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Dreams...
Dreams is that wonderful feeling when you know you're doing something right.
It's when the harshness of reality begins to quiet and your heart sings.
It's that look when you see yourself in the mirror and smile, knowing who you really are.
Dreams is the one thing that drives me, soothes me and keeps me alive.
It's the world I live in, the world of dreams... This wonderful, wonderful world.
This fulfilling world...
This world that is in my heart and thankful soul.

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Howdy Howdy!

Good god it’s been a long time since I was last active here. How is everyone doing? Is everyone okay? :0

What the hell was I up too you say? Well I just met up with an old friend of mine name Joe. He’s awesome and it’s like we never skipped a beat! He’s also into business so he going to help me out with mine. He said I should wait a bit till I’m a bit establish to open the shop up and everything and should focus on networking and such. He also said I should wait to give my charms for free as prizes too, which is a bit disappointing since I really liked the idea and wanted to keep my promise. He said that early businesses go through a lot of changes so I shouldn’t be so hard on myself. Soooo I the shop will still be closed. It doesn’t matter much I don’t have the money to support it the way I want too anyway. So I guess I will just focus on more light hearted things like
my TMM stuffs and just having fun here and DA.

I’m sorry that I just stopped commenting and the like for about three weeks, I just was having fun catching up with him. He’s so fun and he is good at cheering me up when things are down! I wuv him :3

I didn’t post in any of my worlds for weeks and I’m sorry for that too. I’m going to post in it and make it come back alive again! Oh yeah and if anyone notice I just made a shugo chara fan club. I notice that I really didn’t see any so I decide to make my own if anyone want to join and post anything shugo chara related there go PM me. I still have to make a banner and stuff. So yeah….

Oh yeah, I made thrid place in "make me a male mew contest". GO ME, and congratz to everyone who won. :D

I’m backz yo.

For realz. :3

A happy post!

Hey party people it’s another yours truly update!

To first start off I’m in the new school quarter with only two classes a week. I love the new schedule; I have all the time I need to do everything I want. I also found about my grades and I passed all of them! Including the one with the really shitty teacher. I got a B in her class. So all is well in school.

Oh yeah, I’m going to have to take an extra class next quarter because if I don’t I have to pay for the one class “cap stone” out of pocket. So yeah another two day classes next quarter too. So I have to figure out which class I’m going to take over. I’m thinking about taking web design again. I really want to get into it again; it’s really fun to do. Then I’m thinking maybe flash or after effects. I never really got into flash as much as I wanted to last time and I want to learn how to animate as well.

Hmm, decisions decisions.

While I’m in the home run of my college I’ve been thinking about what I’m going to do after ITT Tech. I’ve decided to go to an art college (wow surprising). But I want to go learn the fine arts/studio arts. I really want to learn painting, watercolor, sculpture and etc. But not only that but I want to be around other artist too. What I really like about ITT is that it’s small and family like so you know a lot of the people that go to school with you. They have all kinds of personalities and interests so it’s a breath of fresh air every week. I want that in art school too. I love being at home doing my own thing but able to be around other people like now is so awesome. I never was happy in school till ITT. Its really awesome to say that :3.

So now I’m on the hunt for an art school that’s right for me. I want to learn more formal stuff but want to be able to do my graphic arts too for good measure. If I can find a school that I can chose what classes I want to take that would be awesome. There are a few open houses of art schools around my area so I’m going to make a portfolio and go to them and see what happens. I just sketched the living room area where the TV is to get a feel for perspective and stuff. I can’t wait to see what’s in store!

On other note, my sisters lip gloss business is doing good! She and my mom went in a few salons yesterday to sell some and did well. She had enough to get really nice bag for her projects. Even a salon owner wants a meeting with her this week since she wants to do make up in her store too! My logo design has caught some attention too! People really like it and that’s great. That can open the door for some free lance jobs in the future. My sister said I should make some business cards for my designs so she can hand them out as well as her own. Sounds like a plan to me!

I have been working on the mew tutorial again on and off. I’m on the part of making personalities and it can be a pain in the ass. But I’ll get through it with grace… Again :. Continuing on the same topic I did another comic page for TMM sweets collection. I have yet to ink in any of the new ones though. I will soon I know I will. I hope! XP

I hope everyone is doing just as good! That’s all for now!

Thanks for all the comments, hugs and favorites. ALWAYS appreciated. :3

Earringz and la arts >:D

Warning this is more light hearted and happy post and probably won't exceed a page.

I making some Victorian/steam punk earrings! This is the first time making earrings or anykind of jewerly and I love it! I started on the first earring of the pair two days ago. It was crash course on making earrings it took 2-3 hours to complete most of the time with spend trying to tie a bow. It was a pain in the ass because the tutorials were lacking some details but I made it through and now I can make them on the fly.

I'm now making the second one and its much easier and quicker to do. I'm just waiting for the fraying liquid (it makes the unraveling of the fiber stop and harden) to dry so I can make a bow out of that one too. After that I'm done! I'm so happy and proud of myself! I've skecthed a lot of ideas of jewerly and can't wait to try them all. The next big project I want to tackle is a brooch, braclet, and a pearl chocker. I have the house camera too so I will take picture of all my creations and post them up! I really excited about this and with my new schedule coming up I'll have more time to do stuff.

I also posted some new pictures over the last two days so check them out and give them some of that TheO love. I'm going to draw more today so watch out for more art!

LIFE.. Its a diamond in the dodo (yes that dodo)

Warning this is three pages long but with a good morel :D

Howdy and hello! Its Yours Truly here with her not so daily updates!

How’s everyone doing? Good I hope. Me? It’s been a bit of those rollercoaster periods of my life mostly emotionally but I’m back on track again ready to get things started! I’ll go through it all.

In the last few weeks I’ve been debating the whole charm thing. Mostly of it going up in smoke like it will never work kind of thing, especially the fact that a lot of people make them much better then I do. I tried to make a cake with the frosting and it looks okay but messy at the most but not like I was Edward scissor hands haha.

I thought to myself “this looks like crap, but I know I’m learning so don’t be so hard.. But I want it to be right now. How do those people make there’s so good looking? I know no one starts perfect EVER but I want this to work NOW. I want to be good NOW. So I can sale these NOW and make money NOW so I can be can live out my dreams NOW, even though people say that its journey of getting there but I say fuck that. I want it NOW, NOW, NOW. Get were I’m going here?

It’s so hard being concerned with being the best now because you only get stressed out and that’s more then a pain in the ass. Life itself give me enough grief, I don’t need my hobbies that’s suppose to be fun giving me stress too.

So that was the seed of it. Fun times

I think I mentioned that my older sister was starting her business. I didn’t say any details about it since she wasn’t really telling anybody about and it was in the works. Now it’s doing well, she makes her own lip glosses. All natural, and in pretty colors. I and she made the very first ones and they came out great. The thing I really want to point out is that the ingredients that the retail lip glosses have are bad for you and sink into your lips/body. My sister doesn’t have that. Its like home made bread from scratch vs. bread from a big company that puts all kinds of shit in it that you can’t even pronounce. Anyway getting to the point my sister’s is doing good and my mom sells the glosses at her job to her co workers.

This made me think “what the hell am I’m going to do sell this stuff besides the internet? Is my stuff going to be a hit too? I don’t have all the skills of those really go ones or the equipment? “. But I reminded myself that this was my learning period. I’m using this time to learn more about business so don’t freak, you’re not in the starting line yet. I just can’t help myself some times but to worry. If I don’t think about it now I will in the future, etc, etc, emo, emo.. I try to not get myself into this twisted mind set, but I’ve been a glutton of punishment these days and forget to stop worrying about things that don’t even effect me yet and enjoy myself.

Then my mom had gotten her income tax and my sister brought more things for her lip glosses. My mom wanted to help me too of course and even asked me about using the money for hosting a real website for my store. I and my older sister talked about it a few times but nothing official. At that moment I knew I wasn’t ready for that, I haven’t even sold one charm yet and If I were to get a real website I want to know that my charms can sell. My mom told me if there was anything I needed to help launch my business she would give me the money. But actually I didn’t really know what I really wanted at that point. If anything I wanted a new game for my poor DS. I explained this in an earlier post, which I only had one game on the DS since I got it which was years aka eras ago. Not to mention my PS2 died when I was really depressed and angry, I needed something to do something positive and completely fantasy. I told my mom and she understood completely and gave me here debit card to get a game for myself and her. That’s when I got “the world ends with you” and “big bang mini”. I love both games and it was something I needed to help relive the stress, anger, and depression.

Even though I didn’t feel as bad about the whole charm business I still didn’t know what to do. Then my said that she would give me 100$ for my disposal. Weeks went by and just looking at the charms on the internet I just wasn’t feeling it. I damn there didn’t want to deal with it anymore. I didn’t want to feel this way either. I wanted to feel inspired and make charms but the mojo was gone. So then I just gave it a rest just in case it was like an artist block or something.

During all this I’m always searching tutorials on charms or anything I can make on my own with low cost materials, on the internet, books, whatever I’m there. The ones I’m most excited about was a magnet book marks and hair bows and accessories. During one of my trips I got a really good beginners sewing book for ten bucks. I want to learn sewing so this was perfect for me.

Then I was on the computer thinking about all this and decided to look in my business journal to read what I wrote down why I wanted to start charm business. Long story short I just want to do something made me happy. Something that live off of one day without working at a crappy job or struggling to pay the bills. Really gave me some insight of the deeper meaning of the whole thing, but I was still wondering if this charm business was the why to go. If the mojo was really gone for good? Should I try something else completely? I STILL have the 100$ but if I was going to spend it, it was something my heart was into.

Then I start looking at other kinds of homemade crafts and jewelry. Things like ribbon chocker’s and lace arm cuffs. Also simple things I can sew together like arm warmers, hats, ties. More branching out of just charms but other things that I can just as easily make and sell. So then I start making a list of things I need to make everything I wanted. I was making progress but I still wasn’t at 100% percent like I wanted.

Then about a week or two ago just I looking at more crafts and jewelry the one simple thought came to my mind.

“Why don’t I just draw designs of my own jewelry?”

Now the killer in this statement that I did sketch out some charms (less then five at different times) like last year but never sat down and draw/planed out a design. I’ve probably said to myself I want to do a cake or food item and picked some colors that I liked and tried to make one. But when it came to more jewelry and accessories I never designed any. I would see something I like and say to myself “damn that’s cool I want to make that!” and then think of what kind of things I would need to make it and/or worry about if I was able too. Instead of simply just designing something of my own style and how I would make it rather then how SHE did it and being wrapped up on her end. All the negative stuff, the things I can’t control.

I was so into the NOW thing that I didn’t seem to get this concept. WHY? I don’t know… I guess that being human in this world. So caught up with things that you can’t control or NOW that you can’t see the simple things that can get you THERE.

Now here comes the quote of the day. This was said by a brilliant women.. my older sis.

“Sip a Nantucket and just say fuck it” XD

Or in other words… Just chill, don’t stress, go and relax, do something that you can easily unwind you. It might save you many brain cells that you can use to process relaxing better and gain the insight that you need. And to never give up and the rest of that crap we’ve been hearing since forever. It’s the road getting down there that you have to learn to avoid.

To wrap this up, when I did went upstairs and draw out designs a freak’n ass load of ideas came to me. I almost couldn’t keep up. Cool, simple, awesome, designs. Finally, I was blessed by the craft and art gods. They must love me because I’ll been getting spikes of inspiration like this sometimes then fall from cloud nine then to do it over again some time later

Anyway...

I took the money and got a lot of stuff that I needed on sale including a book on jewelry making for kids and teens. I finally had a chance to work with the camera and can take real pictures of my charms. I feel renewed and hopeful again. I hope this feeling stays this time. Forever. I can really start over.

I’m done. Just one part of my life that’s been in the works.

School killed me this week. A Final project and a final exam one coming up next Friday. I have three days off so major yay.

I hope you enjoy yet another life speech on how it’s like to live though life lessons thrown under you.

God damn I hope this is my last life time… :|

Good night and all a good life.

PS2 DEAD,new DS games, V-day,

Holly ho!

How’s everyone doing! I hope everything has been good!

Well, here’s another post on the wonderful Valentines day! This has to be my second favorite holiday (after Halloween of course!). I love everything about it! The colors, meaning, those cute ass cupids, and finally chocolates! I mean it’s the celebration of love what’s not to like? Everyone loves love! I sure do! :3 BUT the biggest beef I got for the holiday is not the holiday itself but those stink’n people that’s all “I hate V-day, Love is for suckers, I have no one!, that’s what she said” bitch bitch nag nag. DUDE, SHUT UP PLEASE! No one cares if you hate V-day or your so f-ing emo < (the bad kind too) about it. There’s nothing to get bend out of shape about. You don’t have to have a partner to have a good V-day, or one at all! I never had a partner and LOVE it!

It’s Celebration of love, not your perspective of how undesirable you think you are. Tell your parents that you love them, call your friends and say “Hey! I dig this friendship, let’s keep it going” something that makes your heart 3x as big. Just feel the love, its all around! More then you think.

But I will say this! If you’re that caught up on the negative aspects (which V-day does not celebrate) of it then shit, you deserve to but sad. Grab that gallon of ice cream and eat your way to happiness! I’m sure THAT works every time :p

Anyway, I’m sad to say that my PS2 had died a few weeks ago. I knew it was kicking the can so when the start up screen didn’t come up, I knew my baby had passed. Oh, she treated me well for 7-8 years. So many memories. R.I.P baby

But on the bright side I got two new shiny DS games! I was dying for some new games for years. Not to mention I only had one DS game since I got the DS years ago :. I wanted something that will have me playing for weeks and not get boring yet something that didn’t have a deep learning curve or retardedly hard. So I got “The world ends with you” and “Big Bang mini”. I love both games and if you’re a cheap ass like me and want a REALLY fun game Big Bang Mini is for you! Only 20 bucks and brand new! You shoot fire works at wacky enemies and there’s loads of eye candy to look at. But at the same time its not super easy and it gets challenging. Buy it for your loved one (or yourself). :3

Oh and the world ends with you is great but WAY TOO MUCH Talking. My god, shiki talk so much and she got that generic thing with her. Pink hair (whatever color), want’s to help everybody, want’s Neku to” open up” all the time (for a good reason but still), somewhat stupid but knows how to fight, well I might add (I love her moves) YET “spoiler alert! When Neku tries to kill her she doesn’t find back just “oh don’t kill me, I’m so fucking helpless even though I can kick your ass right now. And after it, shes all like “Aww, its okay! Shit happens Desu!... What? o_o0… , . I was thinking they was going to avoid that cliché all together. I don’t “hate” her but expected much more. But I love Neku even though he has that “I hate people, no one understands me, I trust no one, I use too much gel in my angular hair.” Cliché, but I like that kind of thing from boy… Its sexy, then it reminds me of myself a bit D:. Now I want to draw him, dammit too much stuff I want to draw >_<0.

Other then that I love the game so far. The fighting is awesome once you get the hang of it. But you have to save constantly because you get your ass kicked so much and start where you last saved, no questions asked, and you will have to go through the entire dialog AGAIN which can get frustrating. Oh yeah, one last thing! When you scan and Neku said “open your senses” or whatever I laughed so hard and did every time he said something scanning people. XD

I’m a mess…

Okay, that’s it for today. This post is long enough! XD Thank you for all the hugs, favorites and postings on Café Mew Mew! Have a Great V-day and weekend while I’m at school!

(hopefully nobody died off the mass typos and gammer errors in reading of this post)