My name is Samantha and I usually go by Sami. I'm a total dork, crazy and random. Yeah, I'm pretty awesome ^_~
Some facts about me:
My birthday is December 21, 1991.
My parents are divorced, and I just refer to my dad as Donnie. And sometimes my mom as Sherry, depends on if we're fighting or not.
I have a younger sister and an older sister. My younger sister used to have an account on theO but she has abandoned us XD
I live in Ohio.
I'm a Christian.
I've had problems with depression so occasionally things can get a little dark here. But I'm doing much better now.
I go to an AMAZING church. I can't get there very often, but I go whenever I can.
I do not have a boyfriend as of yet. But I'm in the market ;p
I am very random. VERY. Crazy and I love it. So be prepared ^^
I like to write fanfics and random stories. I have a fanfic on my other world and it will be finished eventually, I swear!! Just... Don't hold your breath, ne?
I love music.
I've been home schooled since the tenth grade and recently graduated high school.
I have a kitty named Artemis. He's my baby and he's what helped me through my depression the most.
I babysit and I like to talk about the baby and post pictures because while I may not have the "math gene" I definitely got a double dose of the "mothering gene."
My email is [email protected] if you want to email me. Please do, because I never get email. BUT ABSOLUTELY NO CHAIN MAIL!!!

i feel icky

*lays head on computer desk* i don't feel good. nothing horrible, just... ick. my head and my throat hurt and i have no energy. though i think the no energy is from not being able to sleep at night. i've been falling asleep during school. luckily my mom hasn't caught me. i don't mean to, but i'm so tired.
after i'm done with school today i am going to work on my book instead of looking random stuff up on google like i usually do. *lying through my teeth* i'm frustrated with my book because it's going to fast but i can't think of how to make it longer.
just out of curiosity, was anyone born on december 21? I know ElvesAteMyRamen was, and OtakuAlchemist just PMd me and said she was, and that's my birthday too ^^ apparently it's a good day to be born, a lot of people i know have that birthday.
i don't know what to saaay...... um... my bunny went to the dentist today XDDD silly bunny.
and yup, that's about it. i am very boring today.

Today's Random Thought: When I said "I'd hit that," I meant with my car.

Life is short and pleasures few and hold the boat and drown the crew but oh, but oh how very blue th

the title is a poem kori told me ^^ i tihnk part of it got cut off theough. "but oh, but oh how very blue the sea is." yes it is nonsense, that's why it's fun.
the party was really fun. i felt awkward at first cuz i only knew loralei but i made friends. and ignored every boy except for neil because they bugged me. neil likes anime, so that makes him awesome lol.
i tried to put a picture up yesterday but for some reason it wouldn't let me and then i got mad and went on myspace XD speaking of pictures, i'm going to put up one of the pictures i took at my cousin's wedding when we get them developed. I need a digital camera T_T
my mom actually made an appointment for me with a therapist. the first open day she had was the 23 but my mom's working that day so i'm going the 24. it is not the therapist that i wanted, but at least i'm going somewhere.
i drew a picture the other day that i'll probably try to put up at some point, it's a character from a book i'm writing. a book that i AM going to finish! i never finish my stories though >_< oh! speaking of stories! i finally found the paper with all the short little cute scenes for my death note fanfic. so i'll try to put one of those up soon.
my mom's summer craziness has officially started. every summer she goes on this crazy cleaning spree and then puts everyone on a diet. so i'm going to be starting weight watchers -_- that doesn't really bother me though, i'm trying to lose weight anyway. (and succeeding :DDD) but the cleaning!! i can't find anything! the other day she did something with my art kit, which has my good pencil, my kneaded (sp?) eraser, my inking pen, and my pencil sharpener. i couldn't find it FOREVER. another reason for me to hate summer D:
the random thought was going to be something somebody said at the party but now i can't remember what it was. So here's something else lol.

Today's Random Thought: I'll try to be nicer if you try to be smarter.

beer and vodka don't mix

my cousin's wedding was great, i was so glad i went. it was really sweet. and little becca did not want to be held thank you very much, she wanted to stand up and watch the wedding by herself. issac had a shirt to match her dress, it was the cutest thing i've ever seen. and then came the reception. which i didn't go to, for good reason. dylon got SO DRUNK. he had been drinking beer and then his neighbor invited him over and he switched to vodka. DON'T MIX YOUR ALCOHOL. so he threw up so much he was puking blood. he's fine, had one heck of a hangover though.
we've figured out that it's not my medicine making me depressed.and it's getting worse; i could barely get myself out of bed yesterday. my mom let me stay home from church and i slept till one. i got all of about four hours of sleep last night. my mom says she's going to call the therapist today, which i don't believe cuz i can't even count how many times she's said that.
my friend loraei is having a party today, and i'm going and i'm terrified XDD i've never been to a party before except for a birthday party, because i don't really have many friends. i'm just going to be there for a couple hours though. and i'll be sticking to loralei like glue.
i finally put up my picture of haruka ^^ i might put another picture up today but no promises.
off to school. sigh. i think i have 15 days left? or 14... i have no clue XD

Today's Random Thought: Music is my boyfriend.

off my meds XDDD

ok, so my medicine ran out and i haven't gotten the prescription refilled yet, so the only meds in my system are for my allergies. so if i'm not as depressed today, we'll know the problem.
i tihnk part of the depression is because i'm just now coming to terms with things that happened when i was little. i've been thinking about my childhood a lot lately. like the other day i was thinking about when i would go stay with donnie and stuff, and what i can remember of my parents being married. and i realized, i was abused, emotionally and verbally. and when i went with him, he didn't feed me or take care of me. he didn't even notice when i left the house with my cousin who was only 2 years older and we walked around the neighborhood by ourselves. so that's neglect. and it's weird to think about because you hear about kids who were abused and end up with screwed up lives, but i'm fine. (well, not fine obviously, but ok-ish.) b-chan put it this way: "you turned out fine and you don't want people to feel sorry for you." what do i need a therapist for, i've got b-chan :)
so i guess i'm just trying to deal with stuff. and my mom has no idea why i'm acting kind of weird, if she even noticed that i am, because God forbid she pay attention to me once in a while. she complains about me wanting to move out, well why wouldn't i? i'm tired of being ignored by the only family i have and having to clean up after my sister, who is almost 14 and can do it herself.
anyway, in happier news, my cousin is marrying his girlfriend tomorrow! finally!! it only took 2 kids >_< but whatever, at least they're finally doing the right thing. i can't wait. but we're praying really really hard for no rain tomorrow because it's an outdoor wedding. they said little becca (their daughter) has a frilly dress and issac (the baby) has a little tux ^_^ i can't wait to see. it's a very casual wedding though, dylon's not even wearing a suit. which seems weird to me, but hey, whatever floats your boat.
and now i should go get started on school. 17 days left i think *sigh*

Today's Random Thought: I like Popsicles! Yes I am random, why do you ask?

better now

ok, i feel much better than i did on tuesday, but still not great. i tihnk it's my medicine making me depressed, but i have to be on the medicine, so i'm kinda screwed. the doctor said it should all get straightened out eventually so i guess i just have to wait it out.
X Files conversation between me and b-chan last night:
me: ...hey, how did mulder get his shirt off if he's handcuffed?
b-chan: he's probably done it many times before XD
me: lol. it helps that it was a dream haha.
b-chan: ...what?
me: mulder was dreaming.
b-chan: Oh! i thought you meant your dream! XDDD
me: lol! that would be awkward.

i love my friends. which is why i stayed up till 1 in the morning waiting for b-chan's b power to come back on after the freakish storm that kept me from going to church T_T a tornado actually touched down on tuesday near where i live but it went the complete opposite direction from us, thank God.
i had the awesomest dream the other day. it was a supernatural dream and apparently i was sam's girlfriend or something. we were about to kiss and then something knocked him out from behind and he hit the floor and i was just like *sigh* sam.. lol. and i guess we had met up with john (the dad, if you don't know) and he got in a fight with a crazy old lady XDD i love my mind. surprisingly, there was very little dean. that made me sad lol.
Random picture:

i love that picture.
anyway, i should go get started on school. something like 18 days left, or 17, i don't know i lost track :)

Today's Random Thought: I suck at life, but I'm wicked cool.