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This is probably just a place where I'll put my posts and such~ otherwise, probably not much is going to happen here ^^;
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A bit of information about me:

Name: Sayura/Sayura-chan(so friends call me)
Birthday: October 14th
Age: 20
Hobbies: Drawing, golfing, archery, playing piano, singing(some) and some other things ^^

Likes in no particular order(manga/anime/movie/game-wise):
Howl's Moving Castle-Howl/Sophie
Final Fantasy Series-Cloud/Leon/Tidus/Yuna/Vaan/Rasler/Ashe/Serah
Kingdom Hearts Series-Cloud Strife/Riku/Roxas/Namine
Hana Kimi-Izumi Sano/Mizuki Ashiya
Code:Breaker- Ogami Rei/Sakura SakuraKouji/Hitomi/Toki/Hachiouji Rui
Tegami Bachi/Letter Bee- Gauche Suede/Lag/Jiggy Pepper/Aria /Zazie
Claymore- Miria/Isley/Clare/Riful/Teresa/Raki
Bleach- Kuchiki Rukia/Kuchiki Byakuya/Kurosaki Ichigo/Ishida Uryu/Toshirou Hitsugaya
Heart No Kuni No Alice-Blood Dupre/Julius Monrey/Alice Liddell
Gakuen Alice-Mikan Sakura/Natsume Hyuuga/Imai Subaru/Ruka Nogi/Tsubasa Ando
Rurouni Kenshin-Kenshin Himura/Sojiro Seta/Aoshi Shinomori
The Gentleman's Alliance Cross-Takanari Togu/Haine Otomiya
Alice 19th-Kyo Wakamiya/Alice Seno/Frey
Shugo Chara-Ikuto Tsukiyomi/Amu Hinamori
Yu Yu Hakusho-Kurama/Hiei/Yusuke
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle-Fai D. Flourite/Syaoran Li
Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion-Lelouch Lamperouge
Gundam SEED-Athrun Zala/Cagalli Yula Atha
Watashi Ni XX Shinasai-Kitami Shigure

The list goes on to pretty much anything =P I've read many more manga so if you want to strike up a discussion about a mangaka/game/anime/movie creator on this list, don't be afraid to ask! I've looked at many works by each of the above authors/artists!

-My Deviantart(active)

Something random you should know: I LOVE it when people draw the character's personality is intact(in other words, unchanged)~ it really gives the picture a better feel because they act the same as they were made to be.

Car accident, DMVs office incident...[rant]

Hello everyone! It's been quite a while hasn't it? Usually I can make about a post a week, but it's been SO crazy that I've never really had any time to make a full-on one >.< How have you all been? Ready for the holidays?

Last Friday, I just finished the last of my final exams and now I'm officially on winter break! However, it was the most hectic and stressful Friday that I've ever had in my life T__T I got into a car accident in the morning in the parking lot on the way to my exam because the other driver cut across several open parking spots and hit my car because she was confused about where she was(don't worry, neither of us drivers got hurt!), but that's not where the problem was...

So the officer needed to ask the drivers for their license's so he could keep a record, right? Well the other driver gave hers and her insurance papers/registration card, and I handed him mine.
Then he asked me, "Were you driving by yourself?". And I said yes, of course, but then he said the STRANGEST thing ever that totally floored me.
"You're not supposed to because you still have a Learner's License."
I laughed at first because I KNEW I took and passed the test for my Driver's License back in JUNE, and I got my driver's license, and have been driving for the past 6 months by myself- no accidents or anything. So I told him that must have been a mistake and that I'd hand him my actual license.
But then I got really confused...because when I looked at the one I just handed him, ALL of the info on the permit I just handed him had my Driver's License info and my Driver's License photo on it. The only thing different was that it said Learner's License.
Which made no sense because why would I take a DRIVER'S LICENSE EXAM for ANOTHER Learner's Permit??
So I FREAKED OUT because he had to issue me a ticket/citation for having "driven illegally by myself without an actual driver's license", which would mean I'd have to take an online course/pay $154/go to court to have 3 points put on my license.

My gosh.

So I sat and thought it over in the parking lot as my car was getting towed, and I realized two things:
1) There's no way in askghlasdhg that I could have missed something as big as it being a Learner's License...I've had it for 6 months!!
Until I put it back into the section of my wallet where I had it before.

The entire top part that said "Florida Learner's License Class E" in small print was covered up by the framing of my wallet, which is the reason why I never noticed.
2)The DMVs office made a HUGE mistake that got me this ticket: They had issued me the wrong one without telling me.

So at this point, I was completely angry at the DMVs office, and frazzled by the incident. I had an exam that was supposed to take place from 10am-12pm.
It was already 10:50am.
So my mom decided to drop me off to take the exam at the university, and I was really stunned by the fact that my professor said the people re-taking the exam really only had an hour, not two hours, to finish the exam.
However, he was really kind and understanding of my situation and said he'd stay another hour to let me finish since that was the allotted time for the exam formally. So I took the exam, frazzled and all.

After the exam, my mom, my sister and I decided to go to the DMVs office so we could challenge the ticket/citation in court later with a record/evidence from the DMVs office admitting its mistake. We really thought it'd be no big deal: They keep records and know I passed the exam, so all the people at the DMVs office had to do was say sorry, print out a note/record on their behalf that we could show in court and be on their merry way.

I had NO idea how much of a (excuse my language) douche the manager of the DMVs office was going to be.

I SWEAR I have NEVER met ANYONE that was as much of a jerk as she was. If I could curse, I would, to explain to you guys the extent to which this lady was so ridiculous. I decided that if I wanted evidence for the court about our being at the DMVs office, I'd secretly record the convo via my phone, so I did. But MAN, I had NO idea omg...

So we explained our situation to the guy at the desk first, who tried to help us, but then he came across a question he couldn't answer and decided to call his manager.

Then all hell broke loose. I'm not even kidding.

The manager at the DMVs office came up with SO much crap.... the entire thing was just ridiculous. She made it sound like we were trying to scam the DMVs office into giving us a new license? AND she kept making excuses about how they have ABSOLUTELY NO PRINTERS TO PRINT ANY SORT OF PAPER/NOTE/RECORDS which makes NO sense because they use papers all the time at the office to give driving exams. PLUS she made up things like saying that my learner's license was broken which is why they issued me a no fee duplicate? Why would I take a DRIVER'S LICENSE EXAM if I was there for ANOTHER learner's permit that was BROKEN(which it wasn't)?? She wasn't even there! AND she went on to blame my MOM, yes, my MOM who wasn't even AT the driver's license exam for "giving her daughter permission to drive around a deadly weapon illegally". Like WHAT. THE. AKSDGHLASHDG.
I could go on and on and ONNNN about this, but basically she is the most ANNOYING, RIDICULOUS, CRAZY woman I've ever met in my life. And I swear it will go back to get her one day. She just didn't want to admit the office's mistake in printing me the wrong license. I admit my mistake in not noticing it earlier, but it's THEIR responsibility to admit that they DID in fact, print me the wrong one despite my having passed the exam, and THAT'S what got me the ticket/citation, not illegal driving.

I've gotta be careful what I say online, so I will probably delete this later, but you guys have NO idea how much this situation has been bothering me. I WILL challenge this. I should not get penalized for a mistake that THEY made. It's ridiculous. If the people at the DMVs office's responsibility is to serve the people, well that lady was CERTAINLY NOT the prime example of that. She said MUCH more outside of what I mentioned, but basically she was the crappiest person I've ever met in my life. I've never cursed so many times at home in one day.

It's going to be a long winter break. But basically, this will be the majority of it.
I'm going to try to finish my SS gifts in time...but with about a week left to go, we'll see if I can finish both of my gifts in time. >.<
Sorry for the unpleasant way to return to DA/theOtaku haha, but really it's been a terrible past couple of days besides New Year's Eve, which I watched with my sister yesterday(and loved!).

I hope you all are having a fabulous holiday break! Take care of yourselves~


[Be warned, it's gonna be another semi-long post..]

Hello everyone! It's been a while, hasn't it? I'm sorry that I left for a while; I have been so busy with school! >.<

Before I begin, I wanted to give my thanks to ItachiSasuke and StarsSmile especially for your really thoughtful comments on my last post from a while back. I'm grateful for everyone's thoughtful responses, but you two in particular really helped turn my day around, so thank you so much!

But in any case...so there's a couple of things I need to catch you guys up on(or get off my chest..not sure which of the two it is xD).

First is that last Friday, I went to a nursing home with several of my friends from Singer-Songwriter-Society(a musical group I'm in) to perform some solo pieces/sing some Christmas carols, and it was FANTASTIC! That was my first time singing while playing at the same time, so it was a frighteningly new experience for me, but I tried it and all turned out well. ^^

Second, I've been hanging out with a lot of friends quite often. My fellow classmates in Japanese class, in particular, are the people I've been spending time with most. I'm REALLY grateful to have them as friends because I certainly did not have such a great group of people around me in all of my years of high school and middle school. Sure, I'd be friends with them, but I never really felt like I fit in with them and I'm just glad that I've found some people that I can truly be with without any doubts.

That kinda brings me to my problem xD (which isn't really that big of a problem, but in a way it kinda is...?)
It might sound really whiny and pathetic(at least, in my opinion it does..), but nowadays, because I have such wonderful friends, it is SO easy for me to feel lonely when I'm not with anyone. I never had that problem in high school, but perhaps that's just because I didn't feel very connected to the people I knew at school (which sounds really terrible, but in a way it's kind of true).

In any case, so today was the last day I'd get to see my friends in Japanese class before break(we had our final exam today), and I just became REALLY sad all of a sudden. I'm kind of wondering if I'm just being kinda selfish again for wanting to be with them still? Or maybe it's just me wanting to socialize more...? I don't know, it's really strange and I'm kind of feeling pathetic for becoming lonely so easily haha.

Speaking of feelings, have you ever had one of those moments where you liked someone, but you didn't WANT to like them because it'd be opening a bad door?
Yeah...well I'm kind of having that issue right now haha. Race and job/interest preference is such a BIG thing with my parents, I feel like even if it did work out just between us two, it would NEVER work with my parents.

Wow okay this is sounding really cheesy, I'm gonna stop this part of my rant haha.
Basically, this person is an interest I probably should not pursue. Especially since I'm pretty sure he likes my friend. xD

On a completely different note, I can't believe I only have a little more than 10 days to finish like 3 drawings! LOL I really have a lot that I need to do @[email protected] especially with finals still happening this week.

But all in all, I guess all anyone can really do is just work hard and hope for the best. >.< I feel like I'm a total wreck right now haha.

To anyone that is still taking finals, good luck!~ There's only a little more left to do until the holidays ^^

And to everyone else who is either still in school or already on break, I wish you all the best!~

Take care everyone~! And thanks for putting up with me xD

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!<3

As the title says, have a wonderful Thanksgiving everyone! ^^

Thank you to all of you that commented so sincerely on my last post >.< It means a LOT to me and I don't know what came over me when I wrote that but...I'll be sure to go back and reply to everyone when I can~! Today is kind of a busy day with turkey and all! haha

But in any case, Happy Happy Thanksgiving everyone!! I'm SO grateful for each and every one of you, and I wouldn't have my life any other way. You all have helped me become who I am and I'm so happy to have you all in my life. ^^

Take care everyone and have a fabulous break!<3

I don't like...

Feeling like I did something wrong.
Or being mean.
Which IS wrong. But some people would say that I'm not being mean when I think I am sometimes?

OTL This is why I feel like I could never be a leader figure for anything..because people think it's so out of my character that I'm at the forefront, that they think I'm being mean or too overly serious when I try to keep to something for a group or event. And maybe I'm just not FIT to be a leader, even though I want to be a good one that everyone will like and be proud of...myself included. =/

It just makes me WANT to be angry...but I don't REALLY want to be angry. Does that make sense?
It's like..I want to feel angry about it and perhaps lash out a bit or say something totally unlike me but at the same time I don't want to because I don't want to hurt someone and I know it's wrong.

This might sound really ridiculous, but I don't know how else to do things besides be who I am...
I just really really don't like it when people say I'm too overly defensive/serious/uptight/unable to be funny...and maybe it's true but I can't say anything back when someone says those kinds of things to me because I don't want to hurt them or make it seem like I'm trying to lash out on them.

It doesn't make sense...if I try to keep something in order, like restating something I've previously said or trying to get everyone to focus on the subject when there's little time left to be together, it always comes back to hit me in the face as "my gosh, I'm REALLY sorry...GEEZ you don't have to be so uptight about it".

I've been told to embrace myself and my qualities more, but I don't know how I could do that especially in regards to this whole being too serious thing when so many people don't like that about me...it just makes me feel like I'm an awful person and I want to change that aspect when I can't.
Even on the internet, I often get it and it just makes me so sad. One of my biggest fears is hurting other people, especially emotionally, and this is why I often don't say much when I feel strongly about something, because it's often taken as "why are you being so serious about this?" or "GEEZ, calm down, gosh I'm sorry." or "well fine, but really, what's your problem??" or they say any of the previously mentioned phrases and then just back out of the whole thing and are just like "well my word I'm SORRY, maybe I'm not cut out for this. I'm out.".

Like..I really just want someone to tell me what I'm doing wrong? I try to be sociable..but of course, that's all in my own mind I guess. I don't want to hurt anyone...even though sometimes I REALLY feel like lashing out or venting about something, I try not to because I know people would think it's "too unlike me" and I'd HATE to hurt someone emotionally in any way at all.
I mean yeah, maybe I should just let everyone run amok so I won't get whacked in the face for being "too serious about keeping things in order". Maybe I should just laugh at EVERYTHING, even when I don't mean it.
I just don't know what to do... and it's just horribly frustrating because I can't seem to shake it. T__T

This rant is REALLY random, sorry T__T but it just came up after some things lately...
It's also a REALLY REALLY selfish post, and I apologize for that so much. I'm so so sorry.

I'll put up a happier post tomorrow to celebrate Thanksgiving~
I'm sorry to be such a downer the day before the holidays >.< Please forgive me!

Take care everyone~

Dear Secret Santa,

Hello hello!~ I know I'm the host LOL but I'm just writing up my wishlist here ^^
In any case...here goes!

Dear Secret Santa,

I'm a person who loves to give many options so the other person may choose the one most to his/her liking. ^^ So don't be surprised by the options haha! I'd love any of them equally, so don't feel pressured to choose one over the other.

For media, I don't really care haha. I love ALL forms of art, so even if all you do is pencil, rest assured, I'll love it. ^^ <3 I'm a bit of a pencil artist myself anyways lol

Just a note, I don't like horror/gore/explicit/sexual and same goes for yaoi/yuri >.<

Characters I like(please feel free to do any of the characters alone as well)
1)Shirayuki and Zen from Akagami no Shirayukihime together(as a couple). Their clothes are really ornate(and changes a lot), so that's a bit of a challenge haha but you're welcome to design whatever you'd like for them.

Please take note of Shirayuki's super bright red hair(if you've never seen her before xD) and that Zen is a prince(so they both often wear regal clothing). Sorry for lack of refs but this manga isn't super popular yet haha.
Zen and Shirayuki-[link] [link] [link]

2)Alice Liddell and Blood Dupre together from Heart No Kuni no Alice/Alice in the Country of Hearts.
You can also do Alice and Julius. But really I'm not picky so you could do any of them by themselves too if you wanted xD
Alice-->[link] [link] [link]
Blood-->[link] [link]
Julius-->[link] [link] [link]

3)Ogami Rei with or without Sakura Sakurakouji from Code: Breaker. His personality is kinda cold and he is very serious, but he does smile sometimes, so keep all of that in mind please. >.<
Ogami Rei--->[link] [link] [link]
Sakura Sakurakouji(the girl)-[link]

4)Alice Seno and Kyo Wakamiya from Alice 19th (or either of them by themselves)
Alice and Kyo--->[link] [link] [link]

Or anyone from the list I have on this World in the Intro post!~

My characters
1)My OCs, Kurosawa Itou and Inoue Miharu together.
You're also welcome to draw either of them separately.
Itou-->[link] [link](<<-art by 15385Bic)
Miharu(girl on the right)--->[link]
Both of them together(Miharu's hair is more accurate in this one)-->[link]
Sorry I don't have more refs of them OTL.
You have complete artistic freedom with them!(and don't worry about outfits..I'd actually be curious to see what you'd design for them) They don't have any official outfits haha.

2)My Kingdom Hearts Fan Character, Riiya. She has more of a sweet personality, which is the main thing I guess you'd need to know about her. If you couldn't tell from the second ref lol she really likes Cloud, but it's not reciprocated(though she wishes it were, of course). You can draw them together if you'd like, as well(with Cloud in his KH1 outfit please, despite the second ref below xD).
Refs:[link](<<-old pic omg...) [link](<<-art by FUNimation)
Again, don't mind outfits! You have complete artistic freedom ^^

1)I REALLY love emotional, somewhat romantic, sweet and magical themes. So anything along the lines of angels/purity, greek myths, magic and fantasy are great, if you don't like any of the above options. ^^

2)Here's also a list of couples I like: [link]
The ones with hearts next to them are the ones I'd LOVE to see art of ^^

Anddd I'm pretty sure that's it!<3 I hope you have fun, THAT is the most important part. So please take your time and enjoy yourself! >.< Thank you SO SO much for the time and effort you're putting into this! I appreciate it so much! Take care!<3