@Kimi Sihu:

Woah, wonder why that is? But not that I have room to talk once in a blue moon I'll have one of those but mainly just random dreams.

@Kimi Sihu:

Yup although I have really vivid dreams that I have a hard time deciphering if it was real or not.

@Kimi Sihu:

I know, but one can dream can't he?

@Kimi Sihu:

Yes. But if we had a perfect society, a utopia, then there would be no bad people or any misfortune. Though this is the only world we got so we gotta make due.

@Kimi Sihu:

True cause you need to know what's bad to know what's good.

@Kimi Sihu:

It'd be great though if there were only good people.

@Kimi Sihu:

It'd be useful to do that with the personality but then it wouldn't be from their own free will and make it pointless.

@Kimi Sihu:

I know that you can change specific parts of the DNA.

@Kimi Sihu:

I know there are some but the DNA strand is so long that it takes forever.

@Kimi Sihu:

It's a scary thought. Inheiring a part of personality that could be good or bad. I wonder if there's a way to change it.

@Kimi Sihu:

Yeah same with mine sept my dad worked long hours to support us. But I also believe in both nature and nurture. You act like those around you but also you inheirit traits from your parents my family is proof.

@Kimi Sihu:

Yup that's why I love the old Chinese proverb that children are mirror images of their parents. So happy that I take after my dad sadly my sister takes after our mom.

@Kimi Sihu:

Man you can hardly find any decent parents now a days I wonder why that is.

@Kimi Sihu:

Tell me about it the other day she wondered why I stopped saying I love you and I told her its caused she stopped showing first and she said that 10 yrs of parenting is more than enough for her to stop acting like one.

@Kimi Sihu:

Yeah, even when there's family events going on my dad won't let us go over there which I agree with but my mom doesn't think so.

@Kimi Sihu:

It's so bad that my grandparents don't even go there anymore they would go at least 3x a year.

@Kimi Sihu:

I know it great that you care and that there are others too but not enough to stop it.

@Kimi Sihu:

No worries this is normal for us, its always been like this and not only to our family but many others including friends and strangers.

@Kimi Sihu:

I know! And all just for a few bucks.

@Kimi Sihu:

Yeah my cousin was held ransom when he was down there but he was one of the few that was actually given back usually the coyotes kill them send a piece to the family and collect the money.

@Kimi Sihu:

The old man is my grandpa and the younger guy is a customer from Mexico I had nightmares after talking to him cause he was telling us of the horrors going on down there.

@Kimi Sihu:

Yup even people come as far as Mexico and Oklahoma to see her oh, I have her on YouTube my user name is melissamm8 to see the videos.

@Kimi Sihu:

A medicine and spiritual doctor in our Mexican culture.

@Kimi Sihu:

Cool! I love my grandma a bunch she's the most respected elder in the community cause she's a sobadora and a Curandera.

@Kimi Sihu:

True but I think I would be impressed seeing them move at all.

@Kimi Sihu:

Impressive! The movements are so beautiful.

@Kimi Sihu:

Cool! A good way for self disapline.

@Kimi Sihu:

I used to be but it got boring. So I decided to take a challenge by doing something harder which is to make others happy.

@Kimi Sihu:

My mission in life. And I mean it, I live to see everyone happy.

@Kimi Sihu:

Don't worry the most important thing is to know your limitations, humans are very fragile creatures that could shatter at any moment. The breaking point can be different for everyone.

@Kimi Sihu:

Um...it doesn't take a complete genius to know how to play an instrament. I ain't the shapest knife in the draw but I learned.
And the grading method is for right brained people which is the majority so for the minority of left brain there's a struggle.

@Kimi Sihu:

Wonder why? Although there's only a few blood that I trust the rest I can't trust them as far as I can through them including my mom and sister.

@Kimi Sihu:

Must be cool to trust someone that's not blood.

@Kimi Sihu:

That's great, its always helps to have a supporter for me its my dad.

@Kimi Sihu:

Not a bad deal, only seen my sister two time in the last three months but that's cause I wouldn't know what to talk about when I see her.

@Kimi Sihu:

You will one day, I know I'll see mine in the near future.

@Kimi Sihu:

True, when my sister was kicked out I was hoping it'd fix itself but instead but now I'm stronger and glad to know that I can over come something like that.

@Kimi Sihu:

Life can't be that simple and to be honest I like it that way, makes it more interesting. Maybe I'm a masochist. Although this is just my opinion, so I'll just continue to encourage you on the sidelines of your game of life.

@Kimi Sihu:

No problem, just know that things get easier as time passes although not right away it will take a while.

@Kimi Sihu:

Good to know, I know how you feel so I can he sympathetic toward you.

Sounds like there's a lot of drama, can't do much for you except to offer a ear whenever you need it.