Hello everyone! Wow, it really has been almost a month since I've written a post here, I truly apologize! >.< February has been RIDICULOUS: My dad is currently ill, I had projects and midterms going on and it's just been insane non-stop. Luckily, I'm on Spring Break right now, so I'm hoping for a lot more time to draw. ^^
Which brings me to the title of this post!
I'm at 96 fanart submissions, which means I'm getting VERY close to my 100th, and I want to make each of them count! I have some pics that I've kinda been working on, but I only finished one of them(a Kiriban pic on DA). I know you haven't seen art from me in a while, but I really am trying to get only my best work up here xD At least until my 100th submission... So I'm very sorry for the wait!
But thank you to those of you who have subscribed to me as of late(including LGA775, whom I've actually been quite familiar with since he's a long-time member haha, I just didn't say anything, sorry! >.< ), I will try my best to post up more work soon over this break!
I've got a few plans for Spring Break, which include going to Disney World for 3 days with my mom and maybe some friends. Furthermore, this weekend I'll probably end up meeting TWO very good online friends of mine for the first time, so I'm VERY VERY excited for that! ^^
Other than that, I've just been enjoying myself and trying to relax to the best of my ability during this short time period. I was hoping to go to Korea over this break, but since my dad is sick, he said it wouldn't be a good idea because he wouldn't be able to be with me and take care of me(in which case, what would be the point of spending money?), and I understand his reasoning and respect that.
So I hope you all are doing well! I understand that there have been more art thieves around lately? I'm a bit surprised by that, because I haven't seen any that have blatantly stood out to me, but then again I just might not have been around enough to notice.
Take care everyone! ^^ I promise art soon! >.<
Hello everyone~ just a quick question: how do you report a problem/bug with the site to the mods? I don't mean reporting like reporting another user, but rather reporting a problem with a site. In all my years on this site, I've never had to do something like this, so I'm not sure how. xD Any ideas?
I hope you all are doing well, and I'm sorry for the lack of submissions lately T__T I'm really trying hard to keep up with my artwork, but it's been difficult.
Take care and good luck to you all this week!
EDIT: Okay, copying and pasting posts between here and DA is just not working. It feels too artificial of me, so this is the last time I'll probably do it.
Hello hello everyone! It's been a while, hasn't it?
On another note, it has been BUSY NON-STOP. My schedule is RIDICULOUS, and I'm seriously regretting the fact that I chose to do these two particular journalism courses together in the same semester without balancing either of them out with easier classes. I have so much that I want to do and explore this semester...it's just been so incredibly busy! I've barely been able to make time to sleep, much less make new art.
However, I've been DYING inside to at least SKETCH something, and I can't believe how long I've gone without even opening my sketchbook. I've had to make a tumblr AND a twitter(my two least favorite sites) for my journalism course, and I've got a photography and writing assignment coming up...all for one class and all due next week! Not to mention, I've gotta design a magazine spread for the Oscars that are coming up, and catch up with Microeconomics and prepare for a Japanese presentation that is happening on Monday.
This is terrible. T__T
A word of advice to those of you who are not in college yet: when you actually DO get into college, make sure you balance out hard courses you're taking with at LEAST ONE easy one. I refused to do that this semester, and now I've barely got any free time to do anything I want. School activities and a bunch of other things consume my time...it's really frustrating.
Oh! And here is the finished logo that I created in Adobe Illustrator!
I thought you all might want to see it, since many of you were curious. The concept behind the logo is written underneath it, if you'd like to take a look. I've linked you all to the blog/website for my course, so yep. Thank you all so much again for all of your wonderful feedback(on both DA AND here)! It truly inspired me in creating the logo. I have yet to find out how well I did on it, however! Grades come out within the week or so.
What else...hm. Well, I'm going to Korea over Spring Break, it turns out! It's gonna be TERRIBLY tight, but I have to do it for assignment purposes. T__T It's really frustrating, but I think I'll have fun while I'm there as well.
I have no idea what my art will look like if I try drawing again, but I don't want to hesitate more in finding out. I really am trying to make time for everything I want to do, even though it's tough.
How have you all been doing? I hope you all had a WONDERFUL Valentine's Day! Mine was FABULOUS, because I WON MY COURT CASE IN CHALLENGING THE TICKET!!<333 So I'm VERY happy! Not guilty and case dismissed ^^
Even though I had a Microeconomics exam that night. T___T
I hope you all have been doing well!<3 Please update me on how you all are doing, and don't hesitate to send me a message or leave a comment~! I'd love to hear from you guys.
EDIT: I also decided that with this post, a theme change was in order. =P What do you guys think?
EDIT 2: Please note, I don't want to seem selfish in saying what I did in my post. However, I just really want to get that feeling of complete, pure enjoyment back that I seem to have lost lately. I do love drawing for others, but I feel like I've been steeping myself into shallow wants lately, and I just want to get out of that by taking some time for myself.
Also, my card was accepted! >.< But I don't think it's totally shown up in the system yet because the date is totally off LOL.
Hello everyone~ I'm not even 100% sure if my card is gonna get accepted LOL but I submitted one for the challenge because Kelsey inspired me with some of her beautiful submissions. <3
I'm very excited to see if it gets accepted or not! It was accepted! >.<
On the other hand...well, I had a really serious talk with my dad yesterday about my art and my whole situation with not having enough time for it, and I've kinda come to the realization that...well.
I've kinda lost something very important.
And I really need to get it back.
So after I finish these things on my to-do list(which is probably 2 more things?), I am completely changing my thought process on how to go about art.
I really hate to admit it, but my thoughts have been so shallow in the back of my mind somewhere. I always tell myself that I'm drawing for myself and myself only even when it's an art trade with someone else, but I can never shake the fact that deep down I also draw now because I want that feedback and huge popular response someday that some of my favorite artists get .
And after telling my dad all of these things, he was really shocked, because now he understands why I stress so much when I don't have time for art. It's probably for the wrong reasons.
As soon as it turns into a competition for shooting to be popular like someone else, you've lost something REALLY important. And I've really gotta stop caring about things like that, because when it turns into a competition, it's not just a hobby I love anymore. Comparing yourself to others takes away that aspect.
Yes, I do want to improve for myself and myself only. That I can say with confidence. But I know there's a HUGE part of me that also wants me to get better so I could have a taste of that immense popularity, and I have to eliminate that thought process because it's affecting me and my art.
I will admit that I'm kinda stuck in the wrong place right now because I've lost this really important aspect: just loving my art for the sake of loving it and nothing else.
My dad says the best solution would be to just cut off all connections to the online world to stop this from happening anymore, but I have friends on here that I care about, and I do want to share my work with them. However, I want to appreciate the comments/faves/whatever I get, rather than take them for granted in the back of my mind and work mostly for them and the possibility of becoming popular.
I love drawing for others, but it's not good for me if it comes at my own expense. So I just have to balance out my time spent drawing for others and myself more.
I know many of you have told me this time and time again: focus on your own art and don't overwork yourself. I've listened to you all say it to me countless times, but I don't think I ever truly grasped the meaning of your words. I always would say that it was for myself, but really I think I care too much about other people to worry about what I'm doing for myself alone. However, after some thinking and the talk with my dad, I understand it now, I really do.
So. It's 2012. It's time for a whole new aragorn1014.
It's time for me to focus on myself and get my true love for art back.
So get ready everyone, things are about to be different.
*sigh* It has become REALLY easy for me to get depressed as of late. I have no clue why...but it's probably a number of things that have been bothering me lately.
Thank you all for the comments on my last post~ I'll probably get to replying to them today or this weekend. ^^ It was interesting to read your comments!
But yeah...the new e-card/wallpaper collaborative feature? It's making me have a bit of a moment.
I feel so selfish OTL.
Anyway, although I have a number of things on my to-do list that I need to complete, I think I REALLY need a hiatus of sorts. I keep getting depressed at everything...which is really terrible because I'm trying to get out of this "comparing to everyone else" mindset.
In any case, I'm doing my best.>.< School has been BEYOND overwhelming lately, so I don't know. But agh..I've been having issues with my art again and comparing it to everyone else's...so I REALLY need to get out of that haha.
I hope you all are doing well~ don't worry, I'll still be around on theOtaku ^^ It's not REALLY a hiatus, but for me I guess it kind of is. I just really want to improve. *sigh*
Take care everyone~