- Created By Chel the Bell
WHY
Oh guys I don't even know. What is my life srsly. I don't know if I can do this anymore. Srsly internet you're killing me. And why did I ever go on tumblr it's just perfection and I'm dying I'm dying and it won't stop. Everything is magical. And I'm just unbearably happy. And gosh dang it why are people awesome and remind me of me and why do I suck so bad and talking on omegle is hilarious and all I can do is make jokes and nothing is srs and I think that that's okay who needs to be srs anyway. Too many people are srs. And that's a wall of text and I'm sorry but I don't know how to do this other than to ramble like crazy and just keep talking and at least I'm spacing because trust me in my head there are no spaces.
Also my art is garbage and I don't know how to draw and even when I sketch stuff I'm like "What the actual butts is this" and it's embarrassing. Because I want to give you guys gold. I want things to be good but it's all so bad. And I don't know what I'm doing and it makes me sad. And yes I just rhymed and if I don't stop now I'll probably start rambling.
I want fries and a grape Dr. Pepper.
Time Keeps On Slipping
Slipping~ Into the Future~
OH GOSH WHERE HAS ALL THE TIME GONE. Away. That's where. I once had a conversation with my mom and bros in a car about time. I took the position that time isn't real. There's no such thing as time. It's a made up conspiracy by scientist to control us. Or something like that! But (ir)regardless (hohohoho, irregardless isn't a word. I have a hard time believing that people actually say/type that), it's all gone. Let me tell you how my weeks been!
Well I've moved into an apartment with my brothers. All but one of them. Nothing too major came about from it. I wasn't super nervous or anything. It's like living at home, without being at home. (and that's why I wear one too... stupid LifeAlert... stupid commercials!) It's also kinda cheating because currently I'm not paying for anything. I have to get a job~ Boohoo. I'ma apply at a dining center on campus. Hopefully I won't have to apply anywhere else! I could pose nude for art classes~ Ohohohoho, no, I really couldn't. But that is a subject for another time perhaps!
Alright so I moved in... then guess what? We didn't have any internet! Huzzah Huzzah, right? Honestly it was dreadful. Days without internet~ Makes me wonder what people did before the internet... Read books? Because that's what I did. I read so much Sherlock Holmes! Oh MAN! Do I love me some Sherlock Holmes. Also played a games that don't need the internet on my iPod. I'm pretty champion at this one game, but only when I listen to oldies... It's bizarre. But yeah no internet. So I've missed like a weeks worth of stuff guys. (Also my apologizes Wakusei Aoshi... I didn't save the picture you sent me of SuperJunior and accidentally closed out of it... so I haven't worked on it yet~).
And today I'm celebrating a friends birthday! I totally forgot about her birthday though, and didn't buy her anything... Terrible friend is terrible! And I feel worse because we're going bowling and then eating pizza! My two favourite activities! HERPDERP. Welp I gotta go sob forever now. BYE BYE.
Art
Or the lack there-of.
Perhaps you have noticed my lack of any submissions other than the occasional world post. The truth is, along with some computer problems, I just have been able to draw lately. I was getting rather nervous about it, you see I thought I had lost my ability to draw anything what-so-ever. I could see my future fading away (after all I had recently switch my major to Art). After struggling for days trying to draw something half-way decent I learned something. It's not that I've lost my ability to draw... I just can't draw on a computer. And I still have no idea why.
However, my mother was cleaning out one of my brothers' room and happened upon a lot of blank index cards. I quickly snatched them up and have decided to use them for drawing purposes. Because drawing on them is a lot easier then drawing on the computer. So I'm back to drawing and not feeling terrible about it... Though I did promise my brother a couple of pictures for his friends... I'll probably just have to draw them and scan them... As it is though I was thinking of doing some large artist trading cards. Thing is I've never done them before and don't really know how to go about this sort of thing. If you're interested, or have any experience with this sort of thing let me know/help a sista out.
I think I'm going to draw a bit now....
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IN completely unrelated news:
- I've become obsessed with BBC Sherlock.
- My brother is trying to get me into Homestuck.
- Grandma is coming to visit
- I've to enroll in my classes still... SO LAZY
- Slowly working on applying to movie theatre. Only need more references~
Ode to the Terrible
Or something like that. Life's doing that thing where it likes to be garbage.
Mostly my computer is freaking out and breaking. AND IT DESTROYS ME. BECAUSE EVERYTHING I EVER HAD IS GONE FOREVER. Only memories remain. Which is cool in a cleansing sort of way. BUT IT'S SUCKS FOR MY INNER HOARDER. Like I'm srsly half-way to breaking down. Half of me is all "WHY OH GOD WHY?! WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS" and the other part of me is all "Meh, you needed this. You were really piling stuff up, and it's about time you had a clean sweep. God doesn't give you what you can't handle" And then that other part of me is all "STFU I'M SUFFERING I DON'T NEED YOU REASON SOBOSOBSOBSOBENDLESSSOB" It's quite an ordeal for me. The main problem is I don't want to tell my parents it's broke and go and get it fix and stuff.... If it doesn't break down this time... I think it'll be safe to start over... Interestingly enough it sorta goes with my hiatus so that's cool...
BUT YEAH... other than that. STORMS LIKE ALL THE TIME. My mom has been depressed and taking it out on everyone being all "I'M ANGRY AND SAD AND DISAPPOINT" And it's really hard to handle, since I try to avoid making people feel that way. It sucks hard core! AND I HAVE TO GO AND TALK WITH AN ADVISOR FOR SCHOOL... and advisor isn't even a word according to Mozilla. It should be adviser... but w/e my school spells it advisor. AND I GONNA TRY AND GO TO THE THEATRE AND GET AN APPLICATION. And that really freaks me out. FFFF SOCIAL ANXIETY GO AWAY.
But in something that doesn't suck completely... I'm getting a bit more religious. It's hard though because there isn't one that I like fully agree with (as far as I'm aware). I got like mostly Christian beliefs thanks to my parents... but I have a hard time believing in Jesus because I'm all "WHAT IF HE'S A FALSE IDOL" So IDK. It's a weird sort of thing where I'm like "I believe in God and doing good" but that's about it.
Man I have a feeling I'm a really boring person...
Here I Am
"ONE SHOT ONE GUN SHOT AND BAM~!" URGH GLEEE!! Why do you get songs stuck in my head. And not just parts BUT LIKE WHOLE SONGS!! *pouts*
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So guys... how's it? I've been pretty dead lately. Sorry. I've been trying to draw stuff but I give up alot. Or I don't have ideas. Or I can't because I'm busy. I've also been fighting with my style. Do I want something complex, or simple? I love simple and feel I do simple best... But simple is boring and I want to do really complex stuff but I don't have the attnetion span for that. So I'm at odds with myself. Also was in conflict about ZoomZoom and whether I really wanted to work on it or not... I htink I decided that I do actually like it. But it'll probably still be a while until I actually do something for it. BECAUSE NOW I HAVE THINGS TO DRAW. Like stuff for the SecretSanta, and a couple challenges. And I want to try and finish this picture I started back in like June, and give it to my dad for a Christmas present. HURHUR I doubt that'll happen.
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In other news... I watch The Last Airbender movie. PFFFT Oh was I a terrible audiance. I watched it with my parents and all I wanted to do was be like "That didn't happen. That's wrong. WRONG WRONG WRONG" But I couldn't because my parents were actually watching it... I guess I dunno. Anyway I commented on how bad the acting was. Because it was really stiff and there didn't seem to be very much character interaction. IDK I don't know how to explain it, but it wasn't good. But then my dad was like "It's better than the cartoons" and I was "Ah no." But my dad happens to really dislike anime. I told them that they pronounce Aang's name in the movie and my mom was like "How do you know that the show isn't pronouncing it wrong" something about translation. And I was like "It's an american show..." BAH My parents. They are supportive, but they aren't very understanding. It's so weird because my dad loves like old Japanese movies, but doesn't like anime. I dunno. I don't get it. I should make him read Rurouni Kenshin. LOL what am I talking about, I'm not even into anime that much anymore.
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That's it. I'll be busy, but don't worry. I manage to check theO everyday, so I'm aware if you are up to something....
