well ello there
just call me izioy =]
i happen to be 15
i love the twilight series
read all four books within the time of a week
i love many animes (thats how i found theotaku lol)
i love red
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struggle
so i've finally found my ray of sunshine
my jacob
so strange because he's so unperfect
so strange because i'm not sure what will happen
more strange because my edward has found a different bella
more strange because i've fully been pulled away from my edward and its been afixiating trying to remove him from my memory
i dont want to forget edward
i havent tried remembering him though
but my edward is fully a ghost in my life as though he's fully disappered
my jacob is strange i feel so drawn to him
my jacob is very liberating and i feel as though around him all my emotions want to just splurrr out
my jacob has romanced me and i feel like i want to take a plunge
the only reason i am falling is because my handle my angel my edward as mierly disappered
the only reason i am falling is because the ghostly figure of my edward is so hard to bare without
the only shadow i see of him is his bella that romes around my halls
the only feeling following me with this shadow is pain and broken souls trying to repair my heart
the only feeling is sadness and i wish it wouldn't remenis
the only happiness is letting those emotions free and it only happens around my jacob
jacob i am not sure of you but you have surely free'd my soul it is merely held down by your hand waiting to pull me into a kiss
once this kiss has been complete
it is my soul to be set free
only your kiss could set me free
new moon
wow i feel as though i jumped into my personal world of twilight
i'm right now in new moon
i just happen to be in the forest
weird in a way but my edward
has parted from my side
i have fallen but
i still feel like theres still a chance as tough
every corner i turn he might be there
every corner i turn the hope would strengthen
but then i feel broken
i am breaking
but i'm being rebuilt
only because i'm going to allow us to become bella and jacob in the start
i'm just an angel with her wings clipped and her angel flying away
Life: 09/12/08 | Posted By: izioy7 | 8 comments |
frustration
frustration came over me
it said hello but not goodbye
frustration screamed almost afraid
afraid i'd run and leave it lonesome at my door
frustration smiled so warmly too
embrassing me and not letting go
frustrations near in every moment
frustration has become my shadow
he did not come
my savior
he did not come
my melody
he did not come
my healing spring
he did not come
my warm sweet love
he left me there
frustration grew
no longer my shadow
frustration was me
frustration screamed
being ripped away
i screamed in relief he came
frustration fought
but was pulled apart
i fought and won
my warm sweet love had come
he did come
with his smooth hands
he did come
with his sweet silver chuckle
he did come
with his healing spring
he did come
my warm sweet love
he did come
with his embrassing arms
frustration lost
but i had won
a lottery
the pot of gold
i had won
this miracle
i had won you
and noone else
I WON
i have you
~my warm sweet love ~
Life: 09/02/08 | Posted By: izioy7 | 0 comments |
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okay
so now i happen to be in lov3
yes oddly
haha usually i am
but lets not say in lov3
more like
i severe crush
like i just cant get enough of him
and what sucks is me being punished
keep me away from him
ughhh how this kills me
but i somehow dont want this to be just another school crush
its insane waiting
its insane crushing
but all this insanity
is sane
because anything
ANYTHING
that has to do with emotions
in theory is absolutely
irrational
theres not many times you'll find me doing the rational thing when
infatuation is the matter
but if he didnt act just as infatuatied
i think this problem might just have a different outcome
and i'd probably be handeling this correct
this
is just one of my mere crushes that cant be stopped i am
back on track with
a new stream of flowing poems
yes this means more posts
=] "YAY!!!" (they all shout)
why thankyou lmao
kay well
i still believe i'm going to have to go insane i mean i have to stay in my house for a majority of the day
all i do is think
think
and
think
well this thinking doesnt help
because i daydream think about this infatuations
ways it can work
the downfalls
but honestly having read
the twilight series
does not make this infatuation lessen or slow
but instead more like make it more profound
make me more infatuated
and uncontrollable of myself
what a terrible action
but honestly my logic
is in many words unlogical
of course thats most of what i am
unlogical but
yes this situation is crazy
and then ughhh i have to wait about three days and a half to see
him
how sick am i that these
three days are making me insane ohh yes i am sick lol
i've been doing swimming
like i'm on a team
well i'm a good leader but
not the most amazing swimmer
need to work on breathing
on my strokes and more then anything
my stamina wow i'm a loser
yea
being in lane one means your slow and you suck
HEY ! i'm there !
so yea everyday 8-10 swimming in the morning is GREAT !
i'm getting into better shape i'm pretty proud i actually
feel like i'm looking good =]
CHEERS !!!
well thats the life download well parts not all but i'll see when i can come back on again thankyou =]
Life: 08/29/08 | Posted By: izioy7 | 2 comments |
something
its driving me insane
watching the days just pass
making my life seem a nothing
keeping me in the closed off gate
time just keeps passing
too slow
too fast
sometimes not moving
every moment i could spend
thinking dreaming of something
of something with you
of something so close
of something so far
just out of reach it feels
to have you not by my side
i need your perfect smooth hands
your soft silver chuckle
your most adoring smile
and the facsination of having you
of having every moment
i spend lost trying to find you
now replaced by
the moments spent being found
and by you
that something
that something
its you
