, the less fun brother of gingerbread cookies. Makes me want gingerbread cookies. *nomnomnom* i need to get some gingerbread dough. Yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. i am considering stay awake and mysteriously decorating the house a bit(inside of course, i am no house climbing piñata-----no, i don't know what that means T 3T) so far that looks like the plan seeing as it is 6:33 am and i am watching a movie, looking at webcomics, writing this, eating cookies, you know…those active things not associated with getting ready to go to bed. Hmmm..i need more water.
not Thursday morning: Sooo, yeah, that stuff never happened...the staying awake to do things i mean. i decided to go to bed cause i was tired and mother was home sick again anyways..and stuff. i then proceeded to sleep through the rest of that day. No Thursday for me! *evil laugh of evil* now it is Friday morning, and I am again writing on this journal post that I didn't end up posting yesterday eventhough that's when i wrote most of it.
Last night i dreamt about being in someone's giant home that had--for some reason-- a personal grocery store thing…and i got foodies. ^ 3^ i bet it's because our house has no food. No. Food. Sad thing is, i didn't eat any of it in my dream...WHY SELF WHY!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! *mourns shiny uneaten foods of my sleeping night*
Now i am going to post this. To no one. Cause no one reads these. Hehe. i know i'm sad T___T
Oh, if anyone read my last post, i give you a cookie *hands prettiful big cookie..with only one bit of lint on it--flicks it off* now if you DIDN'T read it, then NO COOKIE FOR YOU! D:<
don't forget to grab your complimentary cucumber on the way out --should your soul be wicked that is C:<
yes, as the title says, i hath returned from the devastating void of a laptopless existence!! DANCE UNWITTING FOLLOWERS, DANCE! BUWAHAHAHAHA! >:D
Although, technically, right now i still more of a lurker, though i can actually do things about my sites. I simply have not yet gotten my documents put back onto my dear computer...as it is a long process XP And being not yet ready to take on that task, i had put off using my laptop for about a week or so after actually getting from the geeks. Making me even MORE behind than i already. -___-
It seems that when one does a file systems backup, all your items simply get moved into backup file folders, so folders 1-165 on my flashdrive of every individual item i had in all of my documents...meaning no folders, folders within folders within folders, etc. Single file upon single file jammed into folders until they are as full as possible…165 of those completely packed folders on my flashdrive.
So what i will have to do is recreate my previous folders, along with some new ones as i am wanting to assert some further organization. Luckily, to assist me with such a task, i have about 8 burned cds of nearly all of my documents which had been moved over in their folders(though many broken down as the whole original folder was too large to be moved on its own), with these and i see for sure all my file folders names and where they are within all their folders, etc. as well as every item in each. And to be certain that i get all the files in their correct folders, i have been hand writing in a large notebook the folder systems with various bullet points and such with each separate item name written below every folder it belongs to.
As one can imagine, it is a long, time-consuming, fingers, hand, wrist, forearm, and elbow pain inducing task—no kidding, after hours of doing this my whole arm aches relentlessly, with no way of stretch or bone crack or massage of relief.
An unfortunate issue to this however, is that after giving up on this possible climbing mound of cds for my content but before i had gotten my 32GB flashdrive, i had gone through and done a very large file cleaning, removing old or obsolete files and folders, reorganizing some here and there. Just making the overall content as small as possible to assure that everything gets moved over...plus it needed to be done anyways XD In the end, i got rid of somewhere around 2-3 GBs of stuff!
Now clearly, i cannot remember every single thing i got rid of, or necessarily every single thing that was rearranged to a different folder which already existed. Sooo, i still have to write down every item in every folder that my cds have in order to be certain i don't leave anything out. Of course some more obvious things i DO recall getting rid of or moving, which I try to add to the appropriate folder in my notebook. Then once i get to the flashdrive, recreate and move accordingly, and any item i have listed in my notebook document recording but does not exist in the flashdrive content is something i got rid of. Because i am quite positive all my info is on that flashdrive.
A new addition to all the folders i already had, i am establishing even further organization. So I will have new folders created in folder, within folder, etc. to better consolidate very large content files and allow for easier searching through or for a particular image or image type, as well as a few file name changes. Makes for a bit more complication, and the occasional accident of missing something that should have been placed in a previously item written folder...blahblahblah.
A busy process of which i am not even to the halfway point. I haven’t yet even tackled my largest image folder which is COMPLETELY un categorized, just one folder of itty bitty scrollbar pic after pic after pic files which need to be taken down and organized a tad into newly created folders—although in that particular one, most every pic is of the same pairing(not unlike my second largest image folder, but at least that one had category types I could work with), so not a whole lot can be done in the way of segregating. Once that is finished however, i still have my many, equally folder upon folder, etc. photos folders and video files to get to—those videos being too individually big, size wise, to move onto cds, I have no reference for in way of folders, so I shall have to try and go from memory and work with it directly upon flashdrive transferring. Not to mention recreating all of my favorites links...all of which were put into a, still well categorized, word document of about 40 pages.
I may seem to be forcing things into a far worse manner than they perhaps need to, especially to someone else being made to listen to my possibly apparent irate listing of this issue, but nevertheless i like my organization considering the vast quantity of my documents which are literally the majority of my life and I merely do not want any chance of losing something. And you know, the bit of OCD and perfectionism that tangles along with my mental problems…can’t help but want to do so. *giggles a little manically*
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That was probably a rather excessively long explanation of something not one of you bizarre people who view this world care one tiny speck of thought about. But whether to your chagrin or not, i enjoy to ramble and it's my place to spurt pointlessness so i will do so at my personal leisure T 3T And anyways, when you have an extremely small about of people in your whole existence, and talk to them even more sparingly, you can't help but want to babble as though someone somewhere cares about it XP
In other less boring news..maybe…
I am sorry that i have missed being able to view over two months’ worth of arts and world posts from all the beings i watch, not getting a chance to thumbs up or fav things. I can do that some now, however i am still trying to be on only a bit at a time until i finish with previously ranted documenting. Being on my laptop without the ability to add things to my favorites(not site favorites, toolbar of internet browser favorites), save images i like to my images folders, write down notes and ideas i get into word docs existent or newly made, write pieces here and there on my many writings, i can't scan in and prepare and put up the maybe a dozen finished arts that i have in my binder—the poor three halloween ones i did…going to be all out of date and behind to the viewing world of ye. NONTHELESS, it shalleth be soon my preciouseses...sooooooonnssss >:3
Oh, to those who watch me with the like of my wallpapers for some reason: while going through every item in my images folders, i have be stricken with quite a few wallie ideas and it has been oh so long since i made one. Perhaps some will be coming, and I do hope while still in this wintery season as several are of said theme. *nodnod*
I already made mention to my art. About 12, i believe, are completed…all lonely for views of mild interest…, and then there is the probably 15 WIPS i have, two of those nearly finished—ramping my completed count to at least 14 by the time I get around to putting things up—, and finally about three or more new ideas i have in my brainses. Hehe...so naughty i ish. >:]
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I know I shouldn’t go asking, this post is already lengthy, but I wanna.
How was all your halloweenses and thanksgivingses? that being is you celebrate such, of course…unless you want to talk about things that never happened for the hell of it. XD
Give out your candies, eat your candies, lounge about in an overly elaborate costume when you are only giving out teeth rotting, delicious noms to only about a dozen or so kids the last of which are the older barely tried costumed tweens and teens? I know that’s what I did. Though my costume wasn’t want I intended as I had forgotten that the next day was Halloween and didn’t remember to shower and do my hair the way I wanted for the costume I was intending, sooo I pulled some stuff from my closet and was a slightly different version of a costume I had already done before. I honestly don’t know what I was but one girl asked if I was a zombie so I figured what the hell, I’ll be a zombie…not like I am going anywhere. Knowing we never get very many kids anymore, especially with that utterly stupid Halloween curfew they enacted a few years back, mother only bought a little candy and all the good stuff was put into the trick or treat bowl which I heartily passed out seeing as their would only be a few people to give to. Leaving the only some of the bizarre big bag of little boxed candies, dots, junior mints, junior caramels(awful!), and charleston chews(I don’t get the hype with these way back when, I don’t think they were good). The dots and junior mints were only the good of the bag, though dots are pretty hit and miss in my opinion, those which were gone fast, and the two bags of candies my mother likes—almond joys and smarties. I like smarties fine, but I didn’t partake as they are one of mother’s favs. Feeling very shortended, sleeping all the way up to when I had to pass out the candy, hurrying a costume I hadn’t been planning, only getting a very small time to pass out candy to an equally small amount of people, and not getting any good candy to eat afterwards, I stacked up on bags of things I did like while at the drugstore one eve when getting my meds. Now I have an entire drawer of my nightstand just for candies, like Brenda from The Closer. ^--^ It has a nice chocolaty and peanut butter smell every time I open it. *yumyumnoms* And nice thing about me, is I end my candy slowly as too much sweetness is not wanted by my mouth, I am one who could make a chocolate bar last a month. Hehe.
My thanksgiving was little as well. When with my mother we don’t do much since it is only us three, me, mother, and sibling, and sister and I are picky and don’t really eat leftovers. We each have our own personal Cornish hen, some veggies and fruit, some rolls, my mother and sister have rice stuffing but I don’t care for that XP Then I have a whole bottle of sparkling white grape juice to myself, cause I likes it T 3T, and we get a little pumpkin pie and some vanilla ice cream to go with. However mother gets herself some seasonal peppermint ice cream. And during all such we watch the Harry Potter movies, as they are equated with thanksgiving for some reason with us. Of course, I am glad to avoid a gathering of relatives at my grandmother’s and her dry turkey, but I do miss having turkey and cranberry sauce and her rolls—they are ones my great grandmother used to make…she is too old now, someday I hope to get the recipe without inciting some sort of bonding attempt by my grandma to show me how to make it x___x …I also want her banana bread recipe but same dilemma. But my dad always brings back those for me and sibling :3 In case you couldn’t tell, me and my grandma do not get along, I no like her T –T. And today my sibling makes pumpkin bread.
My holiday life is pretty slow and boring…I am sure you other had more pleasureable times. You all cram large amounts of hearty foods into your mouths until you were unzip your pants full then falling into a post-thanksgiving dinner, watching the parade/football game nap??? Some of you should haves, because as i babbled above, i didn't.
Well, you weirdos must be suffering from an eyesore boredom by now. *nod* I guess you hopefully got some amount of clarification and or sufficient nonsense collection seeing as you all keep viewing this world O-o…
On that note though, I do thank you. Somehow I have maintained my position as 430 out of 15283 worlds. Which I am sure is incredibly low compared to others, since a vast amount of those worlds are likely dead or hardly used, etc. etc. Still. Thanks goobers. :{D *mustache for you*
my internet decided to stop working as i was writing this post........and i lost everything i wrote....this always happens just when i don't need it...it's quite irksome...also, i will not being writing as much as i had because i already did and i don't feel like repeating myself T 3T
quick overview of my life since my last posts...i went through a terrible time, some might not agree as much as they don't understand but those that do will hopefully empathize with me. my first dog, phoebe, slipped into a very bad place and was essentially dying. it was very hard for us, we didn't know what to do as she wouldn't eat and we had to watch her almost 24/7 to let her out and check out her and try to feed her...we decided we needed to have her put down, something we all knew was coming but continued to hope for the best, and we finally set a date after two bowel movements of possible bloodiness...she was put to sleep on June 2. the three days leading up to this, the last being the day she passed, i had been on night patrol with her but had ended up being awake all 3 days with 6 hours of sleep, one two hour and one 4 hour, my meds were completely messed up and i was exhausted and upset and stressed and anxious with everything that this was very hard for me. at the time we had no idea what had been wrong with her, which made everything much worse because we didn't want to be prematurely having her put down when we could have done something to help her and so we requested a necropsy done by our vet. it turned out that she most likely had been suffering from Lymphoma, which is a type of cancer for those who don't know. eventhough it will always hurt and nothing will change what happened i think it helped to know that she was very sick and there was very little we could have done for her, she simply got sick and it had suddenly grasped her life and dragged her down and there wasn't anything that could have been done for her. we all miss her greatly, and she will always be our phoebe. we had her cremated and now she has a place of honor on our mantle.
we always had the intention of getting another dog, if not for us than for our other dog to have a playmate. we ended up getting her near the end june actually, and we made sure to get a dog nothing like our phoebe but a puppy that could play with our other dog, aragorn, and maybe help get his chubbiness down XP cuase he is a chub-a-lub-bub. we adopted a dog, just like we had aragorn, and strangely enough this dog was fostered by the same person who had fostered aragorn. anyways, she is a mix but is most predominantly basenji and german shepherd, we call her a "sherpenji" hehehe XD and we named her Luna, because she is a hyper, loony, lunatic *nodnod*
that is where we are now.
all sadness aside, the main reason i wanted to post originally was because in the last few days there has been a big influx of views to this world and now it is over 10k views! WOO! huzzah for me and you all, this is a strangely nice moment and i thank all those that have come to see this bizarre and pointless place :)
drawings are coming soon, nothing big or special as those are still not done, but things at least! *mini wave in celebration of me*
not much else is going on in my world...though i am trying to live now. it's so incredibly hard, i don't know how people do it. this is going to be a difficult and long journey. a part i'm dreading is telling my mom(and subsequently my dad, therapist, and pharmapsycologist) about my scars. but i need new clothes, especially before the 24th, because it's summer and it's hot and i just can't keep wearing jackets and long sleeves and long leggings (i have no pants that fit me right now because i am full of fat T-T) i knew i was going to need to and i have always known that and i have been trying for months now but there just is never a good time...bad things keep happening..T-T *deskslam*
WELL..that's all for now....must be off...and stuff...yeah
p.s. i have a headache............it's making me feel sick...- n-
30 Day Song Challenge--Day 30: Your Favorite Song At This Time Last Year
again, as i have now said many times, i don't have singular favorites *shakeshead* instead i tried to think of a song i listened to often as far back as i was possibly a year...but likely not quite XP so yeah, here is one i do enjoy often regardless ^-^
and this is that very last of the 30 Day Song Challenge, hope you few have enjoyed it :D
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on another note, i will be putting up the next two deviations of my last four that have already been put up on deviantART...these two will be censored a bit though, cause nudity...but censored or not they are still meh little things XP
than sometime the next few days i will try and have up those two awesome ones which are my last for now unti i get done with another bundle and have them scanned, and gotten up on dA ^ 3^
