Hey and hello! Welcome back. I got a lot of important and awesome things to talk about! This journal post was way overdue but I’m going to list some of the things that happened to me as of late.
I went to the family doctor about getting a referral to a neurologist for weird sensations and chest pains. WELL, he concluded that it probably won’t help and I should talk to a physiologist because of my stresses at work and anxiety. WTF… And to think I was going to get real help… I’m out of work so I’m not stressed like I was and I’m sick of everyone thinking I got some kind of anxiety problem. I don’t have that on a daily bases only when I’m freaked out about my health and not knowing what’s going on. Anyway they said that I was going to be called back to get a heart test but I never heard form them, they also took my blood that same day. It wasn’t that bad but I was sweating bullets the whole time haha!
I got FF13 three weeks ago and I love it! It’s a little slow in the beginning but as the story progress it gets really deep!
I saw my friend (the one that had a crush on me but I didn’t feel the same) about a week ago. I was so happy, so happy in fact that my face hurt by the time he left because I was smiling so damn much! We talked, played video games, and found out that he got fired because he was late a lot. BUT it wasn’t his fault it, was the bus system. The bus would be late or wouldn’t show up at all and that what caused him to be late. I told him how stressful my work was and how I quit and get this. That same day my BF called me and told me that he just got the axe at his job ( the same job I was in)! Oh, and my sister got the axe about three weeks ago (her job screwed her over a lot anyway) I can’t help but feel that even though we all got fired or quit, there is something much better coming our way.
I got my state ID last week! It was a pain in the ass because I had to wait 2 hours just to take the picture and stuff. I wanted to be at the Penndot (what the place is called) when it opened because it’s always crowded but I stayed up the night before. I woke up an hour later then I wanted to but I still manage to get my lazy but up and go. I went there before to try to get the ID but I needed more mail to show my address. SO AWESOME. >:C
The point of getting the ID was so I can get a bank account to link to my paypal. Once I get that done with other little things I should be ready to sell my trinkets! On a crafter’s update, I made more cakes! A coffee and another strawberry one. I really like the strawberry one; I think its one of my favorites so far. I also made donuts with molds and completely hand made ones. I tested out using different ways to give them that toasted look. It all came out well. I just wish it was sunny so I can take really good pictures of them.
I found my muse again in my art. I know I have been trying hard to practice and get better but I found that I’m not as into my drawings as I use to be. Or wanting to color them because I just don’t feel like it. I just didn’t have that kind of connection to make me what to color it. But I found out (again) that when I channel my feelings in my work and draw out myself and how I feel I get that “connection” again and the drive to color it. It’s like I can see all the possibilities in it that I didn’t see before and it makes me to draw more and more. I also learned that I shouldn’t push myself to draw an overly different or difficult post when I do my real drawing sessions at night. It can really take a lot out of me and I should just practice those kinds of things in my smaller note book in the morning.
I’ve been getting into traditional coloring again! I’ve finally tested out my copics on a recent picture I drew (haven’t posted yet) and it’s not half bad. It’s a real learning curve with copics though, since I never use to color with them. I can see myself using them though, I love it. I think I’ll try more flat colors on the next picture. I’ve started coloring my cup cake lady picture with colored pencils. It’s a pain how long it takes but I love the finished product of my coloring. Its been a while since I colored traditionally so getting back into it like I am now makes me feel really good. On that note, I have tons of work doodles and pictures I need to submit!
I think I’ll do another journal later in the week since I have tons of stuff to talk about.
Till then!
Please help!
Okay, so everyone knows that my dream for recent years was to make cute
things and sell them online. I’ve been very diligent on that goal and I’m very close to it! I’ve gotten my state ID and will be able to get a bank account for my paypal soon. The most I need now is know shipping costs internationally and packaging. All the other little things I’ve pretty much figured out too but there is one major problem that I’ve been having. It’s been totally eating away at me for a few weeks now…
MY BRAND! D:
I know that about last year I made a few graphics for my brand but I really want a new look. But for some reason I just can’t think of a great image/style for my band “The Candy Sanctuary”. Now, I’ve notice another thing over the pass few months. There are a lot of other people doing the same kind of thing I’m doing (and probably way before me). But when I look at their graphics and the overall brand. It all looks similar to each other.
When I just started out the clay thing (over a year ago) and stuff there were a lot of people that was simply inspiring! I love looking at their products and things, but seeing at what I’m doing I’m really trying to set myself apart from the “popular cute look” they seem to have. Before I took such a notice of this I would think that two or three of these people were all the same person haha!
Even though this proved to be a problem I found it a really helpful way to define myself and my brand, but need help with it… YOUR HELP! (points at you) I want some feedback on what kinds of things that you may like to see or tell me what your sick of seeing or just anything that you think will help.
The look I wantt is cute, pink, cutting edge, café, and sweets inspired (mostly anyway) but I don’t to throw out what’s already been done. I’ve been thinking of maybe a rave inspired style or take the cute idea into something different IDK. Here are the people I’m talking about. They all are great and I love the products they make as well but take notice the similar look.
http://a-little-kitty.deviantart.com/
http://mooglegurl.deviantart.com/
http://queenofdorks.deviantart.com/
http://kickass-peanut.deviantart.com/
http://oborochann.deviantart.com/gallery/
Here are my favorite people. I love the “different” look of their works and I just want to combine the essences of their awesomeness and make it my own. XD
http://acrylicana.deviantart.com/
http://anatego.deviantart.com/
http://bara-chan.deviantart.com/
http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=31463231
Now I just want your opinions. I know that my crafts have been favorable where I posted them and I want to see how far I can take this with my future shop. I feel totally awesome making my little cakes and its very stress reliving!
I have tons of idea of what I can do with my brand but I want to hear from you all first. Plus I didn’t want this post to get too long. XD
Thanks for reading and provide feedback if you can!
Thanks for returning to my page of nonsense and blabberly!
I got my PS3 yesterday! I was like “ZOMGSTUFGTFO!!!!”
I stated freaking out when I plugged everything up and it wouldn’t show on the T.V. I was so freak’n heated but my friend Google was on my side as always and I searched on the subject. All I had to do was default it to the factory settings since the PS3 was defaulted on HD rather then poor people TV settings. |D
Thank ya Google!
Besides that, I’ve been waiting over three weeks for my decoden books so I contacted the seller and told her the situation. She was pretty awesome about and is going to send me a replacement package! I was so worried because I thought I would get my head bitten off or something. D:>
We both contacted our post offices and as far as my end they didn’t get any packages for me so I’m assuming it got lost in the mail. HOW AWESOME. YOU ROCK POSTAL SERVICE. >:C But I’m still going to get my books and this time it has a tracking number so I can check up on my babies as they make they way to their new home! I’m so excited I can’t wait so start making cute things again! I’ve been resting since my chest pains thing plus my room is so god damn dirty and messy therefore I haven’t made anything since quitting work. But Every now and then I would check the books on the esty site to see the inside pictures. ME WANTS THEM IN MY HANDS!
Speaking of dirty rooms too. I’m sooo sick on mines. It’s been years since I rearrange anything and it just full of junk and trash. A lot of things I can simple dump because I don’t use or out grown it. I meant to do when I entered college but nothing happened so I had to deal with it then as well. The junk and trash is not the only problem but the size of my room, its really tiny with a horrible closet that only house 5 or so shirts. The hanging rack thing is busted and ready to fall off making that closet a POS (piece of shit). The rest of the room of the closet is used for old school books and random shit. Its just crazy, my room was fine 5 years ago when I only drew and stuff. Well, those times are clearly over and I need a more room for my clays and crafts. And just room to work with them. I really try to keep up with my room but it get harder and harder not having enough room to store clothes, manga, craft stuff, and just everything! D:
Did any one ever play the Sims 2 on the PS2? You know when you have that furniture limit and then if you go over the limit and random shit catches on fire after awhile till your under the limit? Well, if that was the case for my room, my whole house would be ideal for mass cremation. It’s just that bad. I’ve been meaning to do a mass clean up too but I’ve been a bit lazy on that end. GAWWWW, I’ll so it soon! So I can start drawing and creating for the little boys and girls!
Oh yeah! Remember that whole mew contest dilemma? Well, that has been solved! It won’t be a TMM contest but one that anyone that like any fandom can join, but I won’t say anymore then that! I was thinking I should celebrate my over 5,000 hits on my club but I figured that since its been a bit dead I should liven it up first then make a xxx hits contest. Till then I should just make a contest to get active here and met more artists. Plus, contests are fun and I enjoy making them! I should have the contest up within a week or so.
Hmm, I would go on but I don’t want to bore you people with my life XD… Do you guys enjoy my long ramblings? Or the more short and sweet kind? In fact what kinds of post do you guys enjoy the most from me? The normal this and that updates? The ones where I rant about something. Or the informational/inspirational kind? The ones I enjoy from people most is when they update on life and have big plans to share!
So what’s yours? :3
Hey guys!
Just posting about my medical condition. I’ve gotten better but somewhat worst in some ways.
Even though my chest pains are gone I still had a few lingering pains in my sides near my under arm. That and tingling in my limbs that had spread a bit. I went to the ER this morning to see what was going on and no one knows why it’s happening. The supervisor doc did say it could be a muscle spasm. As far as the chest pain, they gave me some pain killers for it. It helped a bit I guess, I still have the chest pain but it’s not as bad as they been. The weird feelings in my limbs are still there.
(signs)
This is really starting to piss me off. Everything was on hold because of this. Drawing, crafting, designing, a lot of stuff because I felt like crap and worried. I am feeling better but at the same time its like when something dies down something else pops up and takes it place. Its been about a week since this madness started and I’m STILL dealing with it. Christ, as soon as I quit work this shit hits me. I have a PS3 coming in this week and I’m ready to relax and be inspired and this happens. For no reason… Can I fucking win, PLEASE?
I just came out of stress into a whole new one. I just want to feel normal and not worry about everything that’s going on in my body or going to the ER and stuff. GAWD.
I’m going to the family doctor tomorrow so he can refer me to a specialist that can research further on what the fuck is going on. I hope whatever is going on can
1. die out on its own
2. I can take meds and get rid of it
3. Not serious in anyway
Now, I’m getting a weird headache on the top of my head kind of. I think its because of the light of the computer screen, I don’t know. I just hope this goes away for good. :C
Sorry for the rant too, I’m sick of what’s ever wrong with me.
I’ma gonna watch sailor moon now, and draw and chat.
Oh yeah, I just signed up for tinier me. It’s like gaia but with cooler avatars. (I doubt I’ll get into it, I just wanted to see what the hype was about)
Hey guys!
This is not the usual life update post since well, because it’s been about three days since the last one. But I did go to the ER because my chest started hurting on Wednesday. Everything came out okay, my heart is very healthy, even heartier then healthy the doctor said! My chest and blood pressure is right on track too. They said that based on my story (quitting work because of stress etc) and the tests they ran on me; it was cause probably the stress. When people are stressed they have more acid in their stomach and that can cause acid reflux thus chest pain. It makes a lot of sense, since I never had this kind of chest pain before. Then I was under a lot of stress, more stress then I think I was ever into.
But alas I am feeling much better and I only have minor aches and pains around my back, chest, hands, foot, and arms. I’m hoping they will go away before too long.
Anyway back to the reason of this post!
I want to make another Mew contest! With the 5,000 plus views and things I want to celebrate it. But what kind of contest should it be. The one I want to make is a Mew Berry Remake contest. I love Mew Berry to death (shot) and I would love to see what people can really make her into. Since she’s a sue and all and people hate her.
I’m a bit short of ideas here so I’m wondering what kind of TMM contest you would like to see?
Here are a few ideas I scrape from the bottom of my brain.
• Design a male mew contest
• Remake of the original mews
• New generation mews
I don’t know, as you can see I’m not very creative with this. So give me some ideas!
Thanks and thanks again for everyone who commented on my last journal!
