http://koreanwavetimes.blogspot.com/2012/04/shinee-reason-lyrics-translation-in.html
I love this song. It's probably my favorite one on their album: Sherlock. If you don't know yet, this is the kpop band, SHINee. (If you recall from a previous post, I let you all in on my Asian crush? Yeah, he's a member of this band. Anyways, yeah. I thought maybe I should share what I'm currently listening to over and over.
But. Now that we're on this topic, I must say, my little sister is the funniest thing ever. We were watching videos of SHINee on youtube (What? They're amusing. :3 ) and anyways, I kept on commenting on how funny and oddly talented Onew was, and then she was like "Oh no! You say you like Key, but secretly, you like Onew!" and just the fact that this sort of assumption would even flow out from her mouth causes me to burst into laughing convulsions. Honestly, don't tell me that she's going to become a ridiculous romantic too when she gets older! She's so silly. ^_^ On a side note: I really hope she doesn't get sucked into teen blah love triangle drama that Hollywood seems to feasting on...nah, she's too cool for that. ;P
Anyways. A lot of things have been running through my mind lately, and there have been many insane thoughts on so many different levels that have developed a little office cubical inside my brain. Silly files.
I've come to realize that some things are easily done when I'm away from home at college, and some other things are better done at home. Today though, it was so weird. I had a meltdown and actually asked something aloud (I'm not even sure to who, whether it was directed to GOD or just to myself). I said "Why is it so much easier at Franciscan?" and that honestly shocked me. I then began to contemplate on it and as I was doing so, frustration just took over and I broke down crying. I don't know. It was like, stupid feelings of doubt and self worth and other insecurities that haunt the back of our minds I guess. Maybe because the atmosphere is so much more different and unique at my university that it makes being out in the real world, well...it puts things in a different perspective. I'm able to see a lot more clearly, but I guess being home for so long is starting to dig up old problems I used to have with myself, and that bothers me a bit.
I have to be stronger. Fortunately, during my breakdown, I was trying to adjust my mp3 to some song, but it automatically went to "Yellow" by Coldplay. And I was listening to that song, I thought of GOD. And I thought: "Your reward shall be great in Heaven." "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." and then, I really payed attention to the lyrics of the song, and how it says how the person singing did all of these things for someone, and how they said "it's true, look how they shine for you." And then, I gradually began to feel better, because I remembered that GOD has done all of this and so many wonderful things for me, and that I should be happy and never forget to count my blessings. Life comes at you fast, but the point is to focus on GOD, and He'll take care of you.
Whenever I think about it now, my high school art teacher had given us all advice before we graduated, and she said "Do what you love and the money will follow." And you know, that's basically just another way of what I had said in the previous sentence. I love GOD. Therefore, I need only pay attention to HIM, and everything else will follow. :)
P.S. I'm going to try to upload another picture. Again, this is another one taken from the internet. I wonder if this will work this time.
