I have to wonder if I drive people away from me. Again, I know I shouldn't think this way, but paranoia must be that demon that wants to drag me down with him. He enjoys watching me suffer. I wonder if I've made someone mad or annoyed someone. All the time I feel like this. It's nothing new. Still... I hate the feelings I get in the pit of my stomach that tells me I've just pushed people away from me. It sucks. I need an equal and opposite force to tell me no. Although, I'm pretty sure there have been equal and opposite forces, but they keep having to do the same things over and over again. See, it's a vicious cycle.