Life is very unexpected. It's the farthest thing from predictable. I hate when I lose someone or when a friendship fades. I cannot stand negative change, and that good things come to an end. But if it's meant to be, if it's fate, then I'm not going to fight it. Life moves on, and it doesn't just stop for you to tie your shoes; if you aren't ready for it to keep moving, you get left behind. This is the time in my life where I'm realizing who I am, who my true friends are, who's real and who's just putting on an act, and that I just need to have fun. You only go through highschool once, so cut the bullshit and drama, and just live it up. When I think, I scare myself...I think about anything and everything; good & bad. I have alot of insecurities no one knows about, and alot of things buzzing around in my head, putting myself down and thinking I'm not good enough to achieve something I want to do. But then I plaster it over, put a smile on if I need to, and say everything's fine. Because, my problems are mine, and yours are yours. I don't want sympathy, and I don't want to complain. But there are times when I do need to go to someone to talk. There's a lot more to me than just "cool myspace pictures" and being KelsieeLynn, I don't let myself get a big head, and I don't usually let myself accept compliments, or believe them. I don't know why exactly, but in the long run, I think it's better ? Because everyone has their strengths and weaknesses, no one's better than anyone. I think my biggest fear is time, and not having enough of it. I want to be successful, happy, and see things around the world that I've always wanted to see. I think everyoine feels this way. I want to find that "One Guy" that will just be there through it all, know everything about me, and all my flaws, and still love me. I want to be different, not like every other girl out there, but everyone tries TOO hard to be "unique", and then at some point, it becomes an act. So I'm just being myself. I don't care what people think of me anymore. Don't ask me why I chose to write evey little thing in my head down in an about me, but it was super hard doing this. Most of it came from my actual journal; or whatever you'd call it. Cool if you read, cool if you didn't :)
This id my look on life.
