"Oh how I find every subtle thing screams your name
It reminds me of places and times we shared.
Couldn't live locked in these memories
Now I'm chained to my thoughts again."
It's so funny, because I've had quite a few thoughts lately that I have meaning to type about and post on here, so I'll try my best to have a condensed version of everything on this blog :)
As more and more time passes by, I begin to find many affirmations of what I had said in my previous blogs.
"Break won't be bad, it will just be a week."
I don't ever allow myself to fully realize how much I miss a person until I can finally see them again, but the thing with him is that everything I did either reminded me of him or made me think that I wanted to share this experience with him. As I was sitting in my room, I was evaluating these feelings and how odd it was for me to think that. I mean, even with past guys I had liked and cared about a lot I still didn't want so badly for them to be with me or for me to be with them always, which means that this one is definitely different. I have never experienced anything like this, it's all so new. My mind goes back to that one quote: If this isn't love, this is the closest I've ever been.
Because that is definitely how I feel. Just the hypothetical thought of not having him in my life makes me really sad. Also, he was the first one to leave campus for break, and the day that he did, apparently it was obvious how sad I was. I didn't realize what was on my face until some people asked me if I was all right.
(Which leads me to additional thoughts)
Last night I was talking with one of my friends and she was telling me about the difficulty of having a long distance relationship. She mentioned how hard it was and how it hurts because she wants to be with him but she can't. I told her that if you guys really love each other and God is calling for you to be together, then He will make it work. I also reassured her that it's good to have bumps in relationships, because it helps you to work together to overcome them, and when you do you come out stronger. Then she thanked me and said that she'll go pray about it. I really hope that it did, and that I remember this advice if and when ever the relationship I'm in faces it. I know that love is more than just a feeling, and I pray that whatever life throws at us, with the help of God's grace we'll be able to work it out together.
Whatever God wants!
Huh, this is currently the only things I can pull up right now. Hmmm.
