@aizome:

that's the biggest block of spoiler text i ever saw used on theO

i described my self in -simplest to understand yet probably imcomplete-

as you can see that makes me very hard to understand and complicated to figure out

i really didn't want to unsubscribe tw
but the hope that she'll come back then we'll return to happier days
was gone

but i kept telling myself

it's not gonna happen

and i told myself

yep any day now

so i finally gave up residing in my "dream"
in that hope

and i woke up

so are dreams just lies we tell ourself
that maybe dreams become reality?

for every person who achieves their dream
many many many had theirs lost to "reality"

I've been through plenty of disasters myself, I wasn't able to talk freely in my first 8 years of school, been mocked, almost on the verge of hanging myself, but dropped that idea when i've seen a friend of mine doing that..I only thought of doing that, but she actually did it.....I have trustful friends online, including you....I envied you so much, because you hade so many friends, including tw and when you were online and tw, I left you to talk without any interruption.....I also have friends in my former manga class and some in the japanese class, well, just my deskmate and the japanese teacher, who is the sweetest in the universe.....
Don't you think that I haven't been through so many? my parent want to send me to the police academy and I'm not made for something like that.....dad in the police, mom missed the army(recruiting was made a year before them, so, yeah, all the deep sh*t falls on me! I prefer studying abroad, but dunno where, I have a hard time even talking to them and I can't keep it all in me or I'm gonna lose what's left of my sanity.....and I'm not too far from that if you ask me >< anyway, if you need to talk to someone about anything.....I'm always there if you need me.....I might be younger, not too wise, but you can always trust me.....
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