So, the other day, I had been all sad in my post. But I went home that day and talked to my parents about it. And you know, they really helped me out this time. I took their advice. Mom told me to just tell him off, and I did. I haven't talked to him at all. And my mom made me write a full page of positives about myself, then had me read them out loud. Now I come to school with my face actually showing. I hold my head up high now. I feel really good. I have never been so confident about myself. But it seems like since my parents talked to me, I am able to feel good about myself. I might still be a fool, because yeah, I'm still sticking to the original plan of marriage, but if that changes, then I won't be so sad about it. I can just tell myself that I don't need a guy who will suddenly change his mind and treat me like shit. And I can believe it if that does happen.
I've been drawing a lot, too. And the art is actually REALLY GOOD now that I'm in a good state of mind. And you know, I don't feel all that bad about being single right now. It's pretty fun! I get to hang out with my girlfriends more often, just joking around and having laughs, instead of being so preoccupied with a guy who probably doesn't really care about anything other than getting in my pants. I'm enjoying myself as a single girl for the first time, and you know what? It feels great! I'm also getting my grades up a lot faster. I only have a C- and two D's to take care of now! And the percentages are going up already! ^_^
I'm getting really excited, because when I get those grades up to something that my parents are good with, which is a C or B, or ESPECIALLY an A, I can spend even MORE time with my friends. I will be having sleepovers and going to my friends' houses so much more often. And, I will also get all the freetime in the world with my music! I can play video games, talk on the phone...text...all that stuff, and it will be pretty soon! I'm really excited for it. >-<
But yeah, I just really wanted to share that, because I'm just...I feel really good right now. ^^ So yeah! Anyways!
~Arianna
