After 5 years, 5 years that I have willingfully given to this goddamn place, It finally snapped the very last neurone in my brain. After 5 years where not a SINGLe one of my fanart has been properly criticized and where I haven'T been able to prove myself, a website where I met many awesome people and a person that I loved for long and who changed my life, for some part the worse,and it was only temporary, but the most for the better, and this is permanent. I have leraned much from amny people over there and came to DESPISE a lot more. I am an artist who is striving to become better, I am certainly not the best and my style lacks a something, but everyday I am trying something new, be it impresionarsim, a new art book, a book about a famous painter, abstract, new colors, aquarelle, acrylic, china ink. I am trying my hand on ANY material and style I can get, I have a deep passion for everything that is art and come to appreciate it to it's fullest when someone with GREAT artisitc value and talent show him or herself. And that being said, I can safely say that up until now I have maybe met 8 or maximum 10 REAL artists on this site amongst the 100 00000 Other Bozos that have unrealistic expectations and NO artistic value whatsoever...I am certainly not saying I am better, I am guilty of a lot of the crimes I am accusing this community to be guilty of, but still... When people tell me I am wrong and that I AM wrong, I admit it and try to correct my mistake, in here I have been in argument with countless people that didn'T accept ANY form of critism be it smooth or harsh, and in some critics I have been VERY smooth, yet, I have received hate mail from fans of these assholes and other such things. This community, since the day I've joined it, have gone DRASTICALLY downhill, I've seen so many AWESOMe artists leave this place in DISGUST and shame, just to leave the place for MORe fucking generic NAruto Fucking art. And I am a HUGe fan of NAruto, but maaaan....CUT THE BOT A FUCKING BREAK, OK? There's nothing but generic art in here, nothign new, nothing original....nothing...AT ALL
So...to these 5 years I have spent here, in search of good art...I say FUCK IT ALL. I have wasted my time here. And even if I am probably considered a mediocre artist, I can safely say that at least, this community is worse.
FUCK YOUR COUCH NIGGER!
Hey what's up...another little update
My tatoo is in less than 2 weeks now, I'm pretty nervous because it's gonna stay permanently, I just hope I don'T end up regretting it someday in my life.
Like usual, training is goin pretty well I actually got to go there tonight so...yeah
Tommorow is Halloween, people. I'll have to dress up to go to work tommorow, my boxing teacher works with me and he's gonna dress up too...in a pretty particular style. he's gonna dress as a fucking bigass demon with Latex horns, plae skin and black eyeliner with the bigass leather trenchcoat. I'm not very original, this year, yet again, I dress up as a samurai. I'm porbably gonna help my sister to spend her halloween evening so, it's gonna bring back some memories of when I used to spend haloween on candy hunting.
On the less good news, I've fallen in the infamous "friend zone" with one of my girl friend I had an eye on, she's back with her ex, but that doesn'T really bothers me, I'm just glad to be her friend, my fault for being too slow I guess, well technically, she never really left her boyfriend so in fact she wasn'T even really single. But oh well, she's an incredible girl, but if it doesn't work with her it'll work with another one, sadly I'd like it if realtionship was really a precise code of ethic like many people with 1000 advices claim it to be, but the truth is that there is so many factors that influence a girl to like you that everything doesn't work everytime, so for now I'm enjoying being single because it's only after a relationship that you realise that sometime, being single doesn't always hurt. Nevertheless, I'm still going out with her next week so I'm pretty sure we'll have some fun.
that's pretty much it for today, oh, except that here, in Québec, it was fucking snowing yesterday, oh goddamn winter is coming back already? I didn't even see Summer going by and here we are, Winter is knocking on my door again, telling me to put on some clothe and grab a shovel...anyways, have a good day everyone and goodnight.
Finally...I am back. I don't really know why I decided to come back, but this place is a good way to keep a journal of what's going on for some people who'd want to hear about it...
So far, everything is fine, since the last time I've posted on my Otaku, it's been almost a year now, I've been working ever since, I'm studying to get my driver's license, I'm studying to return to school pretty soon, I've met new people, my opinion on many things changed from that, I've improved on my drawing skills, I've been taking Mixed MArtial Arts classes for over a year now and I'm keeping going, this year marks my third year into studying martial arts and the start of my fourth year into working out, I've had pretty good results so far so I don't give up and I keep going. Training has become very important for me, I want to grow stronger and better everyday, and yes, I feel a bit ashamed that I try to show it sometimes, but then again, I like the changes...I used to be so small...and now, even if I'm not that bigge,r I'm so much stronger and leaner, it's crazy, all of this pushes me forward, I don't want to give this up...
So far I've been able to expand my videogame collection drastically. And my favorite RPG, Tales of Phantasia, have been fan-translated on the Playstation, so I downloaded the Rom and the translation and I putted this on CD-R, so I'm currently playing it on my Playstation...it's pretty fucking awesome.
The 15th of November, I'm getting a tattoo...I wish I had scanned the drawing before I gave it to the guy, but I'll be taking pictures once it's done and I'll post them here.
I also got a new computer, which is really awesome...
So yeah, Right now I'm 19 years old, I'm alive and well...I don't have much more to say, so I'll be leaving the rest up to you...see ya.
