Well, here I am. People who know me love me whether they like it or not. It's a burden since I dislike most people. You can find My actual Life HERE. I have many fandoms, and many likes but I have yet to find passion in a past time. You are welcome as long as you behave.
I figure as long as STAN can live here, I can too. Here's round two.
LOOK AT DARTH MAULLY Felix drew it. I'm fiery.
HOLY SHIT, YOU HAVE TO TRY THIS. That is all.
Maybe not all... Nifty Fifty podcast is up. Holy Shit, how did I get in there?
Jordan text messaged me tonight and asked if I wanted to have a beer. I agreed and went to The Shamrock and 3 pitchers later, I went home after just having a nice conversation.
We discussed many things from my recent work stuff to movies to, "Hey, are we divorced?" I was just nice. One of the last things we talked about, I said to him, "my friends and family don't get me being able to hang out eith you." His response was, "My friends say the same thing. I told [new girlfriend] that I was gonna hang out with Molly, and she didn't get it." I told him that was one of the reasons I keep my distance. I don't want to cause discord. He said that was silly. It's just a lack of understanding. Neither of us have exes we hate or no longer talk to, and people around us don't get it that we still enjoy having conversations. Frankly, I'm glad we can be civil, or even more.
I'm relieved enough to simply collapse. In reality, I'm all but in tears.
A lot of the time I say, "where I work." I work for T-Mobile. I really kind of hate my job. I started to hate it when they integrated Sales into my customer care job. I hate trying to convince someone to buy a feature for their account. Of course, sales of phones doesn't count for me, just adding features to peoples' accounts. Even if I change their rate plan it's not any good for me. Anyway, it's been a lot of stress in the transition. I suppose that out management has gotten tired of waiting for us to assimilate. In the last 3 weeks 40 people have been fired from my call center. there are between 600 and 700 people who work there. It's been absolutely frightening. Especially since I haven't been very good at my job for several months now. I've literally been waiting for the ax to drop.
I have been so stressed and angry and sad and all kinds of negative emotions. I got a management meeting today. I was told that they have seen improvement in my performance, so I am not fired. I could practically hear the "yet" but I'm alright for now and I can get my shit together and improve and look for a new job just in case.
Anyone who noticed I've been grumpy or short recently might realize that this is the reason. I'm not out of the woods, but damn, I am feeling better.
EDIT:
Really, I think the site management is making an effort to make sure the site stay open in the long run. Keep the performance numbers up so when the AT&T acquisition goes through they want to leave our site open and not fire EVERYONE. As far as business strategy goes, it's not a bad one, just not when I'm one of the ones in danger. Also it sucks that a lot of my buddies got axed.
I have no love of uncertainty, and now my life is awesomely full of it. I work in a TMobile customer care call center. As people may or may not have seen/read or heard, AT&T and TMobile's parent company came to an agreement today. AT&T will acquire TMobile and I really hope I keep having a job. Sure, I hate my job, but I like being employed and having a house and eating!
