... fuck...
well.. easter... was.... .... diferent.....
inicently doing egg hunt and there is this one egg with red mark on it. I open it and there is a paper inside. I'm like, I'm scared. I don't want to. Tony's like, please open it. fine
Will you marry me? (on a paper in silver ink -_-''')
and there is a ring freaken taped. taped? oh wow must be a chepo ring if it's taped to PAPER
so yea.. just standing with it in my hand.. wanted to say no soooooooooooooo badly but I didn't want to ever say no *starts crying in now time not easter then time* he hasn't e-mailed me back. cus he's a fucking retard. so I'm like.... maybe so I tell him to e-mail me right in front of me.
T.T
he eventually types I will go where you will go so I'm like yes.
then he's like I told your parents.
So by this time I'm like oh this day just keeps getting better and better. but actually I was thinking 1/2 happy 1/2 extremely pissed so meh.
so had to come up with a plan on how to tell OMG!!! I HATE BREAKING PEOPLES HEARTS!!! anyway T.T come up with a plan on how to tell g-ma. At the time I was happy.
oh yea, it's a perdy ring 2.
omg.. on the way up to walking to appt I was thinking, I'll just write on a piece of paper saying, lets just be friends, with the ring taped and I'll put all my stuff in the car when he's at school and abby and just drive home. lol ..
anyway.. came up with a plan.. acted all quoi.. is that how that's used?
got there.. got g-ma alone cus she was looken for chalk..
told her
then parents came out while I was doing hw..
OMG!!! I HATE BREAKING PEOPLES HEARTS!!!
then chalk time
oh yea, I was the center of attention.. great.. and extremely volnerable.. THIS IS MY 1ST TIME ALONE SINCE THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T.T
then ooooooo ring!
oh yea, dani stuff.
It seems like idk.. she's different.. I wouldn't say she has a big head exactly, but shes different and kinda shy. And I think I know why we have been apart for a bit.
It's because
WHY DO I HAVE TO DEAL WITH A DUMB.. omg.. fiance.. fun.. not
it's because
omg I didn't want it to happen like this
tony made it happen like this
DICK!!!
anyway, cus me and amy got men.. and we talked to dani and ari before that..
so yea.. so made an effort. akword. she did 2.
sidewalk chalk in front of house. I had loads of fun. It's just now I'm all pissed and letting my emotions out..
and hard to trust tony now..
so after g-mas went to his parents.
extremely akword.
so how do you feel? what do you think? I want to kill him for not fucking e-mailing me and want to leave and be alone...
went to melissa's
XD XD XD and pics
then levis, thank GOD he wasn't home..
suck in on the way back to appt that my parents knew before me and I was PISSED
then I got over it last night while typing up my dwyer book.
hehe, guess
*sigh* I wish I could have things my way for once.. I should have proposed.
lol I could say no and then do it.
MY LIFE SUCKS!!!
yea, hehe, guess what next? you would think all of this would be good. I was over it, came over to him sleeping in the bedroom and kissed and said fiance. :) then he was like, we're going to get married! *sigh* fake smiled and left.
then was tooo tired and i had chapter 7 left to type so I just went to bed.
yep, that was my easter. fun ne? FUCKING SUCKED!!!!!!!!!!
of cource I want to marry him.. but why o why did he tell my parents????? that's like the #1 thing not to do.. I understand i told him a while ago but I didnt' want to remind him untill the e-mails were over. WHY DIDN'T HE E-MAIL ME!!!! :((((( T.T I want him to be my boyfriend agian.. T.T I hate this. I hate that my parents knew before me and he thought he had to tell them. T.T T.T T.T I HATE MY PARENTS!!!! how dare you. T.T
and E-MAIL ME YA STUPID FUCK!!! T.T T.T T.T I don't even want to wear it anymore..
and seriosly? in an egg on PAPER TAPED?!?!?!
T.T do I have problems or does my life actually suck?
*sigh*
yep, that was my easter..
what do I want to do?
give him the ring and say not now. lol actually
I hate this. I hate it soooooooooo much. That's a big thing for me. Not to tell my parents... I thought I would be over it but.. idk.. it's just like I'm getting forced into this shit and I have to say yes. fuck
HE'S BEEN NOTHING BUT TROUBLE SINCE I KNEW HIM!!!!!
I seriosly want to just give it to him crying my eyes out and say not now. Not until we finish the e-mails.
BUT I HATE BREAKING HEARTS!!!!!!!!!! SO MUCH!!!!!
fucking idiot.
I guess I'll have to do what's right. wtv that may be.
and HELL no am I wearing it now. it's on the table next to me.
I wish we lived in the towers so I could stay there and ball my eyes out.. or at least a lock in the bedroom door.
If he didn't tell my parents I would be kinda pissed.
If we finished the e-mail I would be soooooo exited.
so he fucked up twice....
I don't understand why now I'm soo upset. yesterday I was happy.
I guess when you get candy your happy when it's there... I guess...
telling my parents and not finishing the e-mails pissed me off.
WHY THE HELL DIDN'T HE FINISH THEM!!!!!!!
hmm... looks like I said yes because he said I will follow you wherever you go.
ok ok. I need to plan this out. No pussies. I'm almost done with 2 years of hawkeye, need one more.
1. Told parents
2. didn't finish e-mails
I just dont' trust him as much now.. he should have known that the e-mails were really important to me and the not telling my parents.. idk what to do..
*sigh* I wish I was pregnent and didn't have a choice.. instead of having one
talk about one kid doing everything wrong..
*sigh* I love him, but we need to take care of these 2 things asap. *puts ring on*
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OH! I'm missing my mathis
*eats chocolate bunny*
Happy Easter!
peace
