- Created By SirLawliet
The Optimist.
Okay, so you may have noticed the current story Ive been writing on here.
Its nothing too big. Im just trying to get back into my old habits of writing stories again...so far so good. Its a little weak I think, but as I said, its been a while. Me and my excuses. Im serious though.
.... an idea just struck.... I've had so much I wanted to say... no, that wasn't my idea.
I once wrote in a composition book a collection of writings that made up a huge story. It contained poetry, excerpts of my own, lyrics, short stories, pictures, and visual emotions and they all made this story.
Im going to start to write another one. Only this time, it'll be more organized and more explicit..in terms of matters in life.
I was going to write something else in this post but I'll just end it with a quote. See below.
"I have no reason to be sad anymore, no reason to hold anything back from you, no reason to keep quiet. I'm yours. Whatever it takes...."
Promise of a Lifetime.. [pt2.]
Some would believe that they would never see thier friends anymore after highschool. I was led to believe this..but I would always carry hope with me. Some people that you run across with in life can really affect you. Good or bad, thats for you to decide. For me, the outcome was good. There were days when I just there in the cafeteria just listening, wondering. There was so much life around me, that I felt useless. I would not let this thought control me though. But now they want me to move on.
About a year later
I have tossed aside a life that was wasted. Now, my final life begins. I dont know where Im going in this life, or what Im supposed to do. All I know is that I wont be doing it alone. For this, I can die today, and be the happiest man yet the saddest of all. But that wont happen, for I am strong. And I've made a promise.
PART 3! COMING SOON! Secrets will be revealed.
Of Sleeping and Disappearing.
This is a random posting at nearly 1:30 in the morning on the matter that I cant sleep. Theres only one explanation. And with the truth, its something I dont mind. In saying this, the reason I cant sleep is perfectly fine by me. I'll just lay up all night thinking about her. But I know I'll fall asleep sooner or later.
I think I'll now write something I wrote in a post that didnt get published because of an image file size a few days ago. Will contain thematic elements...I think.
Okay, so the other day my parents freaked when they learned I wanted to stay at otakon all 3 days. I immediatly broke out in tears. I thought that was the end of it. No Otakon for me. Well, things have changed, and I might just be going after all. I still need to register though. But on that night, I was feeling the worst ive ever felt, in terms of depression. Now, I know people dont want to hear what I have to say concerning these matters, but I feel I still need to vent and in doing so, for those who want an idea of what kind of person I am...well....here you go.
In many ways I feel I dont deserve life. I can think of so many reasons why I wouldnt mind vanishing off of the face of the Earth. But I wont do such a thing...dont worry. My reason for being is all I need. I have but one reason for staying. And in time, you might just learn what that reason is. But not here...not right now.
END OF INTERMISSION.
