- Created By twilight tiger
Afraid of Happines...
Afraid to smile,
Afraid to be happy,
Because every time I am,
Everything falls apart.
I was happy before,
When I was with you,
But that happiness was too much,
It tore apart my heart.
Now happiness is no more,
Its only a shadow,
A lonely memory,
Never to depart...
Confused Heart and Mind....
When my body is saying one thing
But my mind and heart are confused
What does that mean?
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Am I hurt inside?
Am I broken apart?
Do I wish I can crawl into a corner and hide?
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Or is it the opposite?
Am I smiling a true smile?
Am I happy with it?
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And will I ever figure this out?
What is bothering me, what is on my mind?
Will I ever know what this is about?
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My mind and heart are a mess,
So much confusion and chaos,
I wish my pain can be less…
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A cure, I would like to find,
A remedy, sure would help
To help clear this heart and mind…
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Don't know if it's because of recent events,
If it's because of my inability to cry,
I don't know if I should pretend...
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Should I be sad?
Or should I be happy?
What should I do if no matter what, it's bad?
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What do I do if I can't see,
Can't read or hear
What my mind and heart want to be?
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Should I just allow it to continue?
To twist, turn, and spiral?
What should I do?
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This continues to revolve
Around inside my head...
Never known to be solved.....
End