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I think it's about time I fixed this up haha.

Anyway, hey, whats up in the world of The Otaku? My real name is Chloe, I'm 18 years old and currently attending college. If I were to describe myself...I would say I'm a rather confusing person to get to know. I can be fairly shy and in other ways very social. If I don't like you, I don't like you so don't even try to get me to like you. If I like you, you're a friend for life unless you do something to really hurt me. But thats reasonable, right? with that being said, I should say that normally I'm very friendly to begin with. I always believe someone should at least be given a chance unless proven that they don't.

I love to draw, write, dance and listen to music. I have a deviantart and Furaffinity account for my artwork. If interested in seeing any of it, let me know.

I'm pansexual...if you want to call me bisexual because that's more comfortable for you, go ahead. I'm taken by my awesome boyfriend, Sam. He is Transgendered FtM and we're happy together. No, he doesn't have an account on here..but I thought I would share. I'm pretty straight forward, so if you want to know something you're welcome to ask. I have a TMI Tuesday world for that. You're also welcome to just write me a note. I'm normally easy to talk to.
Uhm...YEAH! haha, I think thats it for now.

Created By Zennyxchan

Random poem

Just random poem I wrote really.

Why should I ask for help from you
when all you do is run away?
and then why do you get upset with me
when I don’t tell you anyway...
I could keep my mouth shut and keep it shut tight...
and pretends all the worries went away...
but does that really change anything at all,
if i’m really just the same...
And you guys think you understand but you really don’t....
not to the extent anyway....
and so I say goodnight with a
click
and a
bang
and hope that my troubles go away....

EDIT: Poem I wrote because I was upset. Do not take the ending literally, I do not act upon those choices. I merely write because they make me feel better. I express my feelings quite strongly and in doing so I feel better. And the more emotional the poem, the more understand and related it is. Now see I hate guns, I hate them to pieces and I'd never get close to one ever. But putting the "click and a bang." at the end of the poem just made the poem more emotional and thats what I was getting at.

yes I am going through a hard time right now, but I believe God will open a door of opportunity for me soon. and guide me through the hard times.

Poem: dreams

I lay awake staring at my ceiling..
The star stickers that light up my room seem so appealing...
Oh how i wish i could fall a sleep
And live in an ever lasting dream.....
A dream where war doesnt exsist
A dream where all my fears are washed away
A dream where everyone i love is safe
A dream where they will never go away....
One tear escapes my closed eyes for i know this is not real.
The dream i wish to live in is way too much unbelivable
Because the world is full of hate and madness
War and of course crisis...
But at least i can lay in my bed and dream of what ive always
Wanted.....

Short poem i created while getting ready for bed.
Good night.

End