Name: Nikki
Age: 27
DOB: Nov. 24 1986
Height: 5ft roughly - What? I'm short
Believe in Love at First Sight: No.
Relationship Status: Single / Don't care
Here lately, I've come to discover, it doesn't matter whether I get married or not. It doesn't even matter if I stay single. Thing is, I may or may not be ready for it. What's important is being content with what you have.
I have a lot of favorite anime, but a few of them include: Code Geass, Trigun, Fullmetal Alchemist and Fairy Tail.
Favorite music: rock / hard rock / heavy metal, pop - I like things that people have said doesn't fit me.
My all time favorite band is the old Guns N' Roses. The new one sucked. End of story.

And The Princess Awaited in Her Tower...

A loud roar like thunder would echo throughout the dark cavern inside the mountain which over looked the world. A breath of flame would shoot out into the fiery pit as the hideous creature reared its head upon the cliff on which he stood surrounded by the lava, brimstone and billowing smoke. Yes, this sound echoed into nothingness, and no one would hear it. Meanwhile, the purest and fairest in the land, the young princess with her long, wavy, auburn locks slept unmoving in an eternal slumber high above in the highest room atop the tallest tower. She slept, unaware of the day-to-day happenings. She wasn't even aware of her steadfast, beating heart. Bars guarded her windows just as the dragon stood guard of the front gates leading to the tower. Only the bravest of knights could cross the drawbridge and take on the satanic creature. Not only did it take skill in swordsmanship but it took a great deal of courage. The trouble was, no such knight seemed to exist. None were willing to risk their lives to save a sleeping princess. Most had concluded t'was best to let the sleeping princess lie. At least she was safe in her slumber. The one thing that would wake her was the kiss of true love. It seemed though, that day would never come. Her beauty would never fade as she'd never grow old. She was locked in this never changing world alone. The princess awaited in her tower for one so bold, one knight that would save her from her prison. Yes, even castles as glorious as this once was could be a prison. Someone as beautiful as she could be a prisoner. Though she wore no chains or was not a slave to any human being, this sleeping beauty was a prisoner. When would they realize she was not safe? Yes... with a dragon guarding her tower, the knights so bold figured the girl was perfectly safe. She was safer there, and there they would leave her. In her dreams, she dreamed of a knight in shining, golden armor, riding a white horse and armed with not one sword but two. His hair was thick, curly and kind of scruffy just like the tarnished clothing he wore beneath his gilded armor. He dismounted his horse, knelt beside the fair maiden, bent over her and kissed her thick, luscious lips. In her dreams, the young maiden awoke and returned the favor, kissing his lips and when he offered his hand to her, she stood with him and mounted the horse. Where they would ride off to was anyone's guess.

Thanks hope you enjoyed this little short story.

I Have Nothing to Complain About

I just realized today, tonight actually that I have nothing to complain about. In comparison to others' plights, my worries are nothing. See, I learned something very troubling today. I was in shock and I couldn't believe what I was hearing. A friend of mine, a young man about my own age just lost his mother yesterday, or I believe that's the day he lost her. For respect for him, I won't go into any details, but it was a very tragic death, and sadly, this could happen to anyone. I was lucky and didn't need surgery to have my gall bladder removed and yet, someone else was unlucky. As much as we don't like to admit it, something can happen to anyone at anytime, so therefore it becomes more important to show your love for others and to be thankful for the good in your life and not focus on the things you don't have or you want. I realized I need to be more thankful and not fuss or whine so much. I have a good life, whether I want to admit it or not. I may have to report bad news of my own soon because I'm afraid I might be losing my uncle, but I don't fully know the situation. I just know, it doesn't sound too good and they've been travelling a lot. However, the thing is, we should all count our blessings because we aren't guaranteed to wake up tomorrow morning, and what do you do when it's too late?

Accepting One's Own Feelings

You know, I keep getting advice to just accept my feelings. That's easier said than done, especially when you believe you're wrong. After being given the cold shoulder and told you're wrong one time can really make a difference. Even if that person is no longer your friend, it still leaves a mark. If I can learn to just accept myself as I am, it will be great. I was told that it's a very good thing. I just need to teach myself not to worry.

I also don't like dreaming some of the things I dream, like last night. I was hanging out at the mall with some friends, and we happened to see a couple together and the man proposed to his girlfriend. It was a sweet scene, and yet, I told them I wanted to go somewhere else. Then, I had to apologize for ruining the day. I just felt lonely, and I couldn't help but think, "That's never going to be me". I've never been in a relationship. I've been on a few dates, but that's pretty much it. I haven't had anything longer than a month. I even told them, "It would be nice if someone actually told me 'I love you' and meant it."

I know it's bad to think that way, and I'm working on training myself to not think such things and just being myself, but sometimes those ugly thoughts cross my mind.

Luckily, I had a great Christmas, and I hope you guys did too! :)

Vocaloid

lol I thought Vocaloid was just weird at first, but I'm growing used to it. In particular, I think I like Luka. I'm not all that sure what vocaloid is really, but one song I found with Luka describes me perfectly, and I think the style is kind of interesting. I like Kaito too, and Meiko isn't bad either. Just posting some random thoughts I had about vocaloid.

An Otaku No More

Sadly, I don't know how much anime I will be able to watch anymore. I don't have / can't afford Netflix, and our internet over here in America has deleted a lot of English subbed anime, and a lot of the dubbed sites have crappy videos, so I may not be able to watch all the anime I want anymore. This really disheartens me because there's so much anime I want to watch, but it's not available to watch. I went to watch Ghost in the Shell Stand Alone Complex episode 7, but either the audio is crappy or the video just doesn't work. This goes for subbed as well as dubbed. I will watch what I can, but I won't be taking suggestions for anime anymore because chances are, I won't be able to find it.

Guess I'll stick to Doctor Who, assuming I can find that more often, and either listening to music or playing video games. Maybe.