Today, my b/f and I were watching Star Trek: The Next Generation and, I dunno if it was because I was watching the show, or what, but I had a random bit of insight today.
He looks over at me and says, "Is there anything you need?" I replied with, "Well, no... I'm fine. Why do you always ask that?" 'cause, he usually does ask that frequently. But, he answered with, "Well, I loves you and I always want joo to be comfortable and always happy."
And, then a thought hit me: if I was always happy, I would never know sadness. And, in never knowing sadness, I would never truly know happiness.
So... though I'd never want my boyfriend to cause me sadness, I'd never want to not know that emotion. I want to be happy with him, and when I AM sad, I know I can go to him to get happy again.
In the end, for those of you who read this, the next time someone asks you if you need anything, don't think it's selfish to say, "No, I'm fine," If you need a glass of water, just say so. They just want you to be happy in that moment. Don't take it for granted.
Well, I have an exam to study for on Monday, so... when I'm not working on that, I'll be working on my last two pages for the manga I want to get done and have started on SJ... thanks to those of you who visited~! It brightened my day~! ^_^ Hugs to you all~! OH! I'm also gonna get a haircut tomorrow. Probably go back to more of an older hairdo of mine. My bangs have gotten long... I wanna cut 'em short again. Get my hair done shorter as well... it's gotten longer than it used to be (yay, it curls! I hate my naturally curly hair =_=;).
Okies, off for the night. Thanks for reading! *hugs*
~Yosei~
