Name: Nikki
Age: 27
DOB: Nov. 24 1986
Height: 5ft roughly - What? I'm short
Believe in Love at First Sight: No.
Relationship Status: Single / Don't care
Here lately, I've come to discover, it doesn't matter whether I get married or not. It doesn't even matter if I stay single. Thing is, I may or may not be ready for it. What's important is being content with what you have.
I have a lot of favorite anime, but a few of them include: Code Geass, Trigun, Fullmetal Alchemist and Fairy Tail.
Favorite music: rock / hard rock / heavy metal, pop - I like things that people have said doesn't fit me.
My all time favorite band is the old Guns N' Roses. The new one sucked. End of story.

OMG I've Found My Remedy

The thing that makes me feel 100% better is music. Yes, I forget everything that was ever bothering me when I turn on good, heavy metal. I mean everything. Thank goodness for music because other wise, I'd die. However, I'm so glad I have some people on here that know exactly what I feel like. That makes me feel great. It makes me feel like I'm not a freak like I thought. Thanks!

This Is What I Do To Myself

It's The End of the World As I Know It

I don't know what to do. I'm so lost and confused, and I'm ready to just break down and cry. I am the most screwed up woman on the face of the planet. I'd hate to end a friendship because I really, really care a lot for this person, but my heart won't let go. I've tried everything I know to do, but I still have feelings for said person. It's terrible, it's awful. I can't keep holding on like this. I want to be friends, I really want to be friends, but I'm afraid it's gotten so bad, I'm going to have to tell him, I cannot be friends with him anymore. It's not anything he did. It's me. I don't know why because anyone else would have no problem letting go, but me? No. I shouldn't have fallen in love in the first place. Love for me is a bad thing. It's nothing but poison. I'm never falling in love again. All it does it costs me my friends, since when I fall, I fall hard. Maybe I shouldn't have fallen for a friend. If he was anyone else, it wouldn't be so hard. The question I face now is whether to give up a friend or to try my hardest to be a good friend again. What do I do? If I let him go, I just hope he understands. It already breaks my heart just thinking about it. If I do let go, and he hates me afterwards, I can't say I'd blame him, but it's going to hurt to know I've hurt him.

I Am Sick of The Crap...

Okay, so I make a comment or two on facebook, and what do my friends do? Argue back and forth about who's better, who's right and who's wrong. Really? Don't you have something better to do with your time? Why do you sit there arguing and you expect me to choose between you? Honestly... Also, I leave one site I RP on, expecting to just come back when I can and post, and I say I'm only going to focus on one aspect of it, and what do they do? They sit there and post about how I said that before and blah blah blah, trolling. One of them has the nerve to join him on it. Gah... people make me so sick sometimes!

Just Dreams That Never Come True

I keep dreaming of things I want, but that's it, they're nothing more than dreams. They will never come true. I just dream. I sit at my computer day after day when I'm not at work, and that's exactly what I do. It's always the same, it never changes. I dream of love, but it will never be. You know, I sit here and talk about love, but it just makes me sick. Maybe it would be best to let go and not ever think of it again. I will think about the joy of doughnuts and hot anime guys. I will get lost in music. I have no need for worthless dreams that will never happen. What is the point of holding on to something that will never be? All it does is it fills you with poison. I'm a good friend, and that's what I'll be. In the words of Dumbledore, "It does not do to dwell on dreams."