myotaku

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yo

yea.. I didn't post yesterday.. I was too lazy. lol

what day was I sapose to post about???

thursday

木曜部

lets see.. photography.. what did we do..

looked at pics

math.. learned new stuff. (for once lol) (.. cus i took the class already ok)

I think I got some stuff done.. I don't remember.. lol

kinou

金曜日

had speech

OMG MY SPEECH!!! LOL

it was... eh..

I was really nervous.. I guess I did a lot better than I did last time..

I played the video, nobody flinched at the guy saying fucking... so yea..

I hope nobody will eat there again. lol I tryed to make damn sure that those images were stuck in their head.

lol the person revewing me was the vegitarian.

lol the class seemed surprized when the one chick in my group asked me if I ate at Mcdonalds. The last time I did was july of last year. *class gasps* lol

ok so... also yesterday was the last day I ate at KFC lol
We saw it while looking for something else and I wanted it 1 last time.

yea I can so live w/o it. LOL it's not that great..

there was a comment box.. with no paper!!! :(((( I would have sooo written about stuff. lol

I didn't get much done yesterday..

so... but no.. maybe I did accomplish the most important thing..

I talked to tony and we were all relaxed. I asked him if he was really willing to live in another country. he said honestly, no. lol (glad he told the truth)

We talked and he kept on saying how he would go where I would. But I want him to think of himself more.

We eventually came to the conlusion, not to put me 1st or think for himself or something. I can't remember. lol *kiss kiss*

So *sigh* today is the day I change the thing. I guess I did like the week of not everybody knowing, just liked I liked when me and tony were seeing eachother and nobody knew.

I guess I'm pretty much done.. I love him.. I just wanted that sorted out.

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yesterday was MUCH better. :)

kinou

水曜日

speech.. HAHA didn't have to do it. The guy before me took longer.

came back.. posted.. cried a little.. then went in the shower and did it again..

yahoo answers...

Japanese class, started kamikaze girls.

omg. She reminds me of me in highschool SOOOO MUCH!!!! lol same attitude and stuff. not the clothing tho..

after that.. stuff..

checked yahooanswers some time.. OMG HELPED SOOOOOO MUCH!!!

a few people said if you feel that way then think about it.
Most of them were, a lot of people felt the same way. by the time it was the day, they were WAY exited.

So I just need time. and I like to plan for the future and tony is being really hard to talk to about it. :S

so yea.. ... we had fun hehehehehehe lol sooooooo gewd. :D

nothing all day.. wtv I don't care. ya know what. I needed a day off. lol

we played the office game lol we had the glasses icon twice. 1st time texted, 2nd time taring paper and writing a number on them.

I WON!!! XD XD XD lol he's a sore losser. lol so i was a sore winner! ^_^

then sleep at 11 :)

peace

yo

well.. 3rd day was better.

I just kinda realized I was nervous... but.. ok let me go on on that later.

kinou

*plays sleazy*

火曜日

photography

:(((( he had people get in groups. We watched videos. one almost made cry. was bout this blind guy and this chick rewrote his sign.

otaku

math

LOL there was nobody there. forgot that we had tuesday off.
So scedualed a new appt for class.

so yea, working on speech listening to kesha's new cd. omg its AWESOME!!! XD XD X

yea.. I ended up dancing (of cource) and then started to strip.. LOL only got a bra off tho.

ok yea.. erm.. started erm.. I think on otaku then continued to type on wordpad bout stuff.. i guess I realized I was just nervous.. so qualled k20, nobody, qualled burtney then k20 and stuff..

eventually at the end of the day qualed alisha. She was happy.

ok, here is where I am getting at and confused about.

I'm nervous right?

So.. why am I nervous? If I want to get married, wouldn't I be exited and show everbody asap?

I told tony and he said he was really nervous 2..

idk..

do i want to?

idk..

kinda

then what's holding me back?

idk >.<

i wil follow where ever you go.

*sigh* I want him to be happy. not be forced to go where I do just cus. duh. I learned that.. AND NOW HE WANTS TO GO TO COLLEGE WHERE I WILL OR NEAR!!! *sigh*... idk.. *takes off ring* I want somebody who is their own person. I don't want this. I love him, I want to spend the rest of my life with him.. but.. idk..

he has to learn..

idk anymore. lol i want to marry him but.. idk

I want him.

Want to marry him?

yep.

I thought I was down to that, then he said yes.

what do I want?

idk *puts in ring*

I just don't think I need to feel nervous and not excited..

but you do want to marry him yes?

HELL YES

soooooooo

nani ga warui?

I wish my FUCKING mind would tell me.

fience

music

peace

meh

kinou

月曜日

yesterday was much better. lol and kinda dumb and stupid.

speech watched peeps do presentations. 1 didn't.

didn't go with groups

came home, tony didn't want to go to class cus he was a little sick still. I told him to go because I haven't gotten any time alone since he preposed.

.. so.. you can see how that went down. LOL yea.. basicly broke down a lot while typing.. so yea..

tony came home and I ran in the bed room.
played some uno on my phone.

Then came out.

lol at the last minute desided to go to japanese class. I did NOT go to japanese tho.

good thing I did. He talked about different anime. tomorrow he starts the kami kaze girls. which I already saw last year.

came back..

basicly the whole day talking to him asking about what to do with parents. figured that out.

and then just talking about countries..

idk how much I trust him.. I mean how can you just up and leave because ur fience or wife or wtv wants to. Where does he want to go??

lol lol lol got in this hilarious (well for me) conversation about knowing people in college. The way he put it, the ONLY way you can make it big is to know people. so I was like OH! They should have a people meet'n class. LOL LOL pissed him off but then he got why I thought that way. he ment it helps a lot. well yea duh. lol skip my art degree, PEOPLE MEET'N CLASS! XD LOL

anyway.. for supper we had burger king. we both got vegi burger with cheese. soooooooooooooooooooooooo gooood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDD

and fries

which I dropped outside of our door. LOL

barely did outline.. speech due tomorrow so.. yea..

showed tony what I was gonna wear easter morning. he was like, that's it? or something. lol

then bread with just bra and panties.. probably should have put on pjs. lol

peace

OH YEA! I feel better. lol I'm getting things straightened out. working on country thing, parents thing 80% done. then yea. lol

peace

sigh

... fuck...

well.. easter... was.... .... diferent.....

inicently doing egg hunt and there is this one egg with red mark on it. I open it and there is a paper inside. I'm like, I'm scared. I don't want to. Tony's like, please open it. fine

Will you marry me? (on a paper in silver ink -_-''')
and there is a ring freaken taped. taped? oh wow must be a chepo ring if it's taped to PAPER

so yea.. just standing with it in my hand.. wanted to say no soooooooooooooo badly but I didn't want to ever say no *starts crying in now time not easter then time* he hasn't e-mailed me back. cus he's a fucking retard. so I'm like.... maybe so I tell him to e-mail me right in front of me.

T.T

he eventually types I will go where you will go so I'm like yes.

then he's like I told your parents.

So by this time I'm like oh this day just keeps getting better and better. but actually I was thinking 1/2 happy 1/2 extremely pissed so meh.

so had to come up with a plan on how to tell OMG!!! I HATE BREAKING PEOPLES HEARTS!!! anyway T.T come up with a plan on how to tell g-ma. At the time I was happy.

oh yea, it's a perdy ring 2.

omg.. on the way up to walking to appt I was thinking, I'll just write on a piece of paper saying, lets just be friends, with the ring taped and I'll put all my stuff in the car when he's at school and abby and just drive home. lol ..

anyway.. came up with a plan.. acted all quoi.. is that how that's used?

got there.. got g-ma alone cus she was looken for chalk..

told her

then parents came out while I was doing hw..

OMG!!! I HATE BREAKING PEOPLES HEARTS!!!

then chalk time

oh yea, I was the center of attention.. great.. and extremely volnerable.. THIS IS MY 1ST TIME ALONE SINCE THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T.T

then ooooooo ring!

oh yea, dani stuff.

It seems like idk.. she's different.. I wouldn't say she has a big head exactly, but shes different and kinda shy. And I think I know why we have been apart for a bit.

It's because

WHY DO I HAVE TO DEAL WITH A DUMB.. omg.. fiance.. fun.. not

it's because

omg I didn't want it to happen like this

tony made it happen like this

DICK!!!

anyway, cus me and amy got men.. and we talked to dani and ari before that..

so yea.. so made an effort. akword. she did 2.

sidewalk chalk in front of house. I had loads of fun. It's just now I'm all pissed and letting my emotions out..

and hard to trust tony now..

so after g-mas went to his parents.

extremely akword.

so how do you feel? what do you think? I want to kill him for not fucking e-mailing me and want to leave and be alone...

went to melissa's

XD XD XD and pics

then levis, thank GOD he wasn't home..

suck in on the way back to appt that my parents knew before me and I was PISSED

then I got over it last night while typing up my dwyer book.

hehe, guess

*sigh* I wish I could have things my way for once.. I should have proposed.

lol I could say no and then do it.

MY LIFE SUCKS!!!

yea, hehe, guess what next? you would think all of this would be good. I was over it, came over to him sleeping in the bedroom and kissed and said fiance. :) then he was like, we're going to get married! *sigh* fake smiled and left.

then was tooo tired and i had chapter 7 left to type so I just went to bed.

yep, that was my easter. fun ne? FUCKING SUCKED!!!!!!!!!!

of cource I want to marry him.. but why o why did he tell my parents????? that's like the #1 thing not to do.. I understand i told him a while ago but I didnt' want to remind him untill the e-mails were over. WHY DIDN'T HE E-MAIL ME!!!! :((((( T.T I want him to be my boyfriend agian.. T.T I hate this. I hate that my parents knew before me and he thought he had to tell them. T.T T.T T.T I HATE MY PARENTS!!!! how dare you. T.T

and E-MAIL ME YA STUPID FUCK!!! T.T T.T T.T I don't even want to wear it anymore..

and seriosly? in an egg on PAPER TAPED?!?!?!

T.T do I have problems or does my life actually suck?

*sigh*

yep, that was my easter..

what do I want to do?

give him the ring and say not now. lol actually

I hate this. I hate it soooooooooo much. That's a big thing for me. Not to tell my parents... I thought I would be over it but.. idk.. it's just like I'm getting forced into this shit and I have to say yes. fuck

HE'S BEEN NOTHING BUT TROUBLE SINCE I KNEW HIM!!!!!

I seriosly want to just give it to him crying my eyes out and say not now. Not until we finish the e-mails.

BUT I HATE BREAKING HEARTS!!!!!!!!!! SO MUCH!!!!!

fucking idiot.

I guess I'll have to do what's right. wtv that may be.

and HELL no am I wearing it now. it's on the table next to me.

I wish we lived in the towers so I could stay there and ball my eyes out.. or at least a lock in the bedroom door.

If he didn't tell my parents I would be kinda pissed.

If we finished the e-mail I would be soooooo exited.

so he fucked up twice....

I don't understand why now I'm soo upset. yesterday I was happy.

I guess when you get candy your happy when it's there... I guess...

telling my parents and not finishing the e-mails pissed me off.

WHY THE HELL DIDN'T HE FINISH THEM!!!!!!!

hmm... looks like I said yes because he said I will follow you wherever you go.

ok ok. I need to plan this out. No pussies. I'm almost done with 2 years of hawkeye, need one more.

1. Told parents

2. didn't finish e-mails

I just dont' trust him as much now.. he should have known that the e-mails were really important to me and the not telling my parents.. idk what to do..

*sigh* I wish I was pregnent and didn't have a choice.. instead of having one

talk about one kid doing everything wrong..

*sigh* I love him, but we need to take care of these 2 things asap. *puts ring on*

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OH! I'm missing my mathis

*eats chocolate bunny*

Happy Easter!
peace