well.. 3rd day was better.
I just kinda realized I was nervous... but.. ok let me go on on that later.
kinou
*plays sleazy*
火曜日
photography
:(((( he had people get in groups. We watched videos. one almost made cry. was bout this blind guy and this chick rewrote his sign.
otaku
math
LOL there was nobody there. forgot that we had tuesday off.
So scedualed a new appt for class.
so yea, working on speech listening to kesha's new cd. omg its AWESOME!!! XD XD X
yea.. I ended up dancing (of cource) and then started to strip.. LOL only got a bra off tho.
ok yea.. erm.. started erm.. I think on otaku then continued to type on wordpad bout stuff.. i guess I realized I was just nervous.. so qualled k20, nobody, qualled burtney then k20 and stuff..
eventually at the end of the day qualed alisha. She was happy.
ok, here is where I am getting at and confused about.
I'm nervous right?
So.. why am I nervous? If I want to get married, wouldn't I be exited and show everbody asap?
I told tony and he said he was really nervous 2..
idk..
do i want to?
idk..
kinda
then what's holding me back?
idk >.<
i wil follow where ever you go.
*sigh* I want him to be happy. not be forced to go where I do just cus. duh. I learned that.. AND NOW HE WANTS TO GO TO COLLEGE WHERE I WILL OR NEAR!!! *sigh*... idk.. *takes off ring* I want somebody who is their own person. I don't want this. I love him, I want to spend the rest of my life with him.. but.. idk..
he has to learn..
idk anymore. lol i want to marry him but.. idk
I want him.
Want to marry him?
yep.
I thought I was down to that, then he said yes.
what do I want?
idk *puts in ring*
I just don't think I need to feel nervous and not excited..
but you do want to marry him yes?
HELL YES
soooooooo
nani ga warui?
I wish my FUCKING mind would tell me.
fience
music
peace
