THIS IS WHERE I TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE AVERAGE IN MY LIFE. OR RANDOM THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I THINK SHOULD BE HERE. ENJOY YOUR STAY.
- Created By Tsutsumi24
Empty?
Well, guys, I haven't been drawing recently...
And I don't see any new drawings too near in the future...I'm entirely too stressed, and I'm starting to become fully emotionally drained by TWO STUPID FUCKING PEOPLE...One of them, I love and always will.
The other is such a little teenage bitch that I've taken the time to make random compilations of her name mixed with cuss words...
Rigth now, I have this uncontrollable urge to just bawl for hours...then crawl up into a ball and let myself just die slowly. Just. Rot away in a little ball on my floor.
The only joy I find as of recent is when I'm with friends or when I'm RPing using my Hetalia OC...may I just say, if Veneziano were real and he were here, I'd be with HIM instead of pining over this FUCKING FOOL! *sigh*
Anyway...sorry guys, but you'll have to be as patient as you can be and wait for new art...I'll try and do more when I'm not in such a slump...
~A~
I lied.
You know what? I'm not happy in any way. I'm so sick of even trying anymore. I try and I try, I do my best for Tyler, and then...all of a sudden, he wants to go out with a girl he doesn't even know yet. Some fucking love he shows me. It's times like these that I get upset to the point of wanting to start that stupid shit I used to do. But I can't. Nobody will let me. And it will only prove that I am no better than all the other fools in the world. But I'm so sick of getting hurt. Even when we aren't dating, yet, we are engaged! I'm so sick of everything. I don't want to deal with this shit anymore. I honestly don't feel like there is a reason why I should keep putting up with all of this. I don't understand it. I don't know what I did wrong. I do know that I don't want to put up with it anymore, though. I JUST talked to him about all of this the other day...! Is he really so blind, so deaf, that he can't see or hear the pain inside me? I am THIS close to just telling him to call off our engagement, because he obviously doesn't want me. I don't know anymore. I can't even finish typing about this. I'm crying, so I'm just...
~Arianna
Dumped off
Hey, everyone...emo trippy me is back. I got dumped by the love of my life recently, and ever since, I've been really fucked up. All emo trippy confused and pissed. I've been cutting my right wrist ever since, cause I hate living right now...my fucking theme song is probably "Never There" by Cake. It fits my ex. I'm pissed off, too, cause my friend asked out a guy I broke up with cuz it felt like incest. She asked him out acting like she was me. So now I'm dating him again, and I don't want to be, but I don't want to hurt his feelings, either. I still love my more recent ex SO MUCH. And I'm dating my ex-girlfriend again, who is dating my recent ex. So I'm really tripped out. I don't know what to do anymore. I hardly eat, I've been cutting, I cry a lot, and I wish for death a lot now. I want him back. He was my life...he was the only thing that kept me going and kept me happy. Now I'm dead. His theme song is officially "Heartbreaker" by Pat Benetar. Ya. Well...bye for now, or maybe ever.
~TsUmI~
HURTING AGAIN
*sigh* okay, so like always, Tsumi is in deep pain. She is falling for a guy who texts her a lot when she texts him first, but he keeps strutting around with this one girl who, I don't hate, but am jealous of. I can't stand to see it, to be quite honest. It hurts. Tsumi is only just now coming to terms with the fact that life is reality, and reality is life. She doesn't like that fact very much right now. It makes her go through pain. She is losing everything she loves, including pets and people. A girl recently commited suicide over break. I didn't talk to her, but I knew who she was, and the loss weighs heavily on my heart. The very next day, after this girl's viewing, one of my pets died. And I continuously forget that he will not be in his little cage when I look for him. I look into the cage, thinking he will be there, making the same annoying squeaking sound he always used to make, and then when I do look for him, he isn't there. He never will be there again. Everything is dying as of late. I don't understand why it happens anymore. And now I want to die, too. It seems so pleasant in so many ways right now...to be at peace. But don't worry. I made a promise to someone, and I intend to keep that promise to him. But until next time, farewell.
~Tsumi
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