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Someone Kidnap Me, Please...
Mon Jun 8, 2009, 4:27 PM
* Mood: Alienated
* Listening to: "Semi-Charmed Kind of Life"-Third Eye Bl
I have done nothing worthwhile since school let out on the 3rd =D *shot* My best friends are out doing things, but I'm staying home cuz, according to Minto, my parents are losers. I need more female friends-maybe I'd have more of a life if I did.
Yesterday and the day before my dad had us move old crap from this house to the other one(it's half storage half rented out to people) so we can organize the stuff we're selling at the flea market next weekend(we're kind of tight on the green stuff at the moment). My parents are saying it's to help out, but I think getting a job will be more steady with my share of the income...but I'm not allowed to get a job. I might end up just saying "hey, take my phone back" because I'm supposed to come up with the money for my part of the bill, but with no job how am I supposed to pay for it? He says to use the money we make from eBay and Craig's List will get us somewhere, but...really? It's not as easy as he thinks...STOP BEING OVERPROTECTIVE AND LET YOUR 16-YR-OLD GET A F***ING JOB!!! *dies*
Enough of the complaining-here's what I've done so far regarding things in my personal life:
-finished 3 of the 7 character designs(clothing) for the promo; Keitaro, Zak, and Monique. Today I'm going to finish the rest since I did those three last night. Calvin's is next =3
-watched a shitload of anime
-tortured the cat
-spent my time with the fairy that crawls through my window every night(it's a human-sized "fairy"). Next time we're playing Jenga =D
-cursed the fact that even though I live in Florida, we haven't gone to the beach in sooooo long
So, today I has to finish the rest of the character sketches and get my brother to scan them in for me so I can send them to Minto to look over. If I'm lucky, maybe I'll be able to finalize the school's design so I can start the comic tonight/tomorrow(past midnight).
Also, sorry for those people watching me and I haven't uploaded anything in so long-no scanner, and Judd(my older brother) is too busy to scan things in for me on a whim.
...Might as well get back to work.
-KF
Gah...Stupid KF, Stupid...
Mon May 25, 2009, 12:56 PM
* Mood: Shame
* Listening to: "Sara's Song"-the ESP's
* Drinking: Orange Juice
I regret so much right now; I just keep leading this kid on cuz I'm selfish and don't know what I want. I feel like I'm reverting back to my middle school self, or I'm evolving into some sort of...thing-yeah, some sort of thing I don't like. I can't really look at the mirror the right way; I look different. Maybe I'm just growing up? That's depressing, I'm 16-I'm supposed to be living a carefree life with stereotypical teenager problems like getting a date, parents, and friends-so why is that these are all magnified by at least 5x? It might seem like I'm just exaggerating this, like every other teenager out there, but I know the difference...
For those of you that wish for a manga life on a shooting star or something, be specific and be careful-you might get exactly what you wished for, cuz I did...
On a lighter note, my parents' 25th anniversary was yesterday-I dunno how my mom could stand my dad for that long, cuz I can barely stand him for 5 minutes, but they're happy and disgustingly lovey-dovey so it's fine.
We're going to the beach later today cuz it's Labour Day-I'm gonna have a permanent tan because of all these trips to the beach(we live 5minutes away from there). I hope we can stop by the Ice Cream Club afterwards-today looks like an ice cream day. For the past couple of days it's been icky and humid and very rainstorm-y-I'm looking outside now and Mr. Blue Sky is out so it's all good =3
For those of you who actually read all this, I'm sorry-I rant.
<3 KF
Punching Cats
Sun May 10, 2009, 1:21 PM
* Mood: Disbelief
* Listening to: "Stray Cat Strut"-Stray Cats
* Reading: Filipino Empanada Recipe
* Eating: I REALLY want one of those empanadas...
No, I'm not-but we DO have to give away our preggerz Neko-chan =( My mom still doesn't like her very much, especially the whole pregnant thing-we picked her off the street already pregnant.
I've been violent lately-more violent than usual. And for some reason, I've had this really big urge to just beat up some of my closest friends. They're being idiots. And if that doesn't help, my best friends' last day was Friday(cuz they're seniors). So, I'm stuck with my closer best friends that I want to kick in the guts...
What adds more to the-ew-drama of it all is that my ever-so-troublesome-ex is going to be attending my school next year. We made this silly promise years ago that we would go back out when I was 18 cuz my parents didn't like him and we were "in love". I finally got over this kid last year(the promise was issued when I was in 8th grade, so it took about 2.5yrs) and since then I've finally been able to hold a somewhat steady relationship. And y'all know about my recent accomplishment of getting over my most recent ex. Since then I've been really happy and spent my time with my senior friends cuz they were leaving.
Well, on Friday I was joking with my friends after school and out of the blue I get a text from a number that looks semi-familiar("Hi"). I asked who it was and it was *drumroll* Jimi. My brain stopped working for a while. I let my friend Quaid know(he was his best friend when we were all still in contact) and we both had that "Ah crap" look on our faces. Then I told Mo and Cal.
This Jimi kid has this thing where he turns up when I'm absolutely happy and in bliss and don't have him on my mind at all. In other words-when I least want him to. He has problems, like being kicked out of his house last year and currently living with his friends who are having a baby, dropped out of school in sophmore year(he was held back in 6th grade, so now he's 18). Don't get me wrong, I don't hate the guy-I just wish he wouldn't come back at the worst times like he does.
Part of me is happy he's gonna be going to my school so I can keep tabs on him and help him with his schoolwork and etc. He was forced out of childhood and thrown right into the adult world, and without a real teenager life he's kind of socially messed up. I don't care if he drops out again, but I at least want him to have a real teen life, y'know? I want to help him since he's done a lot for me-I wouldn't have the personality I have now if it wasn't for him. And I'm the only friend he has left from the "old days"...and he still likes me. Which makes convincing him to do things easier on my part.
So...I guess I'm making him a project of some sort. Jimi Restoration Committee...COMMENCE!! God, I need a life *punches friend in the gut*
-KF
I Gots Mah Hairz Did
Sun May 3, 2009, 9:45 PM
* Mood: Emotional
* Listening to: "Jumper"-Third Eye Blind
* Reading: AP US Government & Politics Exam Review Book
* Eating: Lumpia and Rice, but it's just sitting there...
Filled up my weekend so I wouldn't think about things I should forget about anyway. Yet, I found myself thinking about him anyway at times, then I shake my head and feel good that I decided to move on instead of linger.
Friday: got my hair cut and then bleached at V:'s house. Slept over, along with my brother and his gf
Saturday: had many yummy things; finished colouring my hair; my brother's gf got sick and left early; V and I made Japanese things for a picnic; threw ice into the pond; we all went out for ice cream; spent 2hrs watching a pointless Korean movie(at which point my "son" contacted me and said my ex called him-I told him I was having fun and hung up); V's bf dropped my brother, V, and I off at our house around midnight; V went home around 3ish
Sunday/Today: Mo came over to help me "study". She left about an hour ago.
AP exams tomorrow. A bunch of people's lives suck right now. There's a like/love triangle going on between my friends; my parents are complaining about money; my grades are dying; my brother's girlfriend is depressing him; misery and etc...
I'm gonne be emo s'more, so you can stop reading now...
I want to punch, kick, scream...break things. I broke my phone a bit-there's a rubber band holding it together(I'm ghetto, bitch!). Of course, I can't really do that. So I draw, but y'see-that doesn't really work either; I draw things I want to see, had seen, and will never see again. I asked Cal what I should do with them(rip them up, give them to the guy so he can do what he pleases with them since he's in them, or keep them and look at them later when I'm over it). He told me to keep them and look at them when I'm over it. I agree, it's the most mature thing, anyway.
I've lost my appetite, too. It's not that I can't eat-more like I don't want to eat. I'm still eating a bit though. And my natural energy(any other energy is from caffeine). I haven't been exercising recently either. I should do that again soon.
I know I'm just letting this stuff happen-letting things get me down. But everyone's weak at some point. I'm probably weaker now, even though I'm stronger-if that makes sense.
My dam broke, and water will weak havoc on the townspeaple below. Poor things...they saw leaks appear and didn't know what to do about it or how to patch it up. Where's the damn repair guy??
Someone tell me happy and exciting news, I need a break =3
-KF
Damn Pencil...DRAW SOMETHING ELSE
Mon Apr 27, 2009, 2:00 AM
* Mood: Yearning
* Listening to: "Everytime"-the Flames
Finished my bento, by the way-2 ube onigiri(?), cut up chicken, carrot sticks with vegetable sauce, and skewered cherries and green apple.
Ever pick up your pencil with no idea what you're gonna draw, and then thing you least want to draw comes up on your paper, even if you're not thinking about it? Like, by the time you're done with the thing you're thinking "Why the hell did I draw this? I didn't want to see this!!" At that point, you maybe be one of those people that rips it up...I'm not; probably cuz I want to see that picture in real life.
I draw best when one mood has just about completely taken over me, whether it be anger, happiness, love, depressed...the picture doesn't always portray how I feel, though-maybe because I just concentrate on making the doodle(almost everything I do is a doodle or started out as one) turn out okay.
All the pictures I've been drawing recently are nostalgic and are things I definitely want to happen...again. I never took a photo of us having such a grand time because we were having too much fun, absorbed into our own li'l world. I see the kids in these drawings now(they're on my drawing binder, which happens to be right next to me) and they just seem like 2 random characters that you may find in G33|<!! (well actually, my character and his WILL show up randomly as background characters for the fun of it all, even though we did end). They give off the same aura as the main characters-familiar, but you can't remember from where but they give off a friendly and welcoming aura.
I just kind of hope this phase ends soon-drawing romance isn't really my thing. When there's a scanner available, though, I'll scan them in. They turned out good enough and I'm proud of every doodle I do, no matter what memories/stories they hold...like looking at a photograph you forgot you took a long time ago.
...excuse the teenage-emo-ness, please; just venting(which I seem to be doing a lot, I'm sorry D=)
-KF
