"Love is only a word; it's how you prove it's worth that means everything."
- Yours truly.
Geek (gēk) n. A person regarded as foolish, inept, or clumsy.
Danielle JoyDjayy. I don't like my real name :L It's a handful to write, and I'm rather lazy tbh. (; I'm sixteen years old; [7 September, '94]. I'm Asian ;') and I get good grades in school, because I care about what I'm doing with my life. I long to live in England with Jack one day. :')
Some call me a bitch. Others call me brutally honest. Your pick ;') I'm great with meeting new people. :') and I can keep a good conversation going. I get along better with guys more than girls, but that's just me. I tend to fall for guys easily. It may seem like I'm flirting, but that's just my personality breaking through. ;') Apparently, I give good advice. People are always asking me for it. I love being a help <3
Yes, I do talk like an educated person, because I AM an educated person. Thanks. I love video games. (; I'm a huge nerd. PSN name = zombiexcore (; I'm left handed, so therefore I tend to use the more creative side of my brain. The definition of the word "geek" up there fits perfectly. (;
I like designing with GIMP, which is quite similar to Photoshop only free. xD I'm quite good with it. Not to brag, but yeah. I write many stories; you should check them out in my other world. ;')
I love meeting new people! PLEASE speak to me; I'll make knowing me worth your time. :')
Dear Djayy.
Hallo. My name is Jack.
I am rather blonde ginger, and I loves you.
I don't know what I'd be like without you.
You are frankly a huge part of my life.
And I am extremely looking forward to our summer next year.
I would love to do everything we planned on MSN earlier. :L
A month with you sounds soperfect. I can't think of how else I want to spend it.
You areincredibly beautiful. <<3 I love you.
So much.
Yours sincerely, Jack.
THOSE WHO SHOULD BE REMEMBERED!
Nick. 15 February 1990 - 28 May 2008
Hunter. 21 March 1992 - 22 May 2009.
Troy. [dates still needed fill me in!]
Adam. 4 January 1993 - 29 June 2009
To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me?
Would you take my hand and never let me go?
Promise me you'll never let me go?
I miss Hunter. I miss Nick. I hate that people have to die. It ...
I'm addicted to this girlBOY, she's HE'S
got my heart tied in a knot and my stomach in a whirl
and even worse I can't stop calling herHIM he's all i want and more
I mean damn, what's not to adore?
Here is a word of advice of something you shouldn't do to your significant other: talk to her some while you're on the phone with here, even if your friends are over, or don't bother calling at all.
Seriously. It pisses me off big time when Cody does it to me. It makes me feel so... forgotten. It's been fifteen minutes since I've said something, because he and his friend Luke are playing a game. They're talking tactics, and yelling about something, and it's really awkward because I don't know what they're talking about... >_>; I just heard Luke scream ANNIHILATION! Seriously, WTF?
But I cannot help but be head over heels for him, and I think that it is a bad thing. I've never felt so loved in my life by anyone of the opposite gender, and this feeling is facking phenomenal. But I think I am one who is too clingy to everyone and everything, and I get to liking people right away. Which is why I've been hurt so many times. Especially that thirty minute boyfriend. [which is another story for another post...]
My friend showed me this new game today. Well... It's more like an arcade of online games. It's http://www.omgpop.com. It's really fun. I love that site to death. I've been playing it allllll day, seriously, and it's bothering me that I'm getting addicted to these games so easily. x3
I learned how to play this song on the guitar today. I know the procession of chords, I just need to learn the strumming patterns... xD It's called YourBiggestFan, by NeverShoutNever!
I kinda suck, still, but... oh well. :]
I love yew all. <3
PS. Still comment me. I'm feeling more unloved. D:
How could you do something so harsh to me like that?
I've been playing Tetris all day yesterday. >.> Sayoko showed me the Tetris site that she's playing a lot, and now I've got addicted. AHHHHHHHHHH, Tetris. X_X.
My dad hit me yesterday. My mom has diabetes, and she was calling for my dad because her sugar was low. She was screaming for him, and the only thing that my dad said was, "WHAT, WHAT?!" He was pissed that he was shouting for her. I came upstairs to see if she was okay, and she was halfway off the couch and sweating. I gave her some glucose pills so she'd feel better, and I went to go to my dad to see what he was doing, and he was watching baseball. I asked him what was wrong with him and why he wasn't coming, and he didn't say anything. I went to go pee, and as soon as I came out, he slammed my head into the wall.
I'm sorry I didn't update yesterday. I just spent all my time playing Tetris. *_* So that's it... ;-; Bye bye. :]
Now everyday reminds you of what could and should have been
Please remember, I must go on...
Yesterday, I was quite messed up. Sorry, if you were talking to me. My boyfriend had neglected to talk to me the whole weekend because his best friend was over. He usually calls to say goodnight and the such... but I didn't get it. owo. It was saddening. I felt so abandoned. And I miss Hunter. GOD, I miss his laugh. I miss it so much... I just wish I knew what was getting him down before he did what he did... And... There was just a lot of drama going on. I don't know if I should inform you completely, but I don't think I want to share. I apologise. ^^;
So this is for my Troy Rawrface, because he said I should take a picture with my skinny jeans on, and here it is. Kinda look funny, but oh the fuck well. I'M BLURRY =D
My day did not go well. I was eating pocky in first hour, and the chocolate was melted and gross and everything. I didn't know that I'd dropped some, so there were small chocolate stains on my pants. Fuck, the first day that I wear them, there's chocolate on them. Then at lunch, there's magically chocolate on my behind. I don't even know how it got there. And now I had to walk around, looking like I shit myself. Fuck my life, seriously. ):
I have final exams all this week, starting tomorrow. Sadly for me, I forgot to bring the book that I have exams in tomorrow home, so I cannot study. ToT I fail. And I hate geometry. Fucking C+ in that class, I swear. It's hard! It's an accelerated class, because I'm a Freshman. I should be taking Algebra I, but I took it last year when I was still in junior high. Meh. It's okay. I understood a lot of our review today, so I should at least get a B or higher.
I have to pee now. So until I update again tomorrow when I get home (it's a half day, yippee!) I LOVE YOU <3
Have you ever had to watch someone die in front of you, where if you were one second earlier, you could've prevented it?
So I'll give you something that happened that I never blogged about.
My best friend, Hunter, is dead. He committed suicide last month. The 22 of May. He was terribly depressed, for reasons that he wouldn't tell me. He said he was going to tell me that day as we were walking from his house. He was really depressed. And I witnessed someone telling him that he was pointless to the world. And he ran the rest of the way to his house, and I chased him. I chased him two blocks to his house. As soon as he got inside, he ran to where his dad kept his gun, and attempted to shoot himself. I ran through the door just in time, and tried smacking the gun out of his hand. He fired at the ceiling as he pushed me away, and I hit the wall. Thud went my head, BAM went the gun. Blood was everywhere. It was terrible. He'd stuck the gun in his mouth and pulled. He didn't even say goodbye. He just... was gone, like that. I couldn't do anything, either. I sat there for two hours, staring at his body, watching it cool with death.
And that's why I'm in such a bad mood.
I hate the fact that everyone around me is dying.
R.I.P. Hunter <3
3.21.92 - 5.22.09
EDIT:
I just broke. Again. I need to stop breaking and learn to be the opposite of fragile..
EDIT AGAIN:
My heart broke into a million bajillion little pieces. I'm losing someone else... not even within a month of Hunter's death. But this person isn't dying. I'll know he's still alive.
EDIT EDIT AGAIN:
And now, my best friend is gone...
I'm going to go cry my heart out, more. K, bye.
