Listening to: 100 years by Fighting for Five
Mood: Upset
time: 5:16 PM
Hello People,
Today has not been my day, Needless to say, I found out my Cross Bow was stolen from my dad's home in a break in...
My best friend is 2weeks or 2 months pregnant.. I can't remember what she said, I barely know her but it chokes me up to know that shes pregnant..
She has no electric, No heat, a low paying job and barely any money.. Shes living on little, but eating alot thank god..
I was upset because she has had a little girl before whom died at 2 months.. I was about to breakdown crying there and hug her tightly, I never asked to be emotional support for my friends when i can barely support my emotions..
Everyday I seem to be faced with the fact my life is turning upside down little by little, My sad life is adding more chapters to which no one will read.
Lately I've been staring at my Pentagram necklace, Err no worries its a protection pentagram or so my friend Brooklyn says, Shes into Wicca and her sister is a Wiccan. So I'm going to continue to wear it, i think I need some protection despite myself.
I've just had a bad day, I have to keep telling myself that. Oh btw, Friday is to write love on her arms day, You put love anywhere on your arms, I'm doing it. 83
Thank god I have no school Tomarrow, I cant stand school, I can't stand all my drama.. in my life that is. I'm still only 14, i still want to be a little child and not deal with everything I have been.
I just want to be a child.. I'm meant to be a child, not protector or emotional support though I seem to be just as I dont want to be.. I'm just little Wolfie wanting to live her life as a child till she must be mature enough to deal with everything...
Its not helping that my dreams are turning into everything about Justin F. whom is very bad for my whole being in people's minds. I dont know why I keep dreaming about him. I dont like him. I dont love him. Hes my friend..
I want my mind to just disappear for a minute and come back blank with everything I can take still there and everything i can not will just go poof.
I want CJ so bad it hurts, i want to hear him and know that my worries are just a little crease that will cease. Good thing is I'm spending all my night up talking to him on the phone till we both are forced to go to a slumber..
Thats all I wish is that I can have a normal life where nothing is coming to get me and breaking me down. Do I fear everything? Why yes its just the time you have to and wonder if you still have the strength to go on..
I'm strong but I break every so often to be repaired by my friends and my lover. Its just a moment I need to take and breathe.
Bye everyone. Hopefully i didnt bore you with my stupidness.
