I feel a bit better than I did this morning...a little bit. Like, I'm still moderately pissed off, but I've let my anger dissipate to the entire world around me as opposed to specific individuals, and therefore have entered the, "Why is everyone in the world an idiot?" stage as opposed to the "I'M GOING TO STAB THE NEXT PERSON TO ENTER MY LINE OF VISION" of this morning.
I act very Iago-ish...I'm surprised my eyes weren't green as I was leaving class today...Though maybe they were, I dunno.
I may or may not have a prom date! :D It's complicated...Some guy likes me, but honestly, he's a little bit creepy and I don't like him back. And I couldn't go to prom with him, not even as friends, because that'd just be encouraging him. So I asked one of my good guy friends (NOT to just get a date to avoid creepy guy...I've been thinking of asking this guy for a while, the "I have a date, sorry" is just a bonus). But this guy is actually good friends with creepy guy, and that might cause problems, so he only gave me a tentative yes. -_- So maybe yay, I dunno. Given the way things have been going for me, he's probably going to change his mind. MORE REASON FOR STABBING.
Stabbing would solve a lot of problems...
I'm so achy... TT~TT
I've got a chapter of that Maple Tea fic done! I need to come up with a title though, plus I want to have at least a chapter or two in reserve before I actually start posting. And I've been drawing up designs of all the characters, because it's steampunk and I need to design all their clothes. I'll be posting those as I get them done, I'm excited! ^^
Alright, well I'm off to Youtube for a bit. How exciting. Tata~!
~Mattie
Ever think less of me for doing something you do yourself.
Honestly, I am so angry right now. So frickin angry. I feel a little bad, but mostly I'm angry. And that's a good sign, that I've stopped blaming myself for things and am instead realizing that I'm not the one at fault here.
But still, I'm about ready to punch a wall. It's not fun.
~Mattie
Sometimes I want to take people aside, smack them with a Shakespeare play, and be like, "DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO ME?!" I spent half of today really upset again...
Had a sleepover with my broski last night though, that was really fun X3 We watched Hercules. I've rediscovered my love for Panic <3 "If...If is good..." "WE ARE WORMS." "And I'm his gopher!" "(slurp) ...Thirsty?" He's such a cute little demon X3
I also played chess for the first time in forever. I'm really bad at chess...
Cassius might have a boyfriend...Antonio, from Twelfth Night...Mind you, I hate Twelfth Night very much (they're all IDIOTS), but Antonio's a character who's all but confirmed to be gay and whose love interest eventually gets married, so he and Cassius both have the lost love deal...I just need to get to know Antonio's character better...See if they're a good match, whatnot.
Query: If I wrote a Maple Tea fic and posted it here, would anyone read it? I know that Maple Tea's not the most popular Hetalia pairing, and I'm going to probably post it anyway, but I'd really like support or something before I start really getting into this. It's going to be rated T but only for swearing, no crazy romantic stuff, mostly fluffiness. And it's pirates! In airships! Steampunk, c'mon, how can you resist?
But seriously, PLEASE comment on if you'd be interested in reading it. The more people who say they'd read it, the more motivation I have to write this, and honestly I need something like this to get me back to normal, or normal-ish...So, Maple Tea steampunk, anyone? (sheepish grin) Please?
Lonely Rolling Star~!
I'm in that mood where I just want to curl up in a little ball and let life pass me by for a little bit...more than a little bit...
Sleepy...Tata~!
~Mattie
I fail at making an avatar.
I fail at working a computer.
I fail at being okay.
I kinda fail at life.
Nostalgia sleepover plans FOILED AGAIN. I didn't even really get to ask people! TT~TT
I think I have the whole Caramelldansen learned now. ^^ Tis a lot of fun.
When do you know you're a fangirl? When you start seeing yaoi opportunities in Schindler's List. SCHINDLER'S LIST. I'm going insane...
Ugh, my legs are achy...
Don't expect comics this weekend...I've got a lot to do for school...I was initially going to do an entire scene in comic form from Hamlet, but now I think I'm just doing a picture...I also have to write an entire skit for my religion class...
...does maple syrup go bad if you open it and don't refridgerate it? Because I have a bottle of the most AWESOME MAPLE SYRUP I'VE EVER TASTED sitting in my room right now and I don't want to ruin it...
Well, tata til probably tonight~!
~Mattie
