(a.k.a. Miles can't deal with suspense)
I've heard from different places and things that attempt to describe just what it means to know that you love someone and what it's like to go steady. Things that I've heard that at first I didn't really understand but thought were so beautiful were things like:
"I think whenever you experience something beautiful or get a certain reaction to something that is precious to you, you would want to share all of those moments with that certain someone. I think that's when you begin to realize just how important that person is to you."
"When you care about someone so much and when they feel the same for you, you begin to see yourself through their eyes. You begin to know that you are loved, and that you're not a monster."
I used to think those things were really silly. I never understood that, but like I said, I still thought it was beautiful. This first part just stems off what I had been talking about in the previous blog. The little things, like watching the sky, or seeing a movie, or even someday showing him the schools that I went to. I want to someday share all these things with him. It doesn't have to be now, just in it's own time, in God's time.
The latter thought however, I thought led to error. You have to be able to see the qualities in yourself as well, but now that I find myself in the predicament that I'm in I've come to realize that I interpreted it all wrong. You need to find qualities in yourself for the stability, but what's interesting is that the other finds things in you that at first, you may never even realized you had. Seeing that they believe in me so much with so much conviction inspires me to really think about things and then I find myself beginning to believe that "hey, maybe they are right: Maybe I can do this. Maybe I will do this." And then, maybe it will get to the point where there won't be any maybes, that I can do this. That I will do this.
Thank you for pushing me to be the best that I can be.
