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Dreams...
Dreams is that wonderful feeling when you know you're doing something right.
It's when the harshness of reality begins to quiet and your heart sings.
It's that look when you see yourself in the mirror and smile, knowing who you really are.
Dreams is the one thing that drives me, soothes me and keeps me alive.
It's the world I live in, the world of dreams... This wonderful, wonderful world.
This fulfilling world...
This world that is in my heart and thankful soul.

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LONG TIME NO UPDATE

Okay before we even get to my post I would like to say sorry for being so inactive. I meant to update this world ages ago but I was completely focused on something else which I will get too!

Well, I'll just state the obvious now and say that TheO have been on life support for the longest. Its summer and its even deader then normal. Its like damn, where did all the people go? Granted I don't even go to the fan art section anymore that much sadly, I just look at what my friends art and etc. Simply because I don't want to be caught up on trying to get to the front page and its been helping me just focus on my art in a more wholesome way. Which is funny because I didn't draw a whole lot in the last month because once again, busy with other things and no particular reason to draw. But I did finished a recent picture that I need to scan.

Also a lot of my friends have been slowly disappearing/being inactive and its sad. Every time I look in the backroom I have only one or two updates (when there ARE updates). But I can't even moan that hard since I've been doing the same thing. Though I have no reason to switch over to DA (god no) or to just stop coming here at all. I love this place for all its worth even though it has changed a lot over the last year alone.

I want to start commenting again (for the nth time) because I just want to raise a person's spirits in their art. I simply just don't give a rats ass about critiquing someone else's art or even getting better at it like I would try so hard to do a few years back. It was like my number one reason to draw to try to get better but I have to face it that I will always get better in my art no matter how much better I get. The point of drawing should about telling a story, a philosophy, a personal truth, and above all else HAVING FUN. My god I ruined so many nights because I was so hung up on how it looked and making it "perfect" instead of letting it flow naturally. Ironically, the long periods of time that I don't draw I seem to get a boost in skill. Mostly due to my observation skills that I keep in mind and it pays off when I can transfer the 1% that I can remember.

But anyway, I need to push myself to comment more since I've clearly lost the drive to.

Besides that the thing I was working on was my angel readings and almost two weeks ago I started charging for them. Last night I gotten my first order and another one tonight! I'm so excited because I've been working on this since last year and now all the work is paying off.

If anyone is interested it them (not in buying one) I have a blog that you can go too. I can always send you the link. :)

Lets see, I haven't done much in the candy sanctuary department, but I'm scaling back my efforts with it. Its just too much trouble trying to make pieces for it, store it SOMEWHERE, trying to sell it, and then ship it. Its hotter then the dickens and its just too much work for right now. I don't even have the space to really work on many pieces since I only have one table in my room. So I'm just going to do things for myself and focus on the artistic end of it. :)

Okay, I don't want the post to get too long even though I have a lot to say. I promise to try to update normally again but its been super hot.

Thanks for reading guys I love you! :)

Q&A Done

Real post coming up later I just wanted to finally post the answers (that I did weeks ago btw)

Enjoy!

"Ummm...when did you start watching anime and then get into drawing? Why was Tokyo Mew Mew your major inspiration (I think it is anyway lol!)?"

Hmm, when did I started watching anime? I've been watching it before I knew what it was haha. I remember waking up in the middle of the night and seeing speed racer Cartoon Network. I must of been 6-7 years old around that time. And of course I LOVED watching sailor moon, Pokemon, and all those other classics around that time so that's when I did started watching it, but didn't know it came from Japan or anything haha.
I've been drawing since I could hold a pencil haha! I was born drawing. My older sister use to draw in grade school so I use to copy her and stuff so I think that helped too. I remember drawing in 1st grade and really enjoying it then I would draw all my pets (why I draw furries/arthros now) . I would make up stories and characters inspired from all the t.v and video games I would play. It was so fun, it really shaped me into the artist I am now really. :) I think I get too hung up on drawing the perfect picture rather then just being inspired and channeling that creativity these days. I have to remember that life isn't a contest. I can sit down, draw a shitty picture and still have fun.
Oh man, tokyo mew mew. Its still an inspiration today even though I don't draw it as much. I would love to have a comic, animation, or whatever of a team of color coded magical girls... And sweets. Magical girl shows rule my world. I wouldn't know where to begin without them, but I'm not even answering your question. AHEM.

When I first saw it on the internet (a year or so?) before the dub came to America. I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE CHARATERS AND THE CONCEPT. I must of been 14-15 years old then. I actually printed the pictures out the characters and saved them in my folder of anime pictures. From there I wanted to make myself into a mew since the characters where so cute and made myself into a butterfly mew mew. This is the remake of that original picture. Funny how I'm still an arthro mew back then, I will never give up my fursona haha! From there the show came to America and I would look up the show (fan made mews mostly) and found theO. I stalked the place for about a year then finally joined and started making my own mews, then of course the rest is history. ;3
I still love that show to this very day, it combined everything I love into a 52 episode series. I still need to get the rest of the manga though. :0

Is pink your favorite color?
No, that's a stupid question.
Um.
Are you good at baking? :U

YES, PINK IS MY ALL TIME FAVORITE COLOR. I realized that pink was my favorite color back in middle school or something along that. I'm not sure of the actual moment but when I thought about it, pink was on top my favorite color list. Oh and added fun fact. Before I knew pink was my favorite color I FELL IN LOVE with the color "cerulean". I remember back in elementary school I used the crayon and my head exploded over the sheer beauty of the color. Even now when I use that color I can't help but be in awe even though its not my "personal" favorite color.
UMMM BAKING AYEEE, not really unless you count the "box" stuff and even then my sister does all the work while I grease the pan and eat the batter out the bowls HAHAHAHA. Though, I want to learn how to bake and make my own pastries. That would be FABOLOUS.

how did you the get idea to make those cute little charms?
I saw people making them online and around that time I discovered I wanted my own business selling cute hand made things. So when I finally want about my new found dream I tried my hand at polymer clay charms and feel in love with it! Then as time when by I was more infatuated with the clay sweets and started to make those, a few years later here we are haha! :D

how do i become an inspiring artist like you?

Don't take life seriously.
Don't treat life like a contest.
Don't beat yourself up when you do something wrong.
Draw when you feel like it and/or are inspired too.
When your on the internet and can't think of a place to go to, get off the computer and do something else. I found that to be a life saver for me really haha.

can you do an art trade with me sometime

I would love too. I still have to make Kiro's trade that I slacked off on (sorry bby) . But I've been drawing lately so I don't mind another trade at the moment.

where is the nearst starbucks?

Somewhere downtown, I don't go the starbucks even though I want to try their fraps or whatever. I'm a hard core dunk'n donuts fan. I basically lived off the stuff in college.

Lol I think this may help you writing answers XD
what is your favorite...

style of shose?

Sneakers for the win!

gum flavor?

Big Red which is cinnamon has always been my personal favorite but there are so many these days I can't even chose. D:

season?

Spring since it gets warmer and my birthday (and 40% of the worlds) is in the spring time. Though I do dread the summer a lot in that time so that's the down side.

anime guys character?

HHHMMMMM.

animal?

Cheetahs! I love them so much! So cute and they run fast as hell! :D

food? xD

Probably whip cream, Chinese dumplings, sweets (of course), chocolate, coffee, and U-DON F YEAH

flower?

I can't really say since I'm not a flower person. I guess a rose or a cherry blossom. :0

day and why?

Not even sure anymore since I've long have been out of school and quit work. I guest Monday at this point because its a whole new week and I can start fresh again!

did ya...
do make up?

Haha no, I'm not just of a make up person but I like seeing it on other people. My older sister is a huge fan of makeup and even makes her own lip glosses!

slept with stuffed animal?

A lot when I was a kid, I don't do that much now. Then again my other side of the bed be crammed with stuff so I guess that can count too haha.

kept an animal in your house?

I love, we have two pets. A guinea pig name Caramel, and an all white cat name Dro.

slap someone? XDD

Not slapped but I did scratch at 2 kids in my childhood. XD

what is your sadest moment in your life?

Probably when my grandma and my first guinea pig Roadkill died. Then again the fact I couldn't get any fried dumplings tonight pretty much took that cake for the day. XD

what is your happiest moment?

HMM, that's a good question. I have a lot really.

do you miss some one?

Yeah, I miss a lot of people really. A lot of my school mates and stuff.

how many friends do you have?

In real life that I see, only 1 haha (I don't I'm so unpopular). But online I have a bunch more, you all know who I'm talking about! :D

Stealing aragorn's Q&A post

I really liked the idea (super hugs to you sorry I'm MIA these days) and I really want to be more active here and interact with my friends so I think this is a good way to do it!

So ask away about anything you want to know about me and I will give you the answers in the new journal post! :3

New AC Unit And Other Things!

So last night I did a one page rant about my family and life. I didn't post it because is was so negative! Not that it had a lot of cussing or was really offensive but I didn't like throwing out all the bad things in my life. I like to post about my developments in the week and showing myself and the world how in small and big ways I'm moving forward. When I read over that ranty post it just brought me down and all I could see was a really effed up week(s) of just me beating a VERY dead horse. Plus all the other things that I wanted to post about (the positive things) wasn't there so I decided to keep it for myself and start over today!

First off I got my very own AC unit! After many years of sharing and/or not having an ac of my own my dad came through and brought me one. Brandon and my dad installed it last night, it was a total pain in the ass and overly complicated (coming from a person that had NOTHING to do with installing it! XD). I turned it on last night and it works like a champ. Its going to be ungodly hot for the next three days so I'm glad that I'll be comfortable this go round.

With that said, this will be a good time to start drawing again and planning out things! I haven't drawn anything in about a week or two. I didn't have an art block or anything but I just didn't feel like drawing, or had any must draw ideas. Lately though I've been wanting to create characters and practice on realism so this is a great opportunity for me! I think I might also make some clay items of some kind. Its going to be super hot so I don't really want to be in the kitchen with the oven on haha so we'll see.

Admittedly I've have been a bit frustrated as of late. I was over at Brandon's house a lot lately so I'm not on the internet a lot nor working on anything personal. As much as I love seeing others do what they love and sell their work I really hate it when I feel like I'm still "working at it". I have tons of ideas, crafts, and products that I want to work on but I just don't have enough room for everything. I want to keep my sanity so I don't try to work on 5 very different mediums in my small room or the share kitchen. I don't have the money to buy any new hobbies and if I did there isn't enough space to keep it all or work on them. Sometimes I forget that its more of "keeping down the stress" that I don't purse more crafts outside of books on the subjects (I don't have the room for books either). I COULD go out and buy candle and soap kits and throw them among the junk in the house but I would get stressed about the space issue (and a zillion other things). So I just do what I can within my limits but even that is biting me in my ass now but I'll work through it.

Other then my frustrations, life and other wise things have been great. I saw a rainbow the day before the "rapture". I've gotten more followers for my Candy Sanctuary blog despite my lack of new deco work and other things that I probably forgot to mention.

Looking at the season change I definitely think its time to change my world layout and the other web accounts I have. I actually have a great theme in mind that I plan to do in illustrator called "Summer Time Sweet Hearts! Its really simple design and I love the name. I won't go into detail about it because I like the level of surprise. Once I'm done with my latest picture (check the last wip) I'll work on STSH next!

Thank you all for listening and reading my journal posts! Also a huge thank you to my latest subscribers (blow kisses) you all really make my day, take care everyone!

My Birthday and Stolen Gallery!

I want to thank EVERYONE for their b-day wishes to me and everything. You guys are so sweet and caring, you all really made this birthday my best since childhood. THANK YOU THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH.

My birthday was awesome and full of win. Brandon was so awesome and got me a My Little Pony toy that lights up haha.

I didn't even open it yet but I'm going to place it somewhere nice, hell I might play with it since I'm such a big kid already. I went to the shore in New Jersey and stayed there the whole day where Brandon treated me like a queen and spoiled me rotten haha.

I have a huge post about it on my craft blog but I wanted to say thank you to Kelsey, Hanaro Souhi, and everyone that was really kind to me. It means the world to me so thank you so much!

Besides that, while I was up till 5 IN THE MORNING LAST NIGHT since my sister wanted to play the radio ALL NIGHT, I saw some major art theft. The person's gallery had STOLEN PICTURES of Ribbon Heart's art DA. When I looked at the stolen piece it looked painted over so I check to see if ribbon heart had an account here. I checked her gallery and saw that all her works had watermarks on them. So when I checked the stolen pieces in question I saw that the area of the watermarks have been messed with. So then I went and reported all the pieces with the url of the originals except one that wasn't in ribbon's gallery anymore. I contacted ribbon as well and told her about it. Unfortunately this happens to her a lot so I'm glad I was able to catch an art thief in action. Hopefully the works will be deleted from the idiot's gallery and MAYBE the person will learn something.

It really sickens me when someone have the balls to take someones work, take the watermark off and post them as if it was theirs. I mean if you like the drawings so much it doesn't take much to try your had at drawing yourself. If anything it should inspire trying something new, not being an a**hole and claiming stuff that isn't yours to begin with. /rant

But anyway, today was crappy since I barely got any sleep because of the music (I want to move out so bad). Hopefully tonight will be better because I seriously needed the sleep last night because I was so tired after my birthday.

Thanks for reading guys, have a great night!