- Created By Chel the Bell
SUDDEN REALIZATION
The first being that I think my room-mate hates me and wants to freeze me to death! FFFF I need my fan on to make sure my computer doesn't over heat, and when I'm sleeping for the constant noise factor... BUT FFF SHE TURNS ON THE AIR CONDITIONING AND I DIE. IT'S SO COLD.
But THEN I REALIZED/remembered that my mom said she'd buy me Katamari Forever after my semester is over... SO NOW I'M REALLY EXCITED BECAUSE I ALWAYS WANTED A KATAMARI GAME! They seem fun~ So now I can't wait for next week...
AND I'M SIMULTANEOUSLY DREADING IT. In part because papers due tomorrow...
In part because WUT IF I DO REALLY BAD ON THEM?! This thought has never crossed my mind before, but I'm kinda happy with my grades where they are... I DON'T WANT TO FACE DISASTER! But I'll do alright. They shall be easy!
Really I just wanted to talk about how excited I am for Katamari... and How disappointed I will be if I don't get it!
ALSO JOBS! I don't know if I can get one... BECAUSE I'VE NEVER WORKED BEFORE... Curse you vicious circle...
BEST OMEGLE CONVERSATION EVER
Well it's pretty long so I'll just get to it.... The only thing that made this epic conversation any better was that my Pandora played Surfin' Bird near the end and I practically died. TODAY=BEST DAY EVER. -------------- Stranger: ░...Q
GERPDERP Gerp? I meant herp... but Gerp is pretty neat so w/e. UGH THINGS TO DO, me not doing them... STORY OF MY LIFE. I have to frexxing rewrite papers for English. AND LIKE Write papers for Short Story... I'm working on it. It's just hard for me to think about human nature.
ALSO GOTTA STUDY SOME GERMAN VOCAB FOR MY GERMAN ORAL TOMORROW. That should be fun. BUT LOL I HATE TALKING TO PEOPLE. D: But it should be alright. I'm okay... I GOT THIS (HOPEFULLY).
ALSO FFF TODAY AND TOMORROW ARE LIKE REALLY HARD FOR THE SONG CHALLENGE. I'm pretty straight up with my music, so I can't think of any song some one would be surprised to know I liked. LOL except maybe Friday but I already used that song. I was going to go with Come Closer Together... But it's got the Beat's in it so it's kinda expected. ALSO SONGS THAT DESCRIBE ME WOULD REQUIRE ME KNOWING HOW TO DESCRIBE MYSELF...
IDK I'll get on it.
A post about terribly important things
that aren't actually that terribly important. In other words just me rambling on about things I feel like rambling on about. I'm in one of those thinking moods~
I've suddenly realized there isn't any music that I love with all my heart, or hate with the white hot intensity of a thousand suns. And this saddens me. I feel like I'm turning into a terribly boring person. The kind of person who says "terribly" a lot. But it's true. I mean music is huge for me, but not that huge. Like I enjoy it, and I think part of me needs it, but then I think of people who are really obsessed with music. How it's all they have. All they can do is eat, dream, and breathe music. And I get jealous. I mean is there anything I'm obsessed with? Anything at all? I can't think of anything. There's things I like to do, but nothing that I obsess with. Even drawing. I mean I love it, but sometimes I think I'm just so god awful I'll just stop. Not that I will, but even that I don't love with all my heart. Sometimes it's just tiring, especially when I think I'm just being repetitive and boring.
But anyway music. I don't particularly like any kind, but I've been thinking about it a lot. I really want to learn the guitar. But what I really want to do is write a song. Even if it's just silly and terrible, I want to do it. And I want lots of clapping in it, because I love songs with clapping in it.
Also I've been feeling a bit low about my weight. Yeah complaining about my weight time! It's really because my mom is organizing photos, and OH GOSH WAS SHE SO BEAUTIFUL~ She was lovely and thin and she was just so pretty. It makes me feel like I'm wasting my youth being so tubby and gross. And I've always been tubby. Like I can't stand looking at my pictures because I just look tubby and gross. But when I was like really young (Like baby-5) I was SO FRICKIN' ADORABLE. Srsly I gave the Gerber baby a run for it's money. So frickin' cute. But then I got tubby and gross and it's such a waste of my youth~ And I use to wear dresses and I can't anymore because they don't fit and look gross anyway. AND SOBSOB I know it's my fault but still~ And I keep telling myself "You'll do it, you'll lose the weight! You don't have to be a stick but small enough to fit into a cute dress! You can do it. We'll do it the summer don't worry" and that's what worries me. That I keep putting it off "We'll do it in the summer! In a couple of weeks we'll start! Now not a good time you're busy! You need time to plan and stuff" and it goes on and it's all lies and I get very upset with myself. ALSO delusional brain doesn't even realize it's tubby. It's all like 'What are you talking about you are a gorgeous twig!',and I can't over come that. FFFF DOOMED TO BE A TUBBY FOREVER! (LOL sorry, this is sucha stupid thing to whine about but whatever)...
No it's not stupid. It's a serious issue. I dislike how people feel sorry for like Anorexics and Bulimics, but if you over-weight it's your own fault. I mean I admit I'm fat because I'm lazy and eat unhealthly, but it's also a mental problem that I'm facing. I mean people aren't born Anorexic but people aren't born fatties either (Most of the time). There's rehabs for Anorexics, but besides Biggest Loser I haven't heard of any Fatty rehabs. And isn't like a quarter of America overweight? You'd think this issue would be discussed. But no, if you're fat you just have to deal with it on your own. And GOSH I also hate it when people are like "I'M JUST CURVY AND BEAUTIFUL!" BECAUSE THAT'S JUST AS BAD AS ANOREXICS THINKING THEIR BEAUTIFUL (even though they don't those poor souls). It's just DENIAL ISN'T GOING TO MAKE YOU BEAUTIFUL! Say that all you want, but fat is never going to be an acceptable way to look unless you live in a society where it denotes wealth and status. And let's face it, being fat in America is just saying "I eat poorly and can't bother to do things about it" and I'm not saying that that's how all fatties are. Some people are fat for health reason, but even then it's still not okay because then it's because you're sick or something, right? And hey I'm fine with this. I actually don't mind people judging on looks, because we all have different taste or whatever, but I'm just saying it's like this... Just be normal. Don't be so thin we can see your bones (that's pretty gross bro), but don't be so fat we can't see around you (that's just as gross). BUT YEAH I DUNNO. I really think we need to address the eating disorders we have in America including over-eating.
FEH I've got to go do German homework and stuff...
Chinese Food and Ice cream
That's what I had for dinner. HERPDERP I basically conned my brother into taking me to a Chinese restaurant for dinner~ He wanted to go to, so it's no a problem -3- LOL I don't even like Chinese food that much... But I kinda really like that Chinese food. Also ice cream HUZZAH. I'm a huge fan o the ChocolateChip Cookie Dough Blizzard, though I don't like that they put fudge in it. Because then it taste like a Frostee and I hate Frostees! They are gross. But I deal because I like chocolate chip cookie dough~
So that was nice, and I kind of have a lot of work I need to do, but for some reason I'm really chill about it. Like I know what I'm going to do so I'm completely at ease by everything! LOL even though I have a lot of things to write, also I'll probably be applying to a job I won't get maybe YEAH! Working on being pretty much the favourite child.
GOSH DANG IT RINGO. I FRIGGIN' HATE YOU MAKING ME WANT TO BAWL! I CAN'T STAND IT! SOBSOB. That's something that annoys me though. I started listening to last.fm because Pandora is a money hungry jerk! But I only have a Beatles station... BUT IT NEVER PLAYS BEATLES MUSIC! Always plays thing by John, or Paul, or George, or Ringo.... And it'll play songs from Across the Universe... BUT NOT ONCE HAVE I HEARD THE BEATLES PREFORMING A BEATLES SONG! Minus the times Paul or George sang songs from Beatles albums... that's not what I'm talking about. Also Julian making me want to cry! FFFF Beatles why you gotta make me have a sob fest. At least Paul's songs are sometime jolly.
Also evidently Velvet Underground is alot more like the Beatles then I thought... Because they play on the Beatles station. FFFFF I'M SO CONFUSED BY EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING I KNOW IS A LIVE...
LOL something funny, I basically wrote a rant for an English paper and like every single person was like "WHY SO NEGATIVE?!" and oh gosh I just lol'd. I thought it was pretty freakin' hilarious. I planned to rewrite it so it's like sickly positive without really changing the set up much. Srsly though I hate that class. IT TAUGHT ME LITTLE TO NOTHING! Also I don't understand why people kept saying Why so negative after someone already said it, I can read people! This is what I am talking. SO MANY IDIOTS. LOL it was pretty hilarious... To me anyway.
