Yo Santa!
Okay besides the requests I have down there the things I love in general is the following: pink, ruffles, sweets, girl clothes, furries, pastel colors, hearts, stars, crystals, shiny stuff, boys love/yaoi (cough), angels, fairy tales and things that are related to it. I also like dark things as well especially if it has a touch of cute to it. If anything look at my gallery and you'll pretty much see what I like haha!
If you don't like super girly stuff or my requests you can change things around to suit your tastes or just draw whatever your comfortable with. Okay now on for the requests.
I love Amu and Ikuto Tsukiyomi from shugo chara and their character changes.
A picture of my heart shugo chara with a lot of ribbons and hearts in the picture. Make her adorably chibi and cute.
A picture of my heart break mode fursona, but don't make the eyes so scary looking. XD I hate the way they look now. Make them more sad and blank. She has a giant paint brush too that she likes to paint with, add that in the picture if you can.
My mascot for my Crafts blog The Candy Sanctuary.
A sweets fairy that has butterfly wings.
My fan Mews especially mew torte, I love maid outfits as well as their mew costumes. You don't have to draw them all by the way, do as many as you want. (I would like to see them all though )
Sailor Mini moon with/without Helios/Pegasus. Something dreamy and really cute.
Kotetsu and Barnaby from tiger and bunny.
I love MLP, I have yet to make a fan pony but if you want please make one sweets themed or anything related to the words up top.
I also love rarity (my favorite pony) from MLP but I love the other's as well!
Okay that's it. I hope you love girly stuff as much as I do and you find my requests fun to do. Sorry for the poor soul that hates this kind of stuff. XD
Thank you Santa!
Hey everyone
Wow its been a over a month or 2 since my last journal post not to mention a real life one. Well, since then a lot of stuff happened so this will be a extra bulky post for those who love reading my misadventures. XD
Honestly life have been very up and down for me, I can't even begin haha. My confidence have been like a roller coaster since every time I seem to go out the box and put myself out there SOMEONE has to be ragey. The first time was my mom when she saw the videos I made for my angel readings. Despite the fact I was saying some great positive stuff that I thoroughly enjoyed, my mom totally came at me tipsy and ruined my perfect day about it.
Me and Brandon was playing Eternal Sonata (an rpg) and my mom told me she had something important to tell me. I was right in the middle of a boss battle so I told her to hold on and my mom sat on the bed with us waiting for me to get off the game. I thought someone close in the family died or something because she never does that so I was really on edge. So when I got up and go to my mom's room all she wanted to talk about was the videos, I was super pissed. She didn't like the fact that people can see into the house, which I understood and told her I would delete the videos. Granted the backdrop of the videos is nothing spectacular in anyway nor is there any sensitive material or clues where people can see and find out where I live and kill the family. D:< Because that's all my mom sees and hears from the tiny bit of video that my sister showed her. (my sister had nothing to do with my mom being upset about it btw)
Like I said before my mom was tipsy and I HATE being around my mom when she's like that so I told her I would delete the videos and I try to leave out the room. Then my sister and mom was having a bitch fit over me "not listening" and whatever. I totally heard my mom and her concerns, I wanted to end this conversation before I totally go off on my mom for the nth time. I have so much backed up resentment for my mom that it can kill an African elephant. I'm so very close to snapping/having a meltdown/call the fucking cops because I'm going to coke out my mother and burn down the house mode and my mom doesn't even realize it. The crap she put me through when she's drinking, being a complete dick and douche bag makes me want to live on the street just to get away from her, or do something extreme and spiteful so she can "see what the hell her drinking is causing".
Its mind boggling when I explain to her "I can't talk to you when your drunk" and she says "why?". I tell her why, more then likely yelling and cussing because I'm so fed up and she just doesn't get it. Its like I'm talking to a fucking wall which is the most frustrating thing to me in the world. I can't explain how infuriating it is for me to try to not freak out when she's up on me "talking" to me *read yelling or really loud talking*, then wants to know why I can't talk to her. Or I get really bitchy at her.
If I did "have a melt down" and hurt someone, either me, my mom, or just decide to say "fuck it all" and go ape shit in the house, and get thrown in jail, I would be in the wrong. For being so fucking patient (as much as I can since my fuse ran short with her) not trying to get in any arguments, not trying to have a yelling match, not calling her a bitch and whatever else I feel in the moment (which is totally out of my character you really have to piss me off to see that). But only in that moment I decide not to hold back and totally fuck up HER DAY man, I would love to see the line of events that would go down.
Life just gotten so (even more so) frustrating, that night I had to leave the house just to get away from her yelling and prevent myself form totally losing it. Never in a thousand years would I think my own mom (hell the whole family) would drive me border line crazy. Sometimes I feel trapped inside the house like I will never see anything different but the same bs that goes on. Still striving for better, still trying to find a way to move out without going to an insane asylum for it.
I try to be as positive as I can but its been hard or it doesn't stay around long enough. Or once it does some drama totally comes in and destroys it. Probably why I've been lacking in journals and art. My life is too chaotic even when things are calm. I'm thinking of a thousand things, worried about this or that. Even my sleep have suffered so I get no real vacation from it all besides movies and videos. Then its back to "real life".
If creativity wasn't as important as the blood in my veins I would get a job at (insert company) and just work my life away. At least that's how I be feeling these days. I have to work just to get the drive and passion to move forward, like there is something better out there. I say it so much to myself, be positive, that new house/apartment/life is coming but god damn I see the same mugs everyday and the same old shit that I now have hatred for.
Gosh I don't know why I decided to highlight all my short comings in this journal (one of many really). But I guess that's life for me right now. More shit to scoop then a hundred farms.
I was really debating not posting this because I sound really psychotic and simply a person that needs serious help. :| But I figure what the hell? Let me do something different, let me show a side I haven't shown in some time. Some raw feelings that maybe a lot of you out there are feeling right now like me. We all are not crazy for wanting better or wanting to leave the old behind but it gets hard when that light at the end of the tunnel never comes. I want to give up a lot along the way but I always find myself half assed back on track and starting again. There is nothing wrong with feeling bad about life sometimes, we are all human. The problem is "staying" in the negative space and not finding that bit of happiness. Those bits is what keeps me going, that little voice that says "keep going" or "it will get better" despite everything that's been happening. So take it from me, if you feel like going crazy because everything around you is just not supporting your personal growth, I feel you A LOT. :| Its sucks but its worth everything you got if you have a clear view of the future YOU want to have for yourself.
Next time hopefully things turn around for the better and I will have the good out weighing the bad. Thanks for reading guys, take care. :)
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Hey guys! I hope you guys are doing okay.
Its funny, last Sunday I wrote a post that was just full of ranting about how much my life and family blows. Obviously I had a lot of anger so I just decided to not post it and just write out all my emotions. I planned on doing a more positive post since I got the bad stuff out the way but I never did till now haha.
I just came from Brandon's house, I was over there all weekend. I loved my time there since I haven't been over his house in a while. The only thing about my vacation is that "Angry Ovary day" (my personal word for that time of the month XD) decided to strike. Its funny because I had a dream about it the night before and I already packed my survival kit so I was fine. Brandon is so sweet and got everything that I wanted for me, chinese food, medicine, and bowls and bowls of cookies and cream ice cream. Oh my god, I was craving sweets ALL THAT DAY, I took out 3 bowls of ice cream and it was so damn satisfying. I wanted to go to Cold Stone for ice cream but I didn't have it in me so I just devoured theirs that they wasn't eating anyway. XD
I also took over his cable for 80% of the weekend to watch all my food and reality shows (since I don't have cable myself). While in the last 20% I watch him play Call of Duty: Black Ops online which was hysterical at times. The whole weekend is something that I truly needed since that Thursday I was extremely angry at my mom because she was playing her god awful music too loud. Which lead me to tell her that next day that I wanted to move to Canada to live in my own space. She was fine with it but wanted me to be safe and all that.
So yeah I'll probably go when my brother leaves to go back. Which means I have about a year to save up to go or something because I'm not sure how its going to work haha. I'm just glad I told my mom, I swore between the drama between my parents, my mom drinking, being ass hole half the time, and 1000 of other things I just want to run out of here.
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that my parents made up so now my dad is living with us again and not acting like a tard anymore. My brother is still living with his friend but he may come back at some point. So yeah, things are back to normal and my family are not stressed like hell so I'm happy about that. And for taking good care of the house cat during the BS my dad is going to get me a puppy! I'm pretty excited about that and I really really want a Doberman Pincer! I fell in love with the one my dad's old landlord had. He was so sweet, strong and protective that I really wanted one myself! It was also a big dog something that I really adored about the breed! So yeah I'm hoping we find a Doberman Pincer puppy that I can have and take care of.
On the art end, I'm starting to draw again, mostly on the computer. I'm getting my major picture done while working and sketching others. I think that not being stuck on working on one picture really helped me love sketching and having fun again. Now that I'm not bonding myself to one picture, I can expand and try all kinds of things without pressuring myself. Even though I love showing my works online, it can really take the meaning of fun away since I'm concerned on the way it looks and such.
last thing before I go is that my readings is getting more attention and a bigger audience, which I'm excited about. I also just got an order from Brandon's friend which I was really happy about! It's my first order since July I think? I done a lot of free raffles and livestreams so my name is spreading and getting known! I really want this to be huge and each day I know its getting bigger! :) I can't sweat the small stuff and got focus on the bigger picture.
Okay, guys I just gave you the low down on my life. Hopefully I'll post something for you guys soon. Thanks for reading and all the support I've been getting, I love you all! Bye!
Yeah as the title suggests A LOT has happened since the last post about my life. I did a post about it all but its so me being half ass angry/depressed and I just didn't want to post that up there. I like to post the positive things that are happening in my life so I want to keep that trend going. :)
I will say that my dad and brother is no longer living with us because of the crazy line of events. It started when me and my sister confronted my dad because my dad was acting retarded for a good month and it effects the whole house. So we had a bad falling out that really upset me. Then a few days later my mom totally freaked out on my brother because he wouldn't' give her my dads number since he left since the falling out. Now my mom is totally broken while me and my sister are just "hanging in there".
Honestly despite everything that happened I'm pretty excited for my future yet again where before I was completely depressed and was stuck in a deep rut. But that is what happens when you live with toxic people, it effects you whether you know it or not. But since its only us three here I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER. I can focus on the important things in my life and best of all WALK IN MY UNDERWEAR AROUND THE HOUSE.
So yeah things indeed have changed dramatically but I'm seeing the good in it all. I'm planning to get my drivers license and eventually make my way out of this damn house. I'm so sick of the drama and bull shit.
So yeah that's why I just disappeared, I just did my 25 hour stalking of people. Too depressed, lazy, stressed, and super lazy to do much more then hug and fav things. I even haven't touched my drawing table in about a month because I was just too stressed. Things are better now even though a lot of things are still uncertain :)
During all this I made some really cute wallpapers free for everyone on my Candy Sanctuary blog. I wasn't sure if I wanted to post them here since its not anime at all so I just stuck them on my blog. I also did a lot of raffles for my angel readings that went well. I also did a live stream of them on Saturday, that was tons of fun, when the video becomes available I'll show you guys! :D Oh and more great news, me another card reader are currently doing a raffle together that I'm really excited about.
I'm hoping my business picks up so I can MAKE THAT CASH, but I know that things are going to turn out fine. I just have to go with the flow. :) Oh I also made some adoptables too, its really fun so I want to experiment with it more. I'll post them for you guys soon! :D
I think that's it. A lot of things are negative so I can't really full the post up with 100% positive things but the event itself is a change that will positively effect my life! So it all works out! :)
Thanks for reading guys take care!
