aww thats so good! :D And I'm glad I inspired a little :) I'll take a look at it for sure. And you know, you might be right. That fear might have been taking away the happy things all along and once you rid yourself of it, things might get better~
Completely understandable, I actually wrote a poem last night and I've been being put more into the artistic feel from a few friends and partially from reading your poems, if you wanted to check it out it's in my world the abyss if not that's ok too. Also,I feel like fear was the thing I had to get rid of before I could start really being happy, that fear of failure always took me back down again and kept me from living my life to the fullest
That's exactly how I felt when I wrote this...it's happened over and over since then, as well. I am kind of happy now and I've noticed that when I'm kind of happy nothing really bad happens but when I am truly happy and everything is going perfectly, almost always, something happens to make me sad, stressed, anguished. I'm sorry you felt like that too...it was just something I was supposed to feel, not for everyone to become victim to. But depression is a scary thing and every time I fall into that vast black hole of depression, everything around me crumbles. I just tried to distance myself from all of these thoughts which inspired these poems~ These poems are from my high school days lol I was pretty emotional, and lonely but I had friends, but they just weren't there every time I needed them to be lol
I knew this feeling once, like everytime I was beginning to be happy again it scared me, so I backed off and I hid from the things that could destroy me later, I didn't want to risk it, and so right when things began to come back together in my life I tore them back apart and I fell hard into a deep state of depression. I have since picked myself up, but can never be to cautious, as the things that tore me down could still happen again so I am happy.. but never truly comfortable within that happiness I have found
twilight tiger
Otaku Eternal | Posted 03/17/15 | Reply
@jsh21990:
aww thats so good! :D And I'm glad I inspired a little :) I'll take a look at it for sure. And you know, you might be right. That fear might have been taking away the happy things all along and once you rid yourself of it, things might get better~
jsh21990
Otakuite++ | Posted 03/17/15 | Reply
@twilight tiger:
Completely understandable, I actually wrote a poem last night and I've been being put more into the artistic feel from a few friends and partially from reading your poems, if you wanted to check it out it's in my world the abyss if not that's ok too. Also,I feel like fear was the thing I had to get rid of before I could start really being happy, that fear of failure always took me back down again and kept me from living my life to the fullest
twilight tiger
Otaku Eternal | Posted 03/17/15 | Reply
@jsh21990:
That's exactly how I felt when I wrote this...it's happened over and over since then, as well. I am kind of happy now and I've noticed that when I'm kind of happy nothing really bad happens but when I am truly happy and everything is going perfectly, almost always, something happens to make me sad, stressed, anguished. I'm sorry you felt like that too...it was just something I was supposed to feel, not for everyone to become victim to. But depression is a scary thing and every time I fall into that vast black hole of depression, everything around me crumbles. I just tried to distance myself from all of these thoughts which inspired these poems~ These poems are from my high school days lol I was pretty emotional, and lonely but I had friends, but they just weren't there every time I needed them to be lol
jsh21990
Otakuite++ | Posted 03/17/15 | Reply
I knew this feeling once, like everytime I was beginning to be happy again it scared me, so I backed off and I hid from the things that could destroy me later, I didn't want to risk it, and so right when things began to come back together in my life I tore them back apart and I fell hard into a deep state of depression. I have since picked myself up, but can never be to cautious, as the things that tore me down could still happen again so I am happy.. but never truly comfortable within that happiness I have found