So. How are you guys?
I've been... terrible, to be honest.
So, let me begin.
My newer dog, Ned, has got a few nicknames, on the plus side. Flanders and Eyebrows (He has light brown fur that looks like eyebrows. I gave him both those nicknames hahaha.
But sadly I have to walk him in the rain sometimes. But I've started a rock collection. Like, every time I walk him, I pick up a rock and add it to my collection.
So... Some may know I've been... Umm... Cutting.... again.
BUT...
I worked up the courage yesterday to talk with my mum.
So mum took Ned for a walk. During school I was like 'just pretend you forgot' and then I began making up different things like '<Enter random sibling name> has been playing her iPad at night' or '<enter other random sibling name> has depression or something like that' (Which are both sort of true, so it could have worked), but I decided that it was best to tell her.
NOW DON'T YOU FLIPPIN' TELL ME DIFFERENT WAYS TO COPE, COZ I SWEAR TO GOD I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF THAT.
People keep telling me 'hold ice!' and 'rubber bands!' and all that sh*t, and IT'S NOT WORKING.
I apologise to the people who have told me that stuff. I'm sorry. I'm just really sick of it.
So I told mum and she was surprisingly handling it well. In fact, it was just 'Mum, I've returned to cutting' And she was just like 'Ok. See your psychiatrist, we'll hide the knives and scissors and we'll have girl nights or whatever'. Then mum started talking about her car, and how it's completely un-fixable.
Yeah, mum's car broke down the other day. And by 'broke down', I mean the exhaust pipe fell off and it was leaking, and there was lots of internal damage n stuff. So her friend who lives nearby has been picking me up and dropping me off.
Sorry mum. I'm not seeing my pschiatrist. I hate her, as much as that sounds like a movie character. I hate her. She keeps asking questions n stuff. And I'm not meaning things that are supposed to help me. This is what a usual conversation between her and I go through:
"How have you been?" (P)
"Horrible. I've started cutting again" (Me)
"Want to tell me why?"
"I don't have a reason. I just do it"
"There must be a reason"
"No. I don't have a reason. I just do it"
-nods. Doesn't say anything else for a full two minutes.
"Are you sure?"
That's it. Literally. It's annoying.
I doubt that taking the sharp objects n stuff away is going to help. I've seen scissors all over the place and it's SO TEMPTING.
Hmm... What else?...
OH ABOUT MY AUs.
I've now got 5. Here are the backstories and I swEAR TO GOD IF YOU STEAL IT I WILL SUE YOU. Also it's the main to the least main. As in ones that I've worked on.
Quaketale-
So. Originally there were 2 humans who had absolutely nothing to do with Chara and Frisk. But I've changed that.
I've decided that when the earthquake occurs, every single human except for Chara is killed. Chara is trapped under a rock, with her leg stuck there. The reason why she's still alive is because Frisk shoved her out of the way before a rock crushed her. BUT Frisk is not dead. Her soul is still there. Chara considers absorbing it, but she decides not to since, 1 there appears to be no other survivors to kill and 2 Frisk had helped her to stop murdering people, and she had saved her.
So she spends a couple of days, protecting- HOLY FUCK IMMA WRITE IT NOW. I haven't written this story yet!!
Invertale-
This one's a little private but I'll tell you a little bit about it. So there's this girl named Glitch, who used to be in a world called Invertale, alone with a guy called Reset (A purple monster with a labcoat, resembling Monster Kid, but older). She hated it and Reset, being a kind guy, sent her to Quaketale (before the earthquake) for a fortnight. But she never returned for a while, since whenever she used her magic, bad things would happen in other timelines. But then Invert Sans was made, and he got lost in Quaketale. Almost died of pneumonia, but Glitch saved him and brought him back to health. He turned out to be evil and kidnapped her back to Invertale. He killed Reset, then Glitch escaped to Undertale using a portal, thus creating the earthquake in Quaketale. Eventually kidnapped back and tortured until she agreed to do whatever Invert said. He eventually became a little less evil, but Glitch was already going mental.
Darktale- A disease that goes through the Underground and the world. It was darkness that slowly ate at the world until there was nothing left except Sans, who had been split into 2 halves, Lightsans and Darksans, both being evil, and Soulkey, who was the guardian of the cure, of which the darkness couldn't take over or it'd be cured, leaving nothing. Still working on it.
Memorytale-
Sans is trapped in his memories of the other routes, like genocide n stuff. He is forced to relive every single thing that has ever happened to him, due to an accident when he was trying to fix the machine in his secret room at the back of the house, since I believe it's a time traveling machine. But it appears that someone that he's never seen before is always in it; Soulkey. He always appears to be in each one, and always seems to be LOOKING at HIM, not the Sans in the memories.
Omegatale-
Everyone is in omega form except for Soulkey. To be released from being Omega, they had to kill and take their soul, so basically the reverse of Undertale.
Yeah that's it. Gonna go write the thing now for Quaketale. GONNA MAKE A WORLD AS WELL.
