Name: Nikki
Age: 27
DOB: Nov. 24 1986
Height: 5ft roughly - What? I'm short
Believe in Love at First Sight: No.
Relationship Status: Single / Don't care
Here lately, I've come to discover, it doesn't matter whether I get married or not. It doesn't even matter if I stay single. Thing is, I may or may not be ready for it. What's important is being content with what you have.
I have a lot of favorite anime, but a few of them include: Code Geass, Trigun, Fullmetal Alchemist and Fairy Tail.
Favorite music: rock / hard rock / heavy metal, pop - I like things that people have said doesn't fit me.
My all time favorite band is the old Guns N' Roses. The new one sucked. End of story.

I Don't Understand These Comparisons

Why do I get compared to angels? I'm not that special. I mean, I'm human, and I'm not without sin. I'm not the perfect person some people envision me as. I'm just an average woman, living an average life. Well, okay, mostly average. If living with my parents is average. Well, that's beside the point. The point is, I don't really see why some people think I'm more special than I am. I'm even called "the pure one". I'm me. See, my preacher said that someone compared this other preacher to Jesus, and he was saying he wouldn't want to be compared like that because Jesus is next to God. If Jesus is above the angels, I'm not like an angel. Although, I can't say I'm not happy that people think well of me.

*Sorry, I know some of you don't believe in God / Christ and I'm not sure the site's standing on religion, but I mean no disrespect. These are totally my views*

"Make It Stop, Make It End..."

I am disheartened today. I found out good news, I found out I don't need surgery, and yet something very tragic happened today that makes me wonder wtf happened? I don't understand what possesses an adult to kill innocent children in an elementary school, and I don't understand how so many shootings have taken place just this year, or a shooting and a stabbing. You know, I even learned some kids in China were stabbed to death in a school today (well yesterday for them). First, this year, we had a shooting at a movie theater, then a shooting at a mall, and now today, a shooting at an elementary school. I still remember the shooting at Columbine, but what is going on with America? What can be done about it? We need to do something, yet gun control is not the answer. Why? People still find ways to get guns. It doesn't matter if there's more control or you ban them. The problem lies in identifying and helping those that shouldn't be in society. Surely there were warning signs for this guy. This couldn't be just a random shooting. None of them are. There's planning involved. We all know that the shooting at Virginia Tech was handled poorly, and nobody saw fit to get the guy some help? Hmm... but what about this? You know, it's gotten to the point to where you can't go out in public anymore, and you can't feel safe about sending your kids to school. And what's being done about it? Congress just sits on their butts like, "Oh well, another shooting." Meanwhile, people are paranoid about things they shouldn't have to worry about. I wonder, where does it stop?

I Am Not Human

I might as well just be a robot. I already feel empty and less than human. When will this life end? Nothing matters anymore. I have a worthless degree, I have a worthless job that won't get me anywhere and I tire of it, all the random shifts and not getting let off on time, like 20 minutes late, and the little pay I receive and the little benefits I might get in February. I am not even sure why I live. I live in this endless cycle of the same things every day. I live with my parents, and I have no future. I tire of this life. When I wake in the morning (when I manage to get a day off), what do I have to look forward to? Why do I even have dreams? What's the point of dreaming? It's all a fantasy anyway, just something my mind makes up to escape from the mundane life I have, this pointless life, my life. I'm really not even sure why I exist on this planet. Is there a reason why God put me here? Why do I need to be on Earth to learn more about a Heavenly being? I don't want to be here. I'm already not like everyone else. I don't like that I'm so different and isolated from the world. It's like I said in my title, I'm not human. Heck, I don't even have the proper emotions I'm supposed to have.

Blue Exorcist = Beetlejuice

LOL Have you ever been watching an anime and it leads you to watch clips from a movie? XD So, apparently, watching Ao no Exorcist (Blue Exorcist) made me want to watch clips from Beetlejuice, like this one! Enjoy!

I Know I Shouldn't But...

I have to wonder if I drive people away from me. Again, I know I shouldn't think this way, but paranoia must be that demon that wants to drag me down with him. He enjoys watching me suffer. I wonder if I've made someone mad or annoyed someone. All the time I feel like this. It's nothing new. Still... I hate the feelings I get in the pit of my stomach that tells me I've just pushed people away from me. It sucks. I need an equal and opposite force to tell me no. Although, I'm pretty sure there have been equal and opposite forces, but they keep having to do the same things over and over again. See, it's a vicious cycle.