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Thu Apr 2, 2009, 9:34 PM
* Mood: Nervous
* Listening to: "Driveway"-Making April
* Eating: I ate a slice of pizza...but that was it
It's in a language I just made up =D It means...
FUCK THIS SHIT!! DX
I hate being a teenager. I'd like to just skip to college right now. Or just move out...can't wait until I move into Minto's house. A while ago, I cooked up a plan while I was talking to my boyfriend(?) about how I could live at my school. I would snatch a spare master key from Frankie or Mike, get used to sleeping in the nurse's office(or I could set up a comfy tent on the roof), get some locks and separate my stuff in the lockers in the girls' locker room, and when summer comes I can stay a week or two at a friend's house, move on to the next friend, and if I can't sleep over somewhere I could live somewhere in the park. Of course, I would have to secure a job first =)
But who am I kidding? Nice plan, but it wouldn't last; and if I ever had to come back home I'd be in deep shit.
I envy my friends that can just wander around with their friends. They simply just let their parents know where they are and call them time to time that same day for an update of what's happening. I envy the people that can sleep over at a friend's house without expecting to know everything about the family their staying...it not like I'd be marrying the person-a female, might I add(I'm straight and plan to stay that way). I envy those stupid teens that can go on dates with a boyfriend or girlfriend without the parents wanting an adult with them or another friend(the 3rd wheel). I envy those that can go on a field trip and not have their family follow them to every place they went(my dad dragged my mom all the way down to Key West trying to keep up with my school's field trip; they followed me to Disney, too). I envy the girl that can ask her parents and not be afraid of a definite "no"...cuz that's what I always get.
I want a normal life without anyone expecting top marks and to just go out with my friends and have fun. I want a relationship that isn't hindered by house rules.
What would you choose? A normal life where you're free to be with your friends whenever you could, but less, perhaps significantly, less creative than you are now? Or the sheltered life of a person overflowing with artistic-loveliness but could only show the internet.
-KF
Fustration
Mon Mar 30, 2009, 6:28 PM
* Mood: Regretful
* Listening to: "I'll Find Mine"-Meg and Dia
* Eating: I'm pretty sure I ate something...
You know how when you turn on your computer, there's these automatic updates that are really annoying cuz they just keep popping up? Yeah, I miss those. I'm grateful for this laptop, cuz I hate sitting at a desk-but I wish this Mac was newer; it's so old, I can't even update. It was a high school graduation gift for my brother. He graduated at 19-he's 24 now. It kills me; I try to update things or get some nice applications(like the GIMP) for me to use, but the version they offer start at version 10.4-I'm 10.3.9. It's like when you're just so close from getting the next letter grade up and your teacher just decides to leave it as it is...pisses me off.
My technology is limited to a pencil, paper, magic rub erasers, and a light table. My mom's laptop is fried, so I can't use the scanner-and my brother is too lazy for favours, especially since I already filled up another sketchbook. Then there's the lack of motivation cuz of other complications going on in my life...I'm a skinny li'l kid, but I'm starting to feel fat because ever since break started the most exercise I've had is a 30minute session of DDR on heavy, and that was just to relieve some steam from said complications...I probably gained a pound or two...now I'm lacking the motivation to move...I haven't been eating as much as I used to, either(I usually never stop eating, now I can't remember what/if I ate today).
Anybody know how to fix this? forget my personal problems, but I don't wanna become a jell-o mold D= FIX ME!!! DX
-KF
I'mma Betch =B
Usually I take pride in the fact I say whatever my mind conjure up, whether or not it's mean. My personality is similar to a cat on acid, so I tend to get away with it; but today I felt really mean...and I'mma do it again, with no *massive* intended harm:
Take no offense to you "dark" kids out there, but...you're not an emo. You have no dark mysterious life out there and most kids with real problems are taking it waaaay better than you are. They may wear American Eagle clothes or clothes from Good Will(and not because they think it's the shit nowadays, but because they need to). Most don't congregate in a section of the school next to other "dark/emo" kids.
Emo isn't a lifestyle...personally it's just a way to dress that's been copied by almost every teenager that listens to some form of alternative rock. So don't go rolling your eyes or say "ugh" every time you hear someone insult your "usual spot" by calling it "the place where all the people that think they're emo gather", because that's what it is...to me it's a graveyard of lost souls because the majourity of those kids are usually in middle school or fresh out of the place looking for a way to define themselves when in fact with every dyed-black/blonde-cut-and-straightened haircut and skinny jeans make you look just like everyone else-and you pro'ly act like it too. I miss when I wasn't labeled "emo" or "scene" or "poser" when I listen to music or dyed my hair or just happened to wear my plaid stuff that day-you're giving me a bad name =(
Sorry for that, that's been on my mind all day D=< My "son"'s(long story) friend asked where he was and I said "I dunno". As she left I said "I thought he was over where the emo kids are" then corrected myself by saying "where the kids that think they're emo are" and she let out an "ugh" and caught some eye-rolling...doesn't help that my son claims he's emo, too...see? I'm a bitch-shut up Jenni DX
PS-those raccoon-like dyed stripes on your hair are ugly *razor cut*
Girl Rant Ahead!!
I'm not too fond of people that label themselves "emo" and deny being a "scene kid"(plz take no offense if you're one of them, I have friends that are like that and I love them to death =3), yet I love the look. Getting my hair cut soon, hopefully this week since I HAS A DATE(zomg) and I've been looking at the hairstyles...I don't like too many of them, but some of them are pretty cute-same goes for the eye makeup. I suck at makeup, and maybe it's cuz I hate my eyes since they're not the size of golf balls (more like almonds), but I wanna know how the **** they do their eye makeup x_x I kinda don't wanna go ahead and do the hair cut and just get a trim cuz then all these people will think I'm all emo/scene (doesn't help I kinda dress that way too-can't help it, I'm awesome in black/plaid/rainbowz*I'm straight, thanks*).
*clears throat* Well, uh...just wanted to get that off my chest. Now for the REAL post!!
Gotta take my government midterm tomorrow since I was sick during D= I'm in the middle of developing the main buildings and backgrounds for G33K!! and finalizing the character designs I've been weary about. Also gotta clean that room of mine*shot* There's barely enough room to sleep, my crap takes up my sleeping space! Not that I get much, I'm and insomniac, I've had maybe 3 1/2 hours of sleep, 5 tops, in the past couple of days. Hopefully I'll get enough sleep so I'll be rested for the weekend since MO AND CAL AND ME AND THIS AWESOME GUY(broke up with my boyfriend recently, if you hadn't caught on) might be heading out for a double-date kinda deal. It's pending since it's Cal's Mummeh's burthdai.
That's...that's basically it...OKLOVEYABAIII =3
-KF
