Omg no darling, Dont! Sorry I'm late to this post but for the love of every deity don't do it. Nothing is worth killing yourself over. Life...life sucks sometimes, and sometimes it's hard. Sometimes it's like walking down a dark tunnel and yu can't see the light at the end but, I assure you there is a light at the end and there is a sky above you full of stars and wonder.
I'd be really sad to find out you had taken your own life. I know we don't talk a lot but that doesn't mean I don't enjoy our conversations. I don't always get the chance to comment but that doesn't mean I don't know what's going on or that I don't care. We haven't known each other for long, but I do care about you. You're a dear friend and I'd hate to see you go. I don't know what to say to make you feel better but if you really feel this way get help. Talk to your father, a doctor, hotline. Anything, just please don't kill yourself.
Local Demi-Fiend (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 08/15/16 | Reply
I would be really sad to hear something like that. You seems like a really awesome person, so it would really be sad if you did something like that. Just remember even if things seem bad, it'll get better. There are good days and bad days. Just remember that :)
Based on what I just read from your comment, I'm glad someone actually listens to me. Heh... Thank you. So much. I appreciate it.
Anyways, I've been talking to someone today. They aren't a fully qualified specialist, so they're going to introduce me to a new psychiatrist named Peter. I don't know what to do now... Heh. By now, the unqualified specialist person (Connor) would have called my mum. And my mum probably would have called my dad. So I think things are gonna be slightly more stressful than usual when I get home. Heh. Thank you for listening and caring about me. I'm glad someone is there that listens.
Heh... Well, I talked to someone today, so that's a start. They had to contact my mum, so I'm gonna get 'The Talk' later this afternoon. NOT. LOOKING. FORWARD. TO. IT.
Well... I don't think I'll kill myself just yet. It was just a thought...
I would be extremely sad if I learned that you had killed yourself. I care about you, and I know that there's quite a few people on theO who care about you too. So does your family! We would all miss you very much. I would also be sad to know that Glitch would not be here any more to post her stories and drawings! It's been so amazing to have you on this site, because you've brought life back to it that hasn't been brought by new members in years. I've enjoyed reading your stories and looking at your art and being able to chat with you and I'd really miss interacting with you!
I'm sorry to hear that things are so difficult for you, but please please please don't give up. Asking for help and/or needing medication does not make you a weak or stupid person. If you need help and feel like adults in your life aren't grasping the severity of the situation, the best you can do is tell them straight-up how you're feeling and stress that your life depends on the help you are asking for. From reading your previous posts, it sounds like your parents would be willing to help you, but if they don't know what's wrong, they won't be able to do anything!
I can tell that you're crying for help since you're posting about your feelings on theO, and I just want you to know that needing help does not make you weak. I understand how scary it can be to confess your feelings to people since it's not a light matter, but once you do you can begin to heal. You may still have frustrating days and nothing will ever be completely perfect, but trying is better than giving up. It's ok if medications don't work on the first try and it's ok if therapists aren't as helpful as you'd hope. It's all about finding the right fit for you, but it doesn't mean that there's something wrong with you or you're broken.
Please talk to your parents and/or other trusted adults about how you're feeling. Giving up is going to make certain that nothing ever gets better — if you try, even if things don't go perfectly, at least you're trying. There are no second chances if you commit suicide. Think about all the things you would miss out on in the future if you died! Like publishing your stories or getting that movie with your own story and characters made!
Paragon of Light (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 08/14/16 | Reply
No honey, GOD NO DON'T KILL YOURSELF! No matter how bad life may seem right now, it sure as hell ain't worth ending your life over! I too have been in your place and I know it's hard. Please take it from somebody who has been where you are right now: Life is too bloody short to let stupid shit ruin it for you. This too shall pass as my mom used to say to me. Honey, I'm here for you and I will try to help you anyway I can. But god no, please. just. don't. kill. yourself. We'd miss you here and I'm sure your family would miss you too. You'd hurt a lot of people by leaving them behind.
Hopefully this helps you. Go get help, see a dr or a therepist, somebody can help you through this. Call your local suicide hotline if the situation is really bad to talk to somebody. Honey please, listen to me, it isn't worth it, no matter how bad the struggle, life is too damn short for us to try to shorten it further.
Last edited by Judai Winchester at 10:40:02 PM EDT on August 14, 2016.
DarlingV
Otakuite++ | Posted 08/15/16 | Reply
@SmallxLady:
Ok I won't yet. I've got people to talk to now, so I should be fine. Thank you.
DarlingV
Otakuite++ | Posted 08/15/16 | Reply
@XxArrancarFanxX:
Ok thank you
envythejealous
It's "hello," sir. (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 08/15/16 | Reply
@DarlingV:
You're very welcome. I'm here for you! I hope your new therapists help. Glad to hear that your parents are trying, too.
SmallxLady
Grand Otaku | Posted 08/15/16 | Reply
Omg no darling, Dont! Sorry I'm late to this post but for the love of every deity don't do it. Nothing is worth killing yourself over. Life...life sucks sometimes, and sometimes it's hard. Sometimes it's like walking down a dark tunnel and yu can't see the light at the end but, I assure you there is a light at the end and there is a sky above you full of stars and wonder.
I'd be really sad to find out you had taken your own life. I know we don't talk a lot but that doesn't mean I don't enjoy our conversations. I don't always get the chance to comment but that doesn't mean I don't know what's going on or that I don't care. We haven't known each other for long, but I do care about you. You're a dear friend and I'd hate to see you go. I don't know what to say to make you feel better but if you really feel this way get help. Talk to your father, a doctor, hotline. Anything, just please don't kill yourself.
XxArrancarFanxX
Local Demi-Fiend (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 08/15/16 | Reply
I would be really sad to hear something like that. You seems like a really awesome person, so it would really be sad if you did something like that. Just remember even if things seem bad, it'll get better. There are good days and bad days. Just remember that :)
DarlingV
Otakuite++ | Posted 08/15/16 | Reply
@Rainbow Dragon:
No you didn't say anything wrong! Thanks for your concern.
Rainbow Dragon
Paragon of Light (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 08/14/16 | Reply
@DarlingV:
Ok that's good...at least you talked to somebody. Look I was only trying to help. I'm sorry if I said the wrong things. That wasn't my intention.
DarlingV
Otakuite++ | Posted 08/14/16 | Reply
@envythejealous:
Based on what I just read from your comment, I'm glad someone actually listens to me. Heh... Thank you. So much. I appreciate it.
Anyways, I've been talking to someone today. They aren't a fully qualified specialist, so they're going to introduce me to a new psychiatrist named Peter. I don't know what to do now... Heh. By now, the unqualified specialist person (Connor) would have called my mum. And my mum probably would have called my dad. So I think things are gonna be slightly more stressful than usual when I get home. Heh. Thank you for listening and caring about me. I'm glad someone is there that listens.
DarlingV
Otakuite++ | Posted 08/14/16 | Reply
@Rainbow Dragon:
Heh... Well, I talked to someone today, so that's a start. They had to contact my mum, so I'm gonna get 'The Talk' later this afternoon. NOT. LOOKING. FORWARD. TO. IT.
Well... I don't think I'll kill myself just yet. It was just a thought...
envythejealous
It's "hello," sir. (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 08/14/16 | Reply
I would be extremely sad if I learned that you had killed yourself. I care about you, and I know that there's quite a few people on theO who care about you too. So does your family! We would all miss you very much. I would also be sad to know that Glitch would not be here any more to post her stories and drawings! It's been so amazing to have you on this site, because you've brought life back to it that hasn't been brought by new members in years. I've enjoyed reading your stories and looking at your art and being able to chat with you and I'd really miss interacting with you!
I'm sorry to hear that things are so difficult for you, but please please please don't give up. Asking for help and/or needing medication does not make you a weak or stupid person. If you need help and feel like adults in your life aren't grasping the severity of the situation, the best you can do is tell them straight-up how you're feeling and stress that your life depends on the help you are asking for. From reading your previous posts, it sounds like your parents would be willing to help you, but if they don't know what's wrong, they won't be able to do anything!
I can tell that you're crying for help since you're posting about your feelings on theO, and I just want you to know that needing help does not make you weak. I understand how scary it can be to confess your feelings to people since it's not a light matter, but once you do you can begin to heal. You may still have frustrating days and nothing will ever be completely perfect, but trying is better than giving up. It's ok if medications don't work on the first try and it's ok if therapists aren't as helpful as you'd hope. It's all about finding the right fit for you, but it doesn't mean that there's something wrong with you or you're broken.
Please talk to your parents and/or other trusted adults about how you're feeling. Giving up is going to make certain that nothing ever gets better — if you try, even if things don't go perfectly, at least you're trying. There are no second chances if you commit suicide. Think about all the things you would miss out on in the future if you died! Like publishing your stories or getting that movie with your own story and characters made!
Rainbow Dragon
Paragon of Light (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 08/14/16 | Reply
No honey, GOD NO DON'T KILL YOURSELF! No matter how bad life may seem right now, it sure as hell ain't worth ending your life over! I too have been in your place and I know it's hard. Please take it from somebody who has been where you are right now: Life is too bloody short to let stupid shit ruin it for you. This too shall pass as my mom used to say to me. Honey, I'm here for you and I will try to help you anyway I can. But god no, please. just. don't. kill. yourself. We'd miss you here and I'm sure your family would miss you too. You'd hurt a lot of people by leaving them behind.
Hopefully this helps you. Go get help, see a dr or a therepist, somebody can help you through this. Call your local suicide hotline if the situation is really bad to talk to somebody. Honey please, listen to me, it isn't worth it, no matter how bad the struggle, life is too damn short for us to try to shorten it further.
Last edited by Judai Winchester at 10:40:02 PM EDT on August 14, 2016.