The light I seek within this darkness
Is hidden deep in this world of hate and loneliness
I search for a reason...
A reason to live
A reason to love
A reason to hate
Tell me what I must know
Tell me everything I need to know
Tell me why I must keep on living
In a world where I am needed by none
I am a stranger to most
I am an object to others
I am unloved by all
Is it okay to feel this way?
Is it okay to live this way?
Is it okay to love and not be loved?
Is it okay to hate those with no heart?
Is there anyone who can make life fair?
Will I ever smile?
Will I ever laugh?
Will I ever be able to love and be loved?
Will I ever shed tears of joy?
Can my pain ever heal?
Can my happiness be revealed?
Can anyone free me from this hell and take me to heaven?
Maybe one day, I will find the hidden light
Maybe one day, I will be able to smile
Maybe one day, I will find someone who cares
This hell I live in might last a long time
But it will never last a whole lifetime
Because I have hope
That someday, someone will be there by my side
Making me smile...
Giving me a whole new life
Needing heaven by my side
Needing a heart filled with pride
Needing a moment undenied
Searching for reasons deep inside
Every tear that needs to flow...
I would replace with a smile I need to show...
Through so many eyes
I would see nothing but lies
Yet I stand in denial
Pretending to see the truth
I hide behind my smile the need to cry...
I hide behind my smile the need to die...
Sorrow engulfs my being
Regrets fill my heart
Hopes lay deep in my thoughts
As destiny follows the thread
Which flows through time, which shows us faith
Can I ever awaken
What still sleeps in my dreams
The promise of new moments
That will never cease to shine
Like the moon's light
Under the darkest night
I'm bound to reality
By chains of dreams
I’m bound to life
For so many years
Lost in pain
I stand through the rain
Staring at the stars
I still hold my scars
I was shown a light
A light so bright
Now slowly healing
This painful feeling
Through so many moments
I experienced much
From a smile to happiness
From a tear to sadness
The wish I dreamed of
I dreamt of love
But I could never find
That of which I was always blind
That of which still remains in my mind
The emptiness I feel
I will never reveal
I will always conceal
Until the day it becomes unreal
Until the day life becomes surreal
Love... I still detest
Tears... I still shed
Pained... I held my chest
Chained... I felt so depressed
The heart I hold
Can't you see it?
This heart now cold
Why did you break it?
A cold moment
Ignited a fire
Burning the wings
That once allowed me
To fly higher
Why?
Still I cry...
For this one lie?
For this one guy?
I want to tell someone
Yet I can't tell anyone
The importance you hold
In my heart
It's like gold
If only a kiss
Could end it in a bliss
But a dream it will remain
In this rain
Through this pain
Love... What does it mean
What true meaning hides within it
Will it always be unseen?
The true meaning... so serene
This poem is a tribute to the character Misuzu, from the anime AIR.
I'm surrounded by loneliness
I yearn for happiness
My illness turned me into a lie
Now I only wish to fly
Now I only wish to die
Every night, I would dream
In my dreams, I could fly, it would seem
Yet in my dreams, I was engulfed in sadness
Every night, no moment was emotionless
My end is near
I know
But it isn't clear
It's filled with sorrow
I'm sorry... I had to lie
My precious, I didn't want to see you cry
My pain wasn't gone, I was only pretending
I did not wish for you to see... this tragic ending
I saw the end of my dream, I slept my last night
You slept by me, holding me tight
To see you happy, I pretended to be alright
Knowing deeply, I would soon see my last light
My last day passed by
I'm now free of my lie
To my goal, I flied
To my precious, I smiled
High in the sky, I can now rest
I love you, please don't cry
A hug for you, your were always the best
A hug for you, and one last goodbye
