Hey guys!
How is everyone’s weekend going? Mines are going pretty smoothly despite my less then happy week.
No, my ex still made no attempt to contact me. His phone was finally on yesterday and I called numerous times with no answer. I finally left yet another voice mail telling him to get his stuff and I’m moving on. After that I wrote him a long e-mail about everything. How I can’t be there for him if he won’t talk to me. How I have to move on and etc. I’ll probably post it if he doesn’t reply back. I added in the title to please reply back so I know he got it. I also put it in his IM just in case he’s not trying to look in his e-mail. We’ll see what happens.
Yesterday, I went through a really rough rut. I felt like everything was simply going down hill (more then the ex too). My world has token a big hit and somehow I forgot my way, sort of. I knew inside that I still wanted to make a career out of my creativity as a whole but I felt myself become more hesitant about it. About everything. Was what I was doing right or even worth it? I haven’t felt that bad in a long time. I’m not the kind to wallow too deep in my sorrows, so I took a nap and told myself when I wake up, shit WILL be different.
I woke up still feeling “blah” but I told myself over and over that I can do it and make my dreams come true. Even though I still felt that hesitance I set that aside and kept my focus. I won’t let anything take my dreams away, not even myself. I also have to remember what good is going on with my life as well. My dad is living with me and my family now (older sister and mother). He retired from his job where he worked for 22 years. My dad finally has us to take care of him and vice versa. My mom and sister was so stressed that their hair started falling out last year before he came. Both saw hair growing back the last month or two.
I myself and my sister were lucky enough to have my dad live with us since we don’t have jobs, so the pressure isn’t huge like it was before. We both can focus on building our businesses and dreams.
My creations have been getting better and I’m expanding my art horizons, friends, and networking around the web. My contest is a big hit and even Gadriann asked me if it was okay if she upload some comics based on Otaku Battle Royal!
So everything is far from bad depending what you look at 90% of the time. As long as I keep my focus, dreams, and friends close I’m pretty sure I’ll achieve more then what I asked for.
I also want to mention how lucky I am to know the people I do. You guys, other people on the net, and my best friend ranz (forgot his fake name I gave him). You all really made things 10x easier to handle this week. And I can’t thank you all enough for it. :3
So yeah free art raffle to show my thanks plus I’m up to it, anyone can join I don’t care. :3
