Yeah, i know now i should have done like that... but dont want bother him, its just i would need a talk with him but... dont really want to force it
Oh, and i really hope for you, that you get a chance to meet him alone and tell him what you feel. I really wish many luck for you!!!
I read your story and I really appreciate you sharing it with me! Just a thought: You should have met him when you were in town. It's a waste of a perfect opportunity! Anyways, about drowning myself in my studies...well, I'm already there. I know work is great for not thinking about him, I also enrolled to the gym so that I'll have two hours without him on my mind. But the thing is that everytime I have a break I still think about him... It sucks! And I see him almost everyday...Sometimes alone and we talk!!! And sometimes with her...and he only spares me a "hi" and a smile!
*Spends a whole minute thinking about his smile and smiling too*
Well...It's just hard to see them together. If he was alone I wouldn't mind confessing but now...well I don't think it's right to do it... Crap!!!!!
~V
So i come to realize, that many of us on the O. have a problem like that... i can understand what you feel... well i think so... i was in very similar situation about a few years ago, but i could somehow bury myself in studying, but it was very hard coz i saw them every week together... now things changed... he is free now, well as far as i know, but the funny thing about it all was that i think, he was the one, who give me a sign, that 'i'm free now'... well it felt like for me to take me up among his acquaintances on FB-like site, at the time they broke up... but i thought it would be rude to ask him anything... i just accepted his singing... to tell you the truth he's my childhood/first love, but i never got to know if he ever liked me or not...we even fought, coz i did something very stupid, but i didn't come to realize my mistake until we came to different schools... and a year ago we have our classmeeting and he said something that made me feel like i cant get him out of my mind... i want to know the truth... i shame myself so much, i was unable to do anything... he finished his bachelor studies... and i should have done the same... now a month ago i finally came to speak to him... and his first question was: do have your diploma? I felt such a shame... and i think he's disapointed in me now... and i even could bring myself to ask those questions what i bottled up in myself so long ago, coz the way he looked at me and talked to me felt like he knows exactly what i want to talk about with him, but the same time as he was begging me not to come up with that... well and i felt like that i dont deserve it either... but i mailed him, and he answered me if i were sometime in the city were i should be studying too, he has time to talk... i was yesterday there... but didnt wrote him, coz i was afraid that he might find an excuse again... and dont know what to do now... coz i was hoping that he might come home too, and i could meet him spontaneously... coz this way i succeed to meet him more often... and i feel now just the same as you: i dont want wait any longer, and he's always on my mind... i would suggest you to concentrate on your studies more, but it dont works for me anymore either...
Uh, i hope i didnt bother you with my stuff... it just felt like i let you know that you arent alone with this helpless and havy feeling
Last edited by Karisan at 8:04:19 AM CDT on October 1, 2010.
Then, if you can't wait...why don't you take a step forward? Tell him about your feeling. But I strongly suggest you to choose the right time thou. :) Cause, well, I'm waiting for a right moment to confess as well. ^^; It's a pathetic move, I know...but if you are truly ready for the outcomes and unknown possibilities, then, you should confess.
And that is just a suggestion thou. You should really be careful in making decision and perhaps spend some times thinking about the 'after that' situations. :)
Well being best friends it's out of question! Cause we don't really hang out or anything. We have different friends and stuff. But still I don't wanna put myself into waiting for someone to realize something. It's like putting my life on hold...Hmmm... That's why I don't know what to do. I don't even know if I can wait! And we're going to live this city in two years, he's ending his post-graduate program and I'm graduating from my univercity.
Thanks for the advise though! I really aprreciate it!
~V
Hm, do you mind hearing my side of the story? Cause...um..it have a little similarities with yours. :)
Well, it's hard when knowing that someone we liked was already taken and we didn't even know if they likes us. But what I did was stay by her side. Always there for her, likes the best friend she could ever hope for, and hoping that someday she realize that I'm more than a friend to her.
(laugh) But of course that didn't happen. But I continue loving her and thought that, if she really meant for me, then she'll love me back someday. But if she's not, then I'll always be her best friend.
:)
It's ok!!! I appreciate you trying! Really! And you're great!^^
I just wanted to write these things down so they are in writing too and hope for the best!
~V
I rarely do anything irrational when it has great consequences. It's not like I'm gonna try to break them up or anything, that I won't do for sure!
It's just that I can't be his friend without torturing myself about something more and on the other hand I can't just stop talking to him!
So you see I'm kind of caught in the middle of anything!
And all I can do is nothing!
~V
Karisan
Otaku Eternal | Posted 10/01/10 | Reply
@KrondorianV:
Yeah, i know now i should have done like that... but dont want bother him, its just i would need a talk with him but... dont really want to force it
Oh, and i really hope for you, that you get a chance to meet him alone and tell him what you feel. I really wish many luck for you!!!
KrondorianV
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/01/10 | Reply
@Karisan:
I read your story and I really appreciate you sharing it with me! Just a thought: You should have met him when you were in town. It's a waste of a perfect opportunity! Anyways, about drowning myself in my studies...well, I'm already there. I know work is great for not thinking about him, I also enrolled to the gym so that I'll have two hours without him on my mind. But the thing is that everytime I have a break I still think about him... It sucks! And I see him almost everyday...Sometimes alone and we talk!!! And sometimes with her...and he only spares me a "hi" and a smile!
*Spends a whole minute thinking about his smile and smiling too*
Well...It's just hard to see them together. If he was alone I wouldn't mind confessing but now...well I don't think it's right to do it... Crap!!!!!
~V
KrondorianV
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/01/10 | Reply
@ecnelisterger:
Thanks for the advice I'll think about what you said... Hopefully I won't mess everything up~
~V
Karisan
Otaku Eternal | Posted 10/01/10 | Reply
So i come to realize, that many of us on the O. have a problem like that... i can understand what you feel... well i think so... i was in very similar situation about a few years ago, but i could somehow bury myself in studying, but it was very hard coz i saw them every week together... now things changed... he is free now, well as far as i know, but the funny thing about it all was that i think, he was the one, who give me a sign, that 'i'm free now'... well it felt like for me to take me up among his acquaintances on FB-like site, at the time they broke up... but i thought it would be rude to ask him anything... i just accepted his singing... to tell you the truth he's my childhood/first love, but i never got to know if he ever liked me or not...we even fought, coz i did something very stupid, but i didn't come to realize my mistake until we came to different schools... and a year ago we have our classmeeting and he said something that made me feel like i cant get him out of my mind... i want to know the truth... i shame myself so much, i was unable to do anything... he finished his bachelor studies... and i should have done the same... now a month ago i finally came to speak to him... and his first question was: do have your diploma? I felt such a shame... and i think he's disapointed in me now... and i even could bring myself to ask those questions what i bottled up in myself so long ago, coz the way he looked at me and talked to me felt like he knows exactly what i want to talk about with him, but the same time as he was begging me not to come up with that... well and i felt like that i dont deserve it either... but i mailed him, and he answered me if i were sometime in the city were i should be studying too, he has time to talk... i was yesterday there... but didnt wrote him, coz i was afraid that he might find an excuse again... and dont know what to do now... coz i was hoping that he might come home too, and i could meet him spontaneously... coz this way i succeed to meet him more often... and i feel now just the same as you: i dont want wait any longer, and he's always on my mind... i would suggest you to concentrate on your studies more, but it dont works for me anymore either...
Uh, i hope i didnt bother you with my stuff... it just felt like i let you know that you arent alone with this helpless and havy feeling
Last edited by Karisan at 8:04:19 AM CDT on October 1, 2010.
ecnelisterger
Senior Otaku+ | Posted 10/01/10 | Reply
@KrondorianV:
Then, if you can't wait...why don't you take a step forward? Tell him about your feeling. But I strongly suggest you to choose the right time thou. :) Cause, well, I'm waiting for a right moment to confess as well. ^^; It's a pathetic move, I know...but if you are truly ready for the outcomes and unknown possibilities, then, you should confess.
And that is just a suggestion thou. You should really be careful in making decision and perhaps spend some times thinking about the 'after that' situations. :)
KrondorianV
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/01/10 | Reply
@ecnelisterger:
Well being best friends it's out of question! Cause we don't really hang out or anything. We have different friends and stuff. But still I don't wanna put myself into waiting for someone to realize something. It's like putting my life on hold...Hmmm... That's why I don't know what to do. I don't even know if I can wait! And we're going to live this city in two years, he's ending his post-graduate program and I'm graduating from my univercity.
Thanks for the advise though! I really aprreciate it!
~V
ecnelisterger
Senior Otaku+ | Posted 10/01/10 | Reply
Hm, do you mind hearing my side of the story? Cause...um..it have a little similarities with yours. :)
Well, it's hard when knowing that someone we liked was already taken and we didn't even know if they likes us. But what I did was stay by her side. Always there for her, likes the best friend she could ever hope for, and hoping that someday she realize that I'm more than a friend to her.
(laugh) But of course that didn't happen. But I continue loving her and thought that, if she really meant for me, then she'll love me back someday. But if she's not, then I'll always be her best friend.
:)
KrondorianV
Otaku Legend | Posted 09/30/10 | Reply
@:
It's ok!!! I appreciate you trying! Really! And you're great!^^
I just wanted to write these things down so they are in writing too and hope for the best!
~V
KrondorianV
Otaku Legend | Posted 09/30/10 | Reply
@:
I rarely do anything irrational when it has great consequences. It's not like I'm gonna try to break them up or anything, that I won't do for sure!
It's just that I can't be his friend without torturing myself about something more and on the other hand I can't just stop talking to him!
So you see I'm kind of caught in the middle of anything!
And all I can do is nothing!
~V