THIS IS WHERE I TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE AVERAGE IN MY LIFE. OR RANDOM THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I THINK SHOULD BE HERE. ENJOY YOUR STAY.
- Created By Tsutsumi24
Yippee!
So it is summer for me.
I have such a huge crush on someone right now, and I'm sad, because I haven't seen him in a while. Luckily for me, he accepted my friend request on facebook. YIPPEEEEEE!!! *dances giddily*
So I found out Tyler has another girlfriend...ALREADY!!! ha! And he says she means a lot to him. PAH!!!! I will laugh when it falls through the way it will. It's just too fast for him to suddenly be in love with some girl he barely knows. Pff.
Well, I had a dream with my crush in it. It was amazingly freaking awesome. I can't stop thinking about it. No joke. I get giddy every time the image replays in my head.
Speaking of my head. I got my hair cut. Uber short. I'll put a pic of it at the end of the post. I think I look really cute right now with my super short hair. I feel good about myself for once. Maybe it's cause of my new look AND having Cole-sama involved in my life...? Cole-sama=my crush, by the way.
So I've been writing a lot again and drawing a lot. Hehe. I would post some art, but I kind of can't right now.
OH! And I only failed one class this year, and since it was an elective, that means no summer school and no repeat of the class. WOOT WOOT. Hopefully mother and father feel somewhat the same as I do about that.
I'm at a friend's house, and I've been working on a story that she inspired me to write...I haven't slept at all. He. He. He. I can't help it. I have so much to do, and so little time to do it. Ooh, that sounded wrong, haha.
Well, anyway, I just wanted to update here. ^_^ Loves!!
~KHAOS
P.S. Yes, I'm wearing a tiara...shut up, haha. I was hyper. And saw the tiara...and decided to be a princess for a little bit.
Call me a fool, but...
Alrighty...
Khaos has some BIG news. Although it may not surprise many...it surprised me.
Just two days ago EXACTLY, after school, my ex, Tyler, met up with me to hang out until I had to leave, which was around six fifty or seven p.m...We walked around for a bit, and it started to rain. It wasn't raining all that hard, but it was kind of the wrong time for it to start raining, since I had always wanted to be somewhere with him while it rained and we were dating. Well, he looks at me and says, "Is it okay if I show you this one spot I had wanted to take you to when we were dating? I think you will like it there, and there's trees, so we shouldn't get rained on too bad." So I told him I was fine with that.
He leads me to this lovely area with a stream going through it, and says that there is a specific area there that he wants to take me. So he keeps leading me, all the while helping me up and down the steep slopes. We get to another part of the stream, and I tried to make it across on my own...I slipped on a rock and got the top right half of my shirt and hair wet. I was embarrassed, but he assured me it was fine. So we sat there quiet for a bit, just listening to the stream.
A few seconds later, it starts LITERALLY pouring rain on us. He looks down, so I ask him what is wrong. He looks over at me, with that look he used to give when we had been together, and he says, "Back when we were together, THIS is EXACTLY how I wanted us being here to happen. I wanted it to be pouring rain, and just you and me. And now it's happening. Just...at the wrong time." So I nodded, stood, and walked over to some cattail things. I started pulling them out of the ground. Then he said, "Come on, let's go back." So he helped me pick up my stuff, and put my glasses in his coat pocket.
He helped me up another steep slope and we got to the open...we were still getting rained on pretty bad, haha. Both of us had soaking wet clothes and hair. My bags also got soaking wet, so some of my un-needed paperwork is water-damaged. My headphones survived.
We finally got to the VC, and went to the back of it. I recalled that I had an extra shirt, and checked to see if it was still dry. Luckily for me, it was. I changed my shirt not too far away from where he was standing, back turned to me, thank goodness. *laughs*. So I told him he was okay to look when I was dressed completely. We walked to a dry area, and sat there for a bit. Then came our hopeless confessions...we still love one another.
For a while, we just messed around, running around in the rain, and then he had to...*haha* use the restroom. So while he was gone, I spun around in circles in the rain. He ended up running back up to me once he had returned and caught me before I fell. When I could focus, I looked up at him, and we stared into one another's eyes for quite some time before we walked back to the dry area. He ended up staring at me for a while, and when I finally asked what he was thinking about, he said, "I'm just trying to decide something."
So as I had gotten kind of bored finally, I started to walk back into the rain, and he pulled me back, gently. He had me kind of...against a wall. He stared into my eyes again. "I've decided. But I think it will be easier to show you." We stood there. Nothing.
"Tyler, um, are you going to show me what you have to show me? Otherwise...I won't understand."
"I'm afraid that I might get slapped."
"Haha, do I look like I would slap you?"
"Actually, and no offense meant, but yeah, you do." *chuckles nervously while blushing*
"I won't slap you...I promise."
"Then...I might as well just go for it."
In that moment, he leaned in and kissed me. This time, our kiss was far more passionate than the ones in the past. I learned. When he pulled away, we smiled and went in for another kiss. It was in that moment that we confirmed that we were officially back together. Then I smiled.
"Tyler, could we...um..."
"What?"
"Could we move into the rain a little bit?"
"Um, sure. Haha. But why?"
"Well...I've always wanted to kiss someone in the rain...*blushes*"
"*smiles* Okay."
We kissed again. In the rain. I felt like I was flying. It was, in all honesty, like a movie to me. I never thought that it would happen, just like most events within a moive, and yet, there it was, happening. I ended up walking out into the open, just staring off at nothing. Tyler came up behind me and held me.
"Tyler...will it still be like this later?"
"Later? *chuckle* No. It'll be better."
"Do you know what I meant?"
"Hmm...our future?"
I giggled.
"I was right, huh? *chuckles*"
"Tyler, I meant tomorrow...will we still be able to be like this?"
He kissed me again.
"Of course we will."
Then he walked me to the college.
I got in a lot of trouble by my parents for being gone until a little bit past seven, but it was only because they were really worried. I've never seen my mother cry like that, so...I vowed never to do that to her again. But I won't tell them about Tyler again until I feel they are ready for it, and right now isn't the time. But from now on I will let them know where I'm going, what I'll be doing, and how long I should be.
For the record, though....
....it was totally worth it....
....because I'm happy again.
~KHAOS
Confident
So, the other day, I had been all sad in my post. But I went home that day and talked to my parents about it. And you know, they really helped me out this time. I took their advice. Mom told me to just tell him off, and I did. I haven't talked to him at all. And my mom made me write a full page of positives about myself, then had me read them out loud. Now I come to school with my face actually showing. I hold my head up high now. I feel really good. I have never been so confident about myself. But it seems like since my parents talked to me, I am able to feel good about myself. I might still be a fool, because yeah, I'm still sticking to the original plan of marriage, but if that changes, then I won't be so sad about it. I can just tell myself that I don't need a guy who will suddenly change his mind and treat me like shit. And I can believe it if that does happen.
I've been drawing a lot, too. And the art is actually REALLY GOOD now that I'm in a good state of mind. And you know, I don't feel all that bad about being single right now. It's pretty fun! I get to hang out with my girlfriends more often, just joking around and having laughs, instead of being so preoccupied with a guy who probably doesn't really care about anything other than getting in my pants. I'm enjoying myself as a single girl for the first time, and you know what? It feels great! I'm also getting my grades up a lot faster. I only have a C- and two D's to take care of now! And the percentages are going up already! ^_^
I'm getting really excited, because when I get those grades up to something that my parents are good with, which is a C or B, or ESPECIALLY an A, I can spend even MORE time with my friends. I will be having sleepovers and going to my friends' houses so much more often. And, I will also get all the freetime in the world with my music! I can play video games, talk on the phone...text...all that stuff, and it will be pretty soon! I'm really excited for it. >-<
But yeah, I just really wanted to share that, because I'm just...I feel really good right now. ^^ So yeah! Anyways!
~Arianna
Of blob people, songs, poetry, and life
Okay I know. The title was really random. I'm in a strangly good mood. I truly do not understand it. But that's not important.
Okay so, I have actually been writing songs and poetry a lot lately. So far, they are all turning out really well. I have also been drawing. Blob people and normal anime stuff. My style keeps changing. TT^TT I can't make up my mind. Oh, and I like drawing tattoo designs, too.
So as for life...
Well I'm still alive. BWAHAHA! Ahem. I'm still waiting on Tyler with his promise, but I won't get my hopes up. I'm getting to know someone else right now. I met him just last Saturday at a friend's b-day party, and we are friends on Facebook now. He is only younger than me by a bit...like...two years... O.o TT^TT I'm a cradle-robber...Anyway. I am having trouble typing this. I recently put on some UBER long false nails for the hell of it, and painted the suckers black. X3 yippee! So the clothing style and makeup and hair of mine keeps changing. Some days I wear very little makeup, some days none, some days I look purely emotastical. HAHA. Funny made up word. I haz poked it. >_< And I like so many different styles of music right now that it is ridiculous. Namely the screamo techno mixes, and P!NK. Her new songs, that is. Especially the songs Ave Mary A and I Don't Believe You. I'm also learning how to sing some songs by Shakira in spanish. So fun, yet so difficult. Some of the lyrics must be said SO FAST! I just can't keep up!
So school. I'm getting my grades up, steady as she goes. But they are rising. Yay! I'll get my darling iPOD, Seizan, back soon! Yeah, I named him. Weird, I know. And yes, my iPOD is a boy. XD lolz. And once I get my grades up, me and my best friend are gonna hang out. We are both looking forward to it, because when there are no guys around to bother us, we have SO MUCH FUN!
I'm really wishing I could post some art here or on deviant...but I can't right now, so please bear with me. I honestly don't know when I will update my art. I'm sad about it. Because my art has gotten so pretty. I am thinking of drawing one of my characters, Lawlee, again. I made her while I was listening to Gothic Lolita by Emilie Autumn. Such a lovely song. X3 X3 X3
Well well. I don't know why I'm still typing this post. I think I'm bored. Also, I wanted to inform people, I have been making videos using still images from anime and some music I have. I made a dirty one for shits and giggles the other day. Heh heh. And I also made a cutesy one. I will try to put them up somewhere so people can view them, and then I will provide a link to the videos on here, alrighty? If anyone wants to see them. ^^
Alrighty, well, I'd better wrap this up. I want to surf the net with my free time. So fun. And I need to look up some strategies for Halo 3...me and my family just bought it yesterday and have been playing it, but with a great deal of trouble. >.> Irritation. Yes, I speak my emotions. O.o
I'll try to update more often, and maybe post some poetry & songs in a while. Bye bye for now~<3!
~Arianna
P.S. I am dying to see the new Alice in Wonderland... TT^TT Damn it all to hell...
Happy!!!
Okay, so Tsumi is dating again...YAY!! I love the guy I'm dating so much...he's so sweet...I know Love is a strong word, but it's what I'm in with this guy. I call him Wolf. ^^ I'm sure all of you who I am friends with would be glad to meet him if you could. ^^ Anyway, I just wanted to clarify that, yes, even though right now I'm going through a lot, I am very happy. When Wolf is around...nothing can bring me down. ^-^ so I hope everyone else here is happy too!! And remember, if ever any of you need to talk to someone, I will be here to listen. I love all of you very very much!!! Just...uh...LOL...not the same way that I love Wolf! LOL!!! Bai bai for nao!!!
~TsUmI~
