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Madison
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Every Kid's Dream
I found this on Matt Good's site whilst searching for a facebook status. It intrigued me, so I share it with you.
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Different day – same shit. Morons at the helm the world over – we shoot each other, blow each other up, starve each other, ignore each other – fantastic sport. Guy Fawkes would be proud – nothing more attractive than gunpowder.
People ask and I respond – “It’s a passion. I do it every day because to me there is nothing more important than self education and awareness.” But I have to be honest, the echo of Johnny Rotten’s final utterance at The Winterland Ballroom in 1978 floats on my fringes – “Ever get the feeling you’ve been cheated?”
Well, don’t you?
The world should be blue in the face I reckon. I can see those fighter planes – truth is I want one. Every kid’s dream. Bomb Tehran, bomb Washington, bomb Ottawa, bomb the Kremlin, bomb Pyongyang – keep the dream alive.
Who wants nukes? I want nukes. I want to be the world’s first benevolent dictator. Everyone gets fed, everyone gets healthcare, anyone has a problem with it – well, we won’t go there. Every kid’s dream. Teach the world to sing in perfect harmony – at gunpoint.
Unfortunately, you couldn’t get your head out of your ass long enough to deserve a say in the matter. So you’ll go along, just like you do now. All your TV shows, all your favourite sports, all the things you want to own – they’ll all still be there. I ain’t no dummy. I know a perfect scam when I see one. You are a dummy, which is why it’ll work. And if you’re not then there’s always the chance that you might miraculously vanish into thin air.
As for religion, it’s a necessity. Mind you, it’ll be the religion of shut the fuck up. McNeil Consumer Healthcare and Bayer – out of business.
For everyone a golden bucket, crystal clear rivers, diamond faucets. A feather pillow on which to lay your head at night and dream – no life, no death, just you, a song on repeat.
I’ll be drinking freshly pressed coffee and eating tangerines fed to me by the world’s hottest women. I will look down and watch you as if ants, I will gift you the vapid glee that you so desire, I will sit on a great throne made of the bones of those that hunt endangered species and watch giant monitors for hours on end. At my fingertips the power to destroy the world, little silver buttons like shiny new dimes.
Every adult’s nightmare, every kid’s dream.
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So I've decided to break up with Billy, my boyfriend of 14 months, which I must admit is not a decision I foresaw myself making.
I was going to break up with him yesterday, but I chickened out. Then I had a few long talks with my friends Alana and Josh. I always knew I could trust Alana, but talking to Josh was an incredible help. I guess we're closer friends than I thought. They both said the same thing too, which helped stregthen my resolve.
Anyway, then I was going to do it today, but today there was no school because our county has this tradition going back some 160 years or so that we all get out of work and school to attend fair. So I didn't see him today.
I had a good day though. I went to fair and hung out with Josh and his girlfriend and my friend Rebecca. It was a good day. Also, I ran into my friend Ian, who helped me find my way because the fairgrounds are HUGE and I was really lost and trying to find Josh.
So tomorrow I'm going to talk to Billy if he'll listen. I'll explain why I don't want to be with him. I'll give him his ring back, and if he doesn't want it I'll hold onto it until I feel like throwing it away. (Actually, I want to through it in the river like Matthew Good did to his wedding ring, but I'm slightly hopeful/fearful we'll get back together and I'll have to tell him what I did with it.) Then I've just got to hope for the best.
Speaking of Matthew Good, I got his new CD today and theres this one song called "Us Remains Impossible" that made me cry. The chorus goes:
"I know you, so you know me
But us remains impossible
Yeah, us remains impossible
I know you, you know
That I ain't me so
Us remains impossible"
And I decided that I'm not the same person I used to be, but he hasn't realized it. He is probably still the same, but since I've changed, he's been different.
Its hard to explain, and he is my first real boyfriend, and I loved him. Well, I still love him, but in a different way. Like a memory you treasure but don't necessarily want to relive. I want to move on. I don't want to be with the same person forever, I want to meet and love alot of people. I want him to be with someone that he can love like he loved me, someone who will really appreciate him. He's actually pretty close to the "perfect boyfriend" and for a while he was. When we went on dates he was a gentleman, payed for the movie tickets and coffee. He got along with my family really well. He didn't make me feel uncomfortable or threatened and defended when I needed it. I know he's going to make someone very happy, and he's going to be happy too.
Sigh. What a mouthful. I find it easier to beleive what is in writing. This helps I suppose.
I'm ready for this. I'm ready to go and be someone new. I'm tired of who I was. I want to be eccentric and bubbly and spontaneous. Heh, the things that annoy Billy.
Well, thats it. I'm gonna stop babbling now.
Night all.
I got my tickets!!
SWEET! I got my Matt Good and Joel Plaskett tickets and I'm super hyped!
yeah thats it for today ...
Halloween!!
kay, as you all know halloween is right aroud the corner.
So yeah, i'm going as lily munster. I just hope i dont get confused for morticia.
anyways, this is lily mnunster, who is played by yvonne decarlo. Im totally open to any suggestions for costumes, please and thanks :)
oh and also, i met a girl at school who has started a cosplay group, and im gonna join! im super excited because ive never cosplayed before :)
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Kay, I had the craziest day today. It felt really long, and I just realized that it was only one day. At least it was a Friday.
So I spent the first half of my morning counting the minutes til ten am, when the tickets for my Matt Good and Joel Plaskett shows went on sale. Then I spent the rest of the morning waiting for lunch. After I had my lunch, I went outside with Billy and Rebecca and they listened as I squealed when I got my dad's texts. Then Billy got all concerned and asked if he was competing with Matt Good. I told him no, because Matt is as old as my dad and got fat since he stopped touring. Also, I love you Billy. :)
So then I spent the afternoon getting angry with intergers before realizing that I was subtracting when I should have been adding (that reminds me, I have to do my homework). After that was english but that was okay because I love english and my englich teacher loves me. I'm one of the few whose vocabulary includes words more than eight letters long and I read Animal Farm on my own in the sixth grade. But I guess that I just read too much, and thats not neccesarily normal.
Anyway, when I got home from school, the house was full of these short little people things. Then I realized that they were my brothers friends and that they were annoying me. So I called Aaron, and he said he was on his way to town for the Tricyclr Race. If you don't know what I'm talking about, the following may seem strange.
Basically, the tricycle race is the biggest thing that happens in town all year. The local used car dealership gives away tons of money to charities. All you have to do is register your organization, hockey team or highschool to:
a)ride a tricycle around the lot
b)get a partner and wheel-barrow each other around the lot
c)participate in pool noodle hockey
d)climb into a car with 20 or more of your classmates
e)build a float for the parade
Theres a 50/50 draw, you can win lawn mowers, TV's, bikes, one year they gave away three ATVs.
All in all, its huge, okay? Oh, and you have to wait for at least 10 minutes to get your coffee at Tim Hortons. Billy and Aaron and I went and got some stuff during the parade because we knew there wouldn't be anyone there, and then we loitered and gloated because we had somewhere to sit. :)
Tonight, when we were walking back to my house after the fireworks, Billy and Aaron were talking and I just thought about how Billy and I had just started dating this time last year. Last year at the Tricycle Race was when we held hands for the first time. I know that sounds kinda weird, but I've always been kind of a touch-me-not, and it was kind of a big deal for me. So I started thinking about how a year ago, I never would have thought we'd still be together. I don't think I would have beleived that I fell in love with him.
You know when you meet someone and you know for sure that they've changed you, your life? Thats what Billy is to me. I hope thats what I am to him. He makes me feel not so afraid, like I could mess up really bad and it wouldn't matter all that much. (Actually, thats kinda what happened tonight and I'm not gonna say exactly what happened but it was awkward and he just said "Would it make you feel better if I said I still loved you?" It was one of the sweetest things he ever said to me.)
So, yeah. It was basically a great night. I met a few new people, caught up with some old friends, got in trouble for sitting on the hood of a car (or as I like to say 'being a teen with other teens looking like we're up to no good and all jakced up but really just looking at the stars), screamed, spent eight dollars on candy, fell chasing a stationary twelve-year-old with a cell phone, and just had a great time. And it didn't even rain this year. :)
