So, my sister stayed home from school today with her cold. It's not bad, she could've gone (she doesn't have a fever by the sounds of it) but, she decided to stay home and annoy me.
Plus, she was saying that while I was away last night with friends, my mother was angry at me for asking for help in filling up my car with gas. See, since I've got no job, I've got no money.
My mom's ALWAYS been the one person who didn't get angry with me for all this, but I guess I was wrong. She talks about me behind my back, just like the rest of my family. It's unfair; I've told them all countless times, "If there's something you're not happy about with me, talk to me about it my face! Don't go and gossip about me!" But, I guess my words fall on deaf ears.
She said if I don't find a job soon, she's kicking me out and taking away my car. And, she's dead serious. Yeah... kick the diabetic starving artist out on the street! THAT'S gonna solve his problem. But, that's the most terrifying part: how serious she is. And, it's so unfair! They all have no idea how much effort I've been putting forth to find a job! I've applied to FIVE places at the mall, about three other various places and still! NO ONE is hiring! It's not my fault! I'm not incompetent or a failure, it's just that the economy is suffering and no one is hiring because they're all having to cut jobs! I can get a job if someone needs me!
SO, I applied as a graphic designer for a local shirt-printing company today. And, I'd truly appreciate it if you all could send some prayers (to any of the various Gods/Goddesses) for me.
I've got nowhere to go if I can't find a job. I mean, I could stay at a friend's house, but I'd only feel like a burden. I don't want that... I'd sooner starve on the street.
I mean, seriously! Men don't cry! And, I did! *no shame in crying* I did... I feel so helpless and confused and betrayed... I need a hug.
I'm gonna go now, guys... I just need time to get out of this depressed state I'm in... talk to you all later...
~Yosei~
