Yosei's having a bad Valentine's Day. :(
Friday, went to the b/f's house after school, as per usual, and hung out. Didn't do much, though... :/
Saturday, had to leave for the grandparent's house. My grandma had knee surgery on Wednesday and came home from the hospital that day. My mom's staying up there most of this week to help take care of her and grandpa until she's doing better. But, we got up there the other day and she's already doing really well! She had her knee COMPLETELY replaced, and the doctors said they wished they had more patients like her. She was up and walking the very next day.
Anyhoo, stayed the night there on Saturday night, but the WIND that blew through was just AWFUL. Made the house rattle and noisy, so I didn't sleep well at all. The next day was my other grandmother's birthday, so we went out to her house to have lunch and visit. That went alright. I loved the ham. :3
Anyway, got home last night around 5pm and realized I still had upwards of 5 hours of homework to complete, since I didn't get any of the emails the teachers sent until last night. There's no internet where my grandparents live, yeah? Ugh...
Then, I had TWO quizzes to study for today. I think I BOMBED my math quiz, mostly because I forgot my calculator here at home and my phone's calculator doesn't work with exponents. =_= So... guess I'll find out on Wednesday.
Also had a quiz in Japanese over some new vocab RIGHT AFTER A FUCKING EXAM!
Which I also failed.
I almost cried. In class. TT^TT
But, after class, I went to visit the teacher and ask her about how I could improve and not drag the class average down. XD She was so happy to see me and now we're going to meet twice a week for her to help me with learning. My actual problem isn't that I can't learn the language, it's that I have a hard time APPLYING it, like to tests and stuff. According to her, there's a few students who are struggling, so I'm not alone there. But, I'm brave enough to come ask for help and that made her smile. :3 I love it when teachers love their jobs. XDDD
Ugh, but that was the only highlight of the day. The rest of it was pretty meager... the b/f seems to be in a foul mood and I feel like it's my fault. TT^TT He says at least once a week that we don't hang out enough anymore. Well... that's because during the break, we hung out almost everyday. Now, our school schedules and homework loads mean we have priorities that need to be handled before we can hang out. On top of that, my family needed me this weekend. Then, he said, "You have less credits this semester, shouldn't you have more free time?" And, I had to answer, "No, I have the same amount of credits and just because the classes are easier, doesn't mean I have less work. As a matter of fact, I have MORE work! Especially with Japanese!"
And, he's kind of making me feel like it's my fault, like me wanting to do my homework is a bad thing and like it's taking away from him. Well, I NEED to do my homework! If I have time, I'll give it to him. I'm sorry I'm not the kind of guy who sneaks into a janitor's closet and "has fun". But, he's taking extra credits this semester and extra classes! He's there for TWELVE HOURS on Wednesdays, but that's HIS fault, not mine. I'm getting tired of him always saying, "I don't wanna be here in classes. I wanna go home." when HE signed up for the classes!
Anyway, we'd planned to go out for our Valentine's Day dinner a night later, tomorrow (Tuesday), to avoid the rush. So, I mentioned to him today that I was gonna do all my homework for tomorrow and Wednesday so I'd have Tuesday night free with him. But, then, he kinda got into this... mood. I don't know if he feels guilty about wanting to hang out and that that's making me have to do my homework like this... or, what. But, it's only making me feel guiltier. I mean, I'd do this homework tonight anyway, I don't see why he should feel bad. I WANT to hang out with him. >.<
Just before Japanese class, I was studying for the vocab quiz and he joins me and was like, "Oh, if you're doing your homework, maybe I'll just go away." and I said, "Well, I can chat and do vocab at the same time. It's not too hard."
But, instead, he decided he had to leave me alone to study and sat down to read a book. *sigh* I hate that... He doesn't do it on purpose, but it makes me feel guilty when he starts to act all put-out like that... I know he wants to be close, I do too. But...
GAH! It's SO confusing!!!
*Sigh*
Well... gonna go do my other homework, then...
Hope your guys' Valentine's Day is going better than mine.
~Yosei~
